Thoughts

I wanted to write down something beautiful,

for the days have been long and the nights too short for me to dream of anything worth waking up to.

I think of the breaths of wind that have brushed my hair, as I stare through the open air at fields as empty as my mind, hairs of grass standing at attention as if the earth itself had goose-bumps. I watch autumn leaves say their last farewell as they break away from their mothers branches in search for something different. I wonder if they ever think back and realize that that decision was the one that got them killed, and wonder still whether we look back and think the same.

 

I wanted to write down something kind,

to remind myself of the child I was, the boy I try to be, and the man I want to become.

Kind words to be read by kinder eyes, kind lies read by lying minds as we can choose to either accept the truth, or engage the fantasy that we are alone, because self-pity and self-loathing make us feel like we got what we deserved when all we got was nothing. But I have my fingers and my thoughts, and there’s no need to give me pennies for ill give them away for free. Let me trade them for your time and in turn we will find that when we feel as though we have nothing, it means we have everything to look forward to.

 

I wanted to write down something calm,

for my eyes are weary and my shoulders are sore, but I have no plans and no alarms, so I’ll let sleep find me on its own.

Let the silence settle on me like snow falling from the sky, like ignorant autumn leaves. Stephen King said that he believes stories are a found thing, and I play with the idea that maybe happiness and peace are the same. But the world ends at the door, and I keep it closed to keep the noise out. I keep it closed to keep the cold out, and if you want in than remember to leave your stresses with your shoes at the door and together we can forget the world. We can let our thoughts roam the room and settle on one another, just like the autumn leaves thinking of their impending doom.

 

I wanted to write down something beautiful,

but all I could think of was you.

Reviews

[Azif]

A very brilliant and interesting way to share your thoughts, really like your work :)

[Emily B]

This is amazingly beautiful. So glad that i happened by