If you could see into my soul.

If you could see into my soul, what would you see?

Would you see the pain and suffering I go through for being who I am,

or would you see the sorrow that drowns me?

Would you see the happiness I feel when I look into his eyes?

Would you see the guilt I feel when I fall asleep on him?

 

Would you see the regret I have for being pregnant?

 

Would you see all of my repressed memories?

 

Would you see the horrors that creep into my mind?

 

Would you notice how dark my thoughts are?

 

Would you be as haunted as I am by the images that are burned into my mind?

Would you be scared by how lost this child feels?

Author's Note

I was bored in media tech.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful poem. Almost written too real. The sadness and fear is written in almost every line. A excellent poem.
Coyote

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

A gritty realistic view of what is in a mother's mind. There is such resolve and truth here.

[Arthur Crow]

Thie title itself is gripping.. the words powerfully expressed from the depths of the soul.

I thought you did quite a good job.

[These Haunted Hallways]

Wow, amazing. Ya can really feel this in the guts, too. Wow, im so sorry that ur goin thru these hard times. Must be really tuff for you :( Being pregnant at such a very young age, although im not sure how that happened, and it's none of my business tho, but, i really do feel for you, and im sure u have a lot of love and support from loved ones, and friends and stuff to help and guide you. I really do hope that everything works out for you, and that things will be better soon. Great write, too. Good job :) Hang in there.

B.A.

[deeps]

Such a sad write here
I can feel the pain here.
Very well expressed.

[Cassandra D.]

You were bored?
Well, if you were trying to entertain yourself, I say you did a fine job there :)

[Domo]

Very depressing, makes me wanna cry. Overall good.
~D♥m♥~

[J.R Schlievert]

you opened your self....you let all that anger out of your self! im happy for you!