You're my hero Son

To my son and now seeing our bond grow through the bad and he loves me very much I wouldn't trade this bond for anything thank you god written Sept. 24, 2014 wed.

You've stolen my

heart.

When you were born

I knew we'd have a

great bond,

You're my Angel

and you're growing up

and making me proud.

My little Angel that

loves me more than

your daddy does.

Now you see how

he treats me and you

don't like it.

He is slowly pushing

 both us away.

My son I know God

has much in store for  us.

I see that love in your

eyes my son you're a

blessing from God my Angel.

Now it was a point

where I prayed and had to speak

to family,

The next time it happens

he will be in a cold

jail cell.

Where is that man that

was kind friendly

courteous and following

the scout law  he is slowly

falling from it.

But in public ones

don't notice that.

You're my Hero

growing into a loving strong  

young man and you're

 so much like your Mother.

God has blessed me

with a hero my son.

Ones see your dad

as so great and grand.

But they don't see

how he is behind the

closed doors.

So when I am asked

how does it feel to be

to be married a eagle scout I say

it has it's bad and good moments.

But now I see that fire in

you that is in me you're tire

of the yelling and blaming.

When I saw that love in you

and I know you're seeing it

isn't my fault any more.

You're my Hero my little Angel

growing up and I see you love me

as a son and more than your daddy.

My little Hero we will get

through this.

I love you my blessing

I got from this marriage

is you my son.

Copyright/ Kindred poet/ Benita Staebell McCartney

Author's Note

To my son and now seeing our bond
grow through the bad and he loves me very much
I wouldn't trade this bond for anything thank you god
written Sept. 24, 2014 wed.


only song I could find to describe my son and
myself Bond that we have and a mother and a Son have
a very strong bond the same as a mother and daughter would
as I know that my brother is also very close to my mom like I am.


I have supported you and when I am sad or hurt
you say sorry and when It wasn't your fault you always
tried to make me laugh give me hugs and make me smile
my son you're a blessing from God my hero is Growing up to
be a sweet Gentleman and family sees I have done a amazing
Job with you as a mother and parent and you know I will always
love you and I am stern but gentle also when disciplining you.

Because You Loved Me, Celine Dion (with Lyrics) - Dedication to Mothers

Reviews

[s y e]

I can relate to this in a way (won't say how though, too personal) but I can relate to an extent, this touched my heart... You words, filled with love for your son. I agree what my Daddy Noodle has said, no one wins in an abusive relationship, that's for sure. Your son is lovely... :-)

Lovely poem...

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you I really appreciate it my friend thank you for your kind review and comments
oh you don't have to tell me I understand Hon:) Blessings. Benita

[s y e]

You're always welcome... Sorry I have been MIA.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

MIA ? sorry what is that short for. I am tired been volunteering at our The great lake Allatoona clean up at our beach the boy scouts do it every year in September so forgive me if I don't know what you mean we got home about 2 or 3 in afternoon. my son is Volunteering at the save the Depot it is a old Historical thing they don't want knocked down He was all dressed in his Depot shirt and he was to be in charge of some thing there he was with his Nanny and Paw grandparents it has been a long day I hope you're having a lovely one :) Take care Benita

[s y e]

Missing In Action. :-) oh, sounds like some fun but a lot of work... Did he have fun?

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

yes he always does :) it is something the car Guys are doing I think my Father in law started this but it is something I don't want gone either it is apart of our history where we live at in Georgia also my mother and father in law have a bunch of classic British cars and they're beauties :)

[Blue Sunshine]

Such a powerful piece. And a true one too.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you your reviews and comments are appreciated. glad you liked it. Blessings. Benita

[wordman]

a beautiful tribute and god speed on taking care of the other matter
before it takes care of you

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Yes it is better many are praying and he is
treating me better and there isn't as much yelling my mothering in law give us both a talk and she cares for all 3 of us and my husband is trying to lose weight so there Is progress and I feel safe again so all is good god is protecting us and we speak more healthier if we ague and we talk things through and it isn't as bad I am happy many changes. thank you for the kind review and comments. I appreciate it. Benita

[wordman]

your welcome and good luck

[Coyote Poetry]

A beautiful poem for your son and love. My kids gave me reasons to keep living. They still do. Thank you for sharing the positive and hopeful poem.
Coyote

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you I really appreciate it my friend things are getting better so I am happy. take care Benita

[Coyote Poetry]

I'm glad. I hope you are doing okay dear friend.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Yes I am great thank you I am spoken to a lot more respectfully and things are getting better :) his Mom is Great we needed to have someone with experience help and she has a big heart and has been through a lot with dad so she had wisdom and helped him understand me and me him us both so we work together and he will be working on loosing weight also but we will keep working at it and not give up and will keep praying. Thank you for your concern I am fine now I am back to sleeping in the same bed with him and we are making changes and ones that will help Jordan as well I guess it isn't as easy when you're younger but his Grandparents have been married 65years and it took work and strength and love to get to that long of being married and God being in the marriage. thank you :))

[Bright Ocean Star]

Kindred Poetess, the key to your happiness is in your hands. No one can hurt you or take your dignity unless you allow it. You have the power to communicate, and you know your husband like no one else. He married you, most probably because there is a love there and there are seeds of respect. So...it is up to you to confront him, be strong, and tell him in no uncertain terms that you do not like the way he's treating you. Be clear as crystal. Tell him you will not put up with it any more, and if he doesn't seek to change the way he's talking to you or handling his anger, then you will take an action he's not going to like. You are half of that relationship, and God has given you the tools to fix it. It will take courage and strength, but He's already given that to you...you must use it. Your strength and your faith will shine through and your son will see that. No one is perfect; everyone should be given a chance to change for the better and encouraged to do so. There is lots of help out there just a telephone call away. Be blessed, my friend.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

It's quite more then that but thank you for your kind review and comments. what he shows isn't love I have never been hateful I have always been a loving soul, but he needs to grow up I will tell you more later but I am going to watch a movie. take care

[Frieda P]

Hit a fragile nerve, reminds me of my own 'father', you're so right, nobody knows what goes on behind closed doors, and we shouldn't subject our children to the this kind of abuse either...run, run as fast you can Benita...an affecting read, albeit tragically sad.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your kind review and comments I really appreciate it. thank you again. I am speaking to a family member this Friday just us and she has been told by a family member of mine what's been happening so I am getting help and she loves Jordan and us both. Thank you again Frieda I will let you know how things are this is Just me saying I am getting help and I am tired of this all take care. Benita

[Einstein Noodle]

no one wins in an abusive relationship .. children are often the silent sufferers .. so glad you have taken courageous steps to stop the cycle of abuse .. i am for you and your son 100% .. sending my prayers up right now for you and with you guys .. i am sure it took a lot to write and post this beautiful mother's lament ..
E.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you I really appreciate your prayers and kind review. I just don't see love there many times he is unhappy with him self and he is critical inside a bitter and critical spirit and if we aren't together I am not marring again I have God my son and family that's all I need very been a needy person as long as I have love I will be fine I don't crave that companionship of husband and wife I crave more to be closer to God and I know this what my husband shows isn't true and really love he is taking out his pain and blame on me and now in then his son and that will put him in Jail he has backed off as I told him I would do it. Thank you again. Blessings. Benita

[Einstein Noodle]

Benita,
i sincerely hope you seek out those that can help you. if you haven't already .. most areas have centers that can protect and guide you .. you and your son do not have to go it alone .. love and peace
E.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

I have I am doing this, Friday I really appreciate the concern. I got Conformation of more news from my mother in law and will speak to her Friday she cares very much for us and that little boy wants no harm done to us. take care Benita

[Einstein Noodle]

good for you girl! sending up my little prayers again right now .. inviting the heavenly angels to surround you and your son always .. but especially at this difficult time
E.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you :) I appreciate it you're a good friend.

[Matching Socks]

This is beautiful and very emotional Benita. Stay strong girl.
Keep your child close.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank for your kind comments I really appreciate it. yes I was in tears when I was writing this. Thank you again. blessings. Benita