Blind Christian

I felt so lost without reason for being so, my life was flawless yet meaningless

My Lord asked me "Do you feel worthy of good things? Do you know where you are?"  

Thinking the most 'Christian' thing I replied "Of course I do."

 

It was dark and sleepless for the nights after that, excepting one night.....

Suddenly light flashed before me and in an instance

I was in a white endless expanse

 

Terror filled me and anxiety overcame me

I began running in a direction I thought was right

But  it turned out I wasn't moving anywhere

 

In the blink of an eye there was a strange creature in front me

He had the head of an eagle and the body of a lion

In his mouth he held a bowl of different shiny stones

 

He led me to an expanse of water that was not only chyrtal clear but pristine!!

Dipping it gently into the pool he seemed to have drawn out every sin and misdeed I committed

Disgust filled me..and pride so I grabbed maliciously after the bowl, insulted a creature such as this would know these things

 

He out witted me and a flash of light drew a line where it was and exploded into a massive being of light

Immediately, falling to my knees in fear it would blind me, I wept

"Such a scary place...*sob*... How did I get here?"

 

The light dimmed and, when my tears were being cleared.

My blurry vision revealed the silhoutte of gates of Pearl shining briliantly

My heart sank knowing where I was in that instance

 

Whoever was drying my tears stood up and looked back at them

This figure of light smiled down at me and put out his hand

I took it clearing the rest of my tears and saw the hand was holding was St. Peter's

 

Through the gates I saw  maidens laying down sheets of white,

They,themselves clothed in white from head to toe with royal blue woven into their headbands

Through the columns I made out two figures both dressed in white and making their way to the girls laying the sheets

 

I turned, looking back at St. Peter to ask him why they were setting down those sheets

He smiled and told me to ask the man approaching 

"How can I?" I said remembering the things in the bowl the animal held "I'm not worthy."

 

St. Peter smiled and looked towards the men approaching us

Too caught up in myself to realize it, he opened the gates

When I looked up the girls continued laying the sheets but they were doing it for me!

 

I looked down the corridor and one of the figures in white smiled up at me

And, though I could only make out His lips, He mouthed the words

"Now you see."

 

I fell backwards, like a weight was being added, grasping for the place I was 

Until I felt the amour of skin strap me 

And the cloud-like effect of my bed underneath me once more,

 

Breath had robbed me of it's presence for but a few minutes

But I got the answer I needed to hear,

Not the one I wanted