beyond the surface

hidden depths of family and freinds

a day of tears and broken spirits

spent on the floor in

frustration and no communication

blame, causes and denial

tired of the lectures and accusations

the guilt and confusion

years spent thinking that i had to give everything to have people care

dinners, money, time

everything has been for the keeping of the peace

the status quo

 

don't understand why everything broke 

family torn apart

friendships with conditions

unconditional love that was not there when needed

hurt and confusion

 

never meant to keep things from people just tried to keep things separate

 

would never endanger those i love

 

truly believe that it was my duty to help a sick person

but am learning to realize

it cannot happen if i lose everything that is me.

 

years spent giving in

years spent not speaking up

years spent keeping peace at all costs

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Kaylor Mason]

Sadly enough, this is the true story of too many households to be counted in this world. I read it and nearly had a lump rising in my throat; your words are flawless in their simplistic accuracy of raw, pent-up emotions of a woman (or even, in some cases, a man) who forces themselves to keep a lid on how they feel, just to keep the peace of a "happy household". The "Happy Household" is always a vicious illusion, ain't it?
This poem is excellent :)