No goodbye's

Written Just now new April 8, 2014 For and about my grandpa.

When you left earth

and it was time to go

home,

I died inside it took

god and my family

to bring me back and

I know god knew my pain.

This was a lesion I had

to go through it hurt so

much my heart was Broken,

It hurt to breathe my heart

shivered in tears for days

and days you could feel it

shaking inside from pain.

My heart ached it

was in so much pain.

Not wanting to say

goodbye.

I never wanted

to say goodbye grandpa

Joe.

A man of Honor

love and Respect,

My angel, teacher,

and Hero  that taught me

about god and to have fun.

I miss our bike rides

and playing at the school

playgrounds.

I remember sitting upon

your shoulders as a little

girl,

When you mowed the

lawn grandpa.

I remember when I was about

6 or 7 maybe,  and I was on the

roof of your house,

Helping with shingles and

grandpa got in trouble from

step grandma for me being up

there.

You were my best friend

I told you secrets I was never

afraid I could tell you anything.

When you and step grandma

disagreed it all melted away

when,

You were with me I was

always your sunshine.

I was the apple of

your eye,

You would do

anything for me.

I miss you so much.

When the children in

my Neighborhood  threw

water balloons at my bike,

You stopped it all as

you knew the girls mother

personally

and the children apologized

and we were friends.

No Goodbye's please make

this  pain stop please.  

  

Author's Note

Written Just now April 8, 2014 For and about my grandpa.

I was able to see grandpa before he died I went to Mesa Arizona My step Grandma that's like the evil step mother off of Cinderella she didn't want to but it was Grandpas wish to see me he was in a Hospice was hard seeing him like that he was his stubborn self but was so pale and things connected to him he died of Bladder cancer that woman that called herself his wife put me through more pain then my own father did sadly as a child I cold feel and sense she was jealous of me as a child she was always so bitter I was always bubbly happy full of sunshine and made grandpa's day she could never cheer him up but we were a god sent when we came into her children's lives step Grandma's First husband died Rose one of her Daughters was the one we got close to she was treated badly like she didn't like her same as me rose babysit me as a child we had so much fun together we built tents and everything she came over when she had fights with her mom she thought of my mom like a mom she was more understanding and a cool mom at that. Step grandma she blurted out that I was Mentally challenged at a friend of hers and grandpas friends house in Mesa and I didn't now how to respond to it, it just happened out of the blue and many agree that I am not that I am very smart. There was people my mother spoke to that was friends with Grandpa and step grandma and they were feeling sorry for my mom because of me Because they thought they understood because they have a grandchild with ADD I was born with ADHD and my mother knew them personally she snapped at them she was not happy she stuck up for me and was and is very proud of me she didn't like others treating me different or a Certain way because I am ADHA that's why I was called stupid in Elementary cruel children stupid and ugly I never treated no one different even if they had a disability I look at them normally I look with love as I grew older I understood why I was treated the way I was and stared to see the world my mom was there when I cried so much I didn't want to be ADD anything and I cried myself to sleep from being made fun of and children throwing woodchips at me never told my mom I had a friend I never knew that chased them off and we still are friends. and I don't speak to that woman that isn't my real grandma it hurt too much to do that I am over it, it just hurts to talk about the memories sometimes I don't let her hurt me any more. but I hope you Enjoy


when I listen to this song Someone's good bye makes me
think of him it is a Enya song he pasted away October 1 2003 I was 24
he was 79 years old








The Photo is mine Yes that is me as a child
am I not just cute he.. he I see Jordan when I look at my
photos of me as a child I was a sweet child this was in front
of one of my old houses I lived in and my Elementary
school was right across the street I loved this Neighborhood.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I'm very sorry for your lost. Grandfathers are the kind voice we need and can't replace till one day. We become the kid voices to our kids and grandchildren. I like the description of time spend with and the story of a good Grandfather. You honored his memory with the poem. Thank you for sharing the personal poetry.
Coyote

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you he was my hero.. he was also I the armed air forces I never knew until
I read his Bio once he was gone I was in tears but I am a lot like him and My mother in
many ways he was calm natured and I am honored to be like them both my mother is
still alive they are both very strong. I appreciate it I am glad you Enjoyed reading. blessings. Kindred poet

[Bluefire]

This poem is very sad. I can see where it would be easy to cry while writing it.
I can relate to you, my mom is sort of like your step grandma. She gets jealous easily and often starts fights with me over it.
I'm glad you could see grandpa Joe before he died. Some people don't get to see their loved ones before they died.
Well written. ^^

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

I appreciate it thank you for the kind words. blessings. Kindred poet

[Bluefire]

You're welcome. ^^

[♔ CrownedDevil &#..]

Such a heat felt poem, I can relate to this as well. Beautifully written.

Kaze~

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you I really appreciate your kind words I am glad you enjoyed reading.

blessings. Kindred poet

[♔ CrownedDevil ☾]

It was my pleasure. :-)

[A. Amos]

Great tribute for your grand pa, sorry for your loss...

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your kind words. blessings. kindred poet

[melissa]

I can relate to this poem i miss my papa Gordon so much i used spend time with him my grandma all the time when i was little they were my favorite grandparents but now they are both in heaven with the good Lord above thank you for sharing your poems i love reading them Keep up the great work and keep sending me more to read

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you or your kind words. blessings. kindred poet

[melissa]

Your welcome