Challenge the heavens

I have been distracted
I have been pulled aside
I have seen so much pain
And I grew tired of it

I turned to the darkness
I turned to those who would listen
And I was made dark
And I learned to stop talking

I have been filled with an immeasurable void
I have desired more
You showed me kindness
You gave me your heart

I know I seem lost
I know you miss what I was
But I am older now
I have earned my days

Sure my heart is heavy
Sure I need to be loved
But the weight is for lifting
And love is not singular

I wish for you to know that while my days must change
I love you
I will pull back from the pool of minds
To grow

This may seem like a bunch of gibberish
And while my intent is muddled my will is not
I am not a slave but a man
So I have began to question

I am questioning my purpose
My daily tasks
For how my time is spent
Means everything

Do dismiss my tone as somber
I have enjoyed such mirth with you
But emotion has no place in this choice
Rage has burnt out and Fear is gone

I have been dwelling on a life of getting by
I have neglected my garden
But now I must unplug and remember
Who I was and now am

I will see you again soon
Our discourse however cannot resume it's foolish prattle
I cannot just make my presence known
Instead I must raise my tower and challenge the heavens