Serving while Disappointed

A little something I cooked up.

Serving while Dissapointed.
I'm not exactly where I thought I'd be around this time last year. I had a plan. A rock solid plan.
Yes I do love to read but man do I want the world to see this issa that the Lord has placed down on the inside of me! I want to publish my book, maybe make something out of it. It's nothing new, everybody who has been paying attention knows I love to write. But this is different. This is not all my ideas. This is not all me. There is a higher power at work here.
Now that I'm here, let me share this:
You did everything right. You went to MedSchool, you made it out. Yet somehow, you still can't see your blessing. You still smile at your neighbor Phil, even after that last December incident. You still show up to that fellowship every Friday. You are still the glue that holds Kerry together, you know that she'll break if you ever try to let go.
You have been in that relationship for two years now, still making bad decisions. It has been four years since that job interview, but no one has called yet. You sure do have patience but this time, it doesn't look like something is happening. For the longest time, you've known that you have something to say, it just hasn't always the best time.
You still show up for Martha even after last night's conversation. You still wait tables even after all this evolving. It didn't go exactly how you planned it. It should have happened by now. You think to yourself.
You still make sure John gets that smile everyday after he sees you, even though you're trying really hard to keep it together yourself. Your book did not sell. No one showed up to that launch. No one asked if you had anything to say. No one said anything.
You have prayed about it, but every time you bring up you, someone always dawned on your heart. Someone needed saving. Someone needed immediate healing. So you pushed your dreams aside and you interceded for them. So what now?