Darkness in a Soul

About slipping into a bitter mood, and God leading me out of it.

I lie here in my basement

If in fact one's soul can have a basement

I don't cry
I don't know why

I don't moan
Don't care even if I'm alone

So hungry
If ones soul can be hungry

So tired
Can't sleep while in reality I'm mired

Here there is fire
Though I lie here like a funeral pyre

Soon voices will reach me
If voices can reach this deep in me

Someday I'll laugh and cry
But now I just look for something to fry

Funny how those naive souls
Tripped into my many dark cold holes

Each day I wonder how to dress
While I lie here emotionless

Ahhhh wait a minute who turned on the light?
This is causing way too much fright

As I shrink into the darkest corner
All the children I've trapped come to me closer

Each stands and at me glowers
Then I see a hole into my soul it leads lower

But then the light brightens thicker
And in every child it seems a lone candle flickers

Now I look again to the hole
It leads deeper into darkness or is that my soul

What is this why am I askin' questions
When I taught each tiny soul their lessons

Turn again to these rebels I do
To let them know their rebellions through

Wait that's impossible
Totally improbable

As I look at their faces happiness I see
And it begins to fill the deepest crevices in me

Now in my heart I feel a lone candle ignite
Like a cave of ice against the inferno I fight

When I awake
The hole that I thought was my escape is now plastic and fake

And as I step into the light old hands I shake
Friends who came to make right my mistake

Now I laugh and cry
My face seems to fall off it's so dry

But it's just a mask
Of dirt and grime prepared for this gruesome task

Of rebirth
And happy mirth

Alas what sad
Events must transpire to remove what is bad

But all is now made new
And again my soul can see the sky so clear and blue