unfinding thoughts

Here all alone, thinking about all those moments I've lived smiling, enjoying this life...nothing. I see nothing. Those people and their words. For me, I’m still wondering, looks like they know me, from a long time. The way they greet me, smiling, polite and healing my pain. Pain, inside my heart, because I'm breathing. Every time I breathe, it hurts. Life and death at the same time. 

Life and death...

Afraid of death? Why? 

I’m not afraid of death? Why? It’s life that freaks me out. Yes. I'm afraid of this life. That smile. But it's so easy to smile for others then why can't for myself? Maybe it’s that hurt and pain, a fear. 

Its fine when someone else forget you, I’m unworthy. But it’s crazy when you forget who you are, who you were. How does it feels? Empty? NO! 

Unfinding thoughts, start to fear.

Unknown feelings, don't you dare to heal.

 

Reviews

[katnisscat]

My favorite part was when you said you feared life. I won't quote it because I'm a lazy butt, but this poem is really...not touching, but relatable. Just don't lean too far that way, or sink too deep.

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I loved your pouring heart here:) You said something I say Its not the dying I fear its the life I fear:) I understand you in all you say my dear friend. Your very amazing Glitch:) I learn something being sick, Through my depth I shall lift a pen I shall form the words and give to all, My life may seem like a shallow waters end, But when I give deep from my heart, I know I will swim to the mighty end:) You did so awesome:)