I am a Mestizawoman

 

I am a Mestizawoman !

A Wombmyn of many cultures.

Indio, Aztec, Mexican, Hispanic, European.

I walk a fine line between worlds.

Grasping on to the Indigenous of my Ancestors

Trying to fit into the modern Anglofied world of the US.

This lines blur me into the Borderlands of the idealism.

Making me search for a new identity.

Forcing me into a roll that is neither hear nor there.

I am a mutt, half breed, coyote'.

Looked down upon by some.

Barely accepted by any.

I speak English as my Mother tongue.

Our Parents were afraid to teach us the language that was theirs.

They thought that it was best for us since they had to walk the fine line too.

Punished in school for speaking what came naturally.

As a child, Grandpa would give me Leche con azucar,

but would not give it to me until I asked in his Native tongue.

My skin is Brown like that of the Earth Mother.

My eyes as black as the coal that comes from deep within her womb.

My Hair Black like the Raven scavanging to find what it needs to survive.

My body is thick, rounded, sturdy.

My face a collage with bits of each of my Grandmothers before me.

They ask with facination What are you?

I am me!

I am a wombmyn of the Earth.

If I lie down on the ground I will disappear.

I am not your ideal of Beauty, but I am Beautiful.

I am a child of dysfuction.

I am a part of that you wish to close off from your Borders.

You ask me what are you?

Like that is a simple question.

I am "Native American" from both sides of the Borders you created.

My Great Great Grandmother was a Indian Slave, My Great Grandfather a half Apache hidden Jew.

I am a Mestizawombmyn, who has compensated so much that I do not fit into my Family.

A Family who is marred by dysfunction, because they refuse to claim all who they are.

Where Mexican & Indian are dirty words, where We are Hispanic.

They deny their ancestors, as I embrace them.

Yet I am the one looked down upon for marrying outside of La Raza.

I blur the lines between worlds

Like my sister the Raven finding what I need to survive.

But I have not forgotten who I am as I walk between worlds.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[mattavelli]

This is great. :)
It is very inspiring.
I'm swedish/cuban. I'm a colorchanger. I can be very brown or very pale. :)
I'm sorry your family is conflicted.
Take care.