It Wasn't Spelled Out

IT WASN'T SPELLED OUT

 Psalm 119:17-19 

17) Deal bountifully with thine servant, that I may live and keep thy word. 18) Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law. 19) I am a stranger in the earth: hide not thine commandments from me. 

A child who experienced love in the family appreciates his life. The attitude of gratefulness is built up in him. It's undeniable with his words and actions. The desire to please them in everything he does is evident. His fear is to see himself breaking the heart of the people he loves. This was also the heart of King David before God. That's why the LORD called him, the man after His own heart. 

David's prayer in the book of Psalm 119 is a reflection of his deep longing to honor God in all his ways. To go astray from God's instructions was his greatest fear. (This is the kind of fear which produces wisdom. Wisdom in decision making, and wisdom to choose to do what is right at all times, whether it's big or small.) To know the heart of God was a beacon to him in all his steps, but obviously in his prayer in this Psalm, it seemed to imply that there were times in his life that God's direction was kinda blurry for him, things that weren't spelled out clearly, in which I also experienced as I desire to hear God's voice to bring me to the place wherever  He wanted me to be for His glory.

The room was in total darkness, and I was in a deep sleep when the phone rang. It took me several seconds to pick up the phone. Though I was waiting for a call for a couple of days but I did not expect that it will surprise me that day.  Lazily, I picked up and answered the phone, "Hello, who's this please!" I asked. "Yes, hello! Good morning. Is this Glory Vosotros?" the language I heard just blew up my slothful mind; she spoke not in our native language. The lazy tone of my voice was replaced with a tone of excitement as I answered the question, "Yes Madam, it's Glory speaking!" "Well, it's the director of Philippine Christian Gospel School. Just wondering why you're not here, it's your first day of duty." she nicely asked. To my surprise I answered without thinking, " Yes, Madam, I'm on my way!". Though in reality I wasn't, for I was still lying on bed conversing with her; but that was an honest mistake, I believe, for that was not a premeditated lie; at that time, my mind really wanted my body to be transported  where she was. 

Honestly, I can't really remember that she mentioned to me when will I be reporting, I didn't even know that I was already hired the last time we've talked. As far as I could remember, she only handed me the list of requirements I needed to pass. There was no typical statement given to celebrate, like "Congratulations, you're hired!" no cliches uttered, but she prayed for me instead, that I will be used by God in the lives of the students. Yes, I was just an idiot applicant. My idea of the procedures in applying a job was too little. I remembered how tongue-tied I was during the interview when she asked me, "So, how will I know that you are a graduate from Cebu Normal University? What you have here is only your resume and application later. I didn't see your diploma." I was not able to answer back right away, it took me seconds to think before I was able to explain to her that I was just a fresh graduate, and our diploma wasn't given yet. She smiled and calmly say, "But I need a proof for me to hold that you really are a graduate from that university, what can you give me?" At that moment, I cannot think of anything. My mouth was totally shut. Then she took a deep breath and smiled again and said, "This is what you should do, go back to the university you graduated and ask for recommendation and certification letter from the Dean; then, come back here with all the requirements I asked you to pass." I nodded and answered her "Ah, okay Madam. Thank you, Madam." So, I went back to the university not sure what's going to happen next.

I went to the Dean's office to ask for those stuff. I was reluctant and fearful, I have to find my sound composure before I enter into that office. To talk to the Dean is a real hot seat experience; it's like facing another interview with an employer. I was scared, knowing that our Dean was so strict. But God's favor was really evident that day, when I went to her office, she noticed me right away, and smiled at me. For me, that was a relief! Then she asked, "What can I do for you, have you already applied for a job?" "Yes, Doc, but I don't know yet if I got hired or not, the employer asked me to go back to you to ask for these letters for my proof that I am a graduate from this university." I explained. With a smile on her face she said, "Glory, Glory, if an employer will ask for recommendation or certification like these, and the rest of the requirements, that means, you are already hired, so congrats! I was truly delighted when I heard that, but still, I was not totally convinced, not until I was called. Truly, the story of my job interview was an amazing thing for me; that was my first and the last interview I ever had. I landed on this job, and enjoy the mysteries of the journey in teaching.

Facing the unknown is a daily challenge. You don't know what's next, and life is oftentimes unpredictable. But what matters most is, you know who is holding  the future and you believe that He knows what's best for you; and He is always in control. Your future may not be clearly spelled out, but you have to keep your heart on what He had already spoken. Keep on trusting to the still small voice in your heart that everything is perfectly prepared already for you, not because of who you are, and what you can do, but everything is about the master plan, will and purpose of the One who created all things for His glory. Though it's not clearly spoken, if it's yours, it's yours, so, consider it done!