The thing in the mirror.

What is that thing in the mirror?

That couldn't possibly be me standing there.

She's fat, she's ugly; she's not right.

Look at the way she twitches in the light.

She's a monster; she must go.

I bend over the toilet and force the bile to flow.

I gag and I heave.

I collapse and I cry.

I just want to die.

I feel so ugly,

All because of the fat beast within me.

I get up and look at it; the thing looks back, staring.

It mocks me as I begin glaring.

I look down at my ribs; they stick out so much.

My skin is so thin to the touch.

I look so pale,

My bones are frail.

Without a sound,

I fall to the ground.

With a soft, weak sigh,

I lay there, waiting to die.

Author's Note

My day-to-day life, living with anorexia, and bulimia...

Reviews

[shewrites]

Beautiful. I love it. Great job :) Nothing inspires me to write more than my eating disorder.

[r]

im so sorry that has to be horrible to deal with

[Preston]

Very good. I like it. :} it shows the true pain of eating disorders.

[Princy]

Gosh I feel like crying! This reminds me a bit of myself! My insecurities! =(

[Raven Radke]

Wow! This was very nice work. I almost cried it's so beautiful tho. Omg! Im crying! This work is the first that actually got to me! Oh wow! Very beautiful indeed!

[Raven Wilson]

Wow this is an amazing poem. There are so many people who experience this lifestyle without truly seeing themselves. I believe this is a good piece to make them realize what is happening. Blunt and straightforward, It is a great piece.

[S.Gillogly]

Sad Anna... and a great example of the hardships of the female populace in these modern times were all women must be tiny and frail to be considered beautiful.

[The Last Poetic King]

I enjoyed the thoroughly, very nice job. Real good here, keep it up. Just try to work with different topics/ideas.

[Becca*Type2012]

Amazing write. Very truthful. It reminds me of a book I read "Perfect." Nice poem, nice work.

[Journey]

This is a very good piece. My initial thoughts were that you captured the viewpoint well, but from the author's notes I see that this is your reality. I hope that writing it has a positive impact upon your struggle.