Dear Shepherd of My Heart

The issue is not obedience... A sure direction is all I want.

Dear Shepherd of My Heart

How are you my dear Shepherd
It seems to me that you are so busy
I did not hear you for so long
Been asking you a lot of questions
But you're so silent and I don't know why

Is it because I have been so foolish
Is it because I am so hard-headed
Is it because you think I'm proud
Is it because I'm not listening
Or because there's no word to say

If you think I'm foolish, please tell me
If I'm hard-headed, in what way
If I'm proud, in what aspect
If I'm not listening, may I ask when
If there's nothing to hear, then silent me

Everyday I ask you to guide me
I am searching for you daily
"Please purify my heart"
This is my constant prayer
What I want is your sure command

The issue is not obedience
The issue is not willingness
The issue is not sacrifice
No, these are not issues for me
A sure direction is all I want

Please tell it to me plainly
Forgive my hearing problem
If you may, please spell it out
For it's not that I don't trust you
I just don't trust my heart and self

Dear Shepherd of my heart
Please be patient with me
Kindly guide me with your eyes
Speak to me with your mouth
Let me hear you face to face

This is what I want you to know
My own dreams don't matter to me
I'm sick and hate of my own desires
All I want and need is you
But you've got to talk to me clearly

Dear Shepherd of my heart
Please tell me what to do
Without hesitation I'll do it for you
Just show me where to go
With a willing heart I will follow

Dear Shepherd of my heart
Please listen to my plea
I beg you to direct me surely
Tell me what you really want
Not in public but to me

Hearing in public is too general
Even the scripture is for all
Movies and books are not reliable
Music and poetry are not dependable
So please speak to me personally

Reviews

[mattavelli]

Hello, Glory Vosotros! :)
I have no god, so to me this reads as an irony, but your frustration is expressed in a clear and lovely way.

[Himaya Ka]

Thank you for your review mattavelli. If I'll hear, I'll tell you here.🙂

[Himaya Ka]

Hi Mattavelli, I got an aswer already. God said, don't think too much. Just do whatever you can do for today. Simplify your thoughts. You don't have to know all things.
Matthew 11:28-30
28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

[mattavelli]

This reads as more irony to me, but its great that you feel better. It amazes me that your faith can be so central in your thinking.