Another Excuse, Again.

I want to tell you why, I want to let you know,
But I need to sleep, and I need to prepare for another day
So I ignore you're simple querry and I "move on"
But there was no reason not to answer when I knew the answer was
No

I wish I could just return to where we were
And we would laugh at the misunderstanding that once was
But my heart no longer longs for the place and the people it once did
So I must pretend I didn't see what you said and fade into the mist

I know what I should and shouldn't do
I know that in the morning I may have to explain my silence to you
But if my answer is no then I won't even meet you
So I want to sleep the morning through

How did I get to this place?
How did I get here?
A place where church is nothing more than pain
Here where I fear the mention of my old pastor's name

If only they...
If only I...
But they didn't
And I didn't

So we both must suffer because I think I've moved on
And I feel the things I once held most holy are now gone
But I know better
And things will never be the same

I could return and fall back into the same exact routine
Love God with my "everything"
But they would know what I did
Where I've been
And I wouldn't be fooling anyone

I feel so lost, so at odds
I understand they've changed and time has taken away the strain
I once silently faced with pain and then left behind
But I am so tired of second chances
And Time won't let me forget what once has been
Please God I don't want to be held back
I don't want to feel that prejudice again
But your word says they live in sin plain
So I won't go again
Because I've made up an excuse yet again

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[Sami Khalil]

"Time won't let me forget what once has been
Please God I don't want to be held back
I don't want to feel that prejudice again
But your word says they live in sin plain"

Time can be a friend or foe. Sin is only a foe...Excellent sharing...:)...............