Flatline

Just a poem...Spilled my thoughts.

Flatline.

One word that means so much to me.

It doesn’t mean the same thing to a lot of people.

It is an absolute ending… A guarantee.

To some, it’s evil. But to me, it’s extremely peaceful.

It’s all the freedom I could ever want.

For an inexplicable reason, it doesn't haunt.

Life out of control.

It’s about to explode and I,

Feel like letting go

Like an overdose of guilt

But death means no tomorrow

It is final.

I don’t apologize for these words… so suicidal

I’m done with “survival”.

I’m done with useless coping techniques.

I’m done with millions of tweaks.

Here and there.

I’m freaking everywhere

Because that’s what a messed up brain feels like

And yes it must be childlike, but

It’s so absurd.

Feeling unheard and

The world around me is all blurred.

Everything is slow and I’m too fast.

I know it isn’t real but it’s a time draft, in my mind.

I’m fine with being left behind.

It goes up…

It goes down…

It was a setup and a

nervous breakdown.

So here it is,

It all started with an, “I’m fine,” a rookie mistake.

Now, a flatline, consequence of a heartache.

Author's Note

For those who understand, I'm sorry...

Reviews

[Bear]

Critique: (For a inexplicable reason, it doesn't haunt.) For an - listen to the beginning sound of the word following the indefinite articles a and an. If it sounds like a consonant, use a, if it sounds like a vowel, use an.
(I goes down…) It goes down?

Review: being a sexagenarian myself and having a minor medical background I am oh to familiar with the topic from both sides you could say. Your poem is well thought out and intelligently written, you have used just enough emotion to make your point and a philosophy that offers enlightenment if not hope to those who haven't been there. Bravo! I give it five out of five Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap!

[Gina]

I found this constructive! I did not even notice those silly mistakes! Thank you for pointing them out :P I cannot believe I did not even realize that I made them. Thank you so much for your feedback! It means a lot to me.

Always, Gina.

[Bear]

there is a trick I use that you may find helpful. I use a text to speech program to listen to my work so I can here it as written. This way a typo that may spell a word but the wrong word and pass a spell check. You will hear any and all mistakes, even that misplaced or left out comma. Feel free to contact me if you have any questions, I will help if I am able :~)

[Hari Om]

the most important thing is to realize...and accept it...very few in this world have this ability.. thank you for sharing such and important sentiment in human nature..

[Dr. YumnaKay]

This was really painful to read. But you built up the emotions like it is.
It's hard to imagine the consequences which bring people to end their lives in this way.
Well penned.

[Gina]

It was painful to write too. But I always remind myself when I am writing on paper that the tears that fall from my cheeks onto the paper, will be absorbed. I have to believe that my sadness will be absorbed by the things around me. Thank you so much for your review. It means a lot.

Always, Gina.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I agree with your sentiments. Embracing the realities are what makes us stronger.
You're welcome. Always a pleasure reading good works..

[Gina]

Very true. Thank you so much. Reading helps a lot, it's one of my greatest pleasures.

Gina.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

And mine too 😊 I'm a geek when it comes to reading 😂😛

[Gina]

Hahahaha so am I!!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Reading is what makes a writer 😉😉😊

[Mr.Writer]

Wow this is amazing... So compelling and emotional... I've seen it happen... You're an amazing writer! You are really capable of making the reader feel so emotional and understanding. Keep it up Gina keep it up...

[Gina]

This means so much to mean. You don't even know. In the moment when I am writing I am thinking about the message but I always forget what people will think about it. When I receive comments like this, it makes me want to write more and write better. I try to live in the moment and writing is what that means for me. Thank you for the kind words.

Always, Gina.

[Mr.Writer]

No problem Gina :=

[Mr.Writer]

:) keep on writing