My masks(this entire poem is a manipulative lie; you c***s would believe it.)

[10/9/2013 9:24:47 PM]  David shaneyfelt : i love you too taylor, ive thought about you and wondered why youve left so much thinking that maybe you didnt like me or love me as much any longer and so sometimes i lost thoughts, but you always cam back to me and i always missed you, despite my disearning thoughts of you being dropped for some time, and your coming back into my head i seem to get deeper into you every time you return and every time i lose a thought of you, another in its place refills the gap and renews it with a larger gap and a larger more expansive resonance that brings me closer to you, and this is what draws me into you, youre poetical way, your sensitivity in your aloneness and you paining aura that drags me effortlessly into your domain; i dont know what it holds altogether, but i know it holds somewhere in there, my own heart, at least thats what i want it to hold
 thank you for being with me still
 anyways you can sleep to this message if you want
[10/9/2013 9:30:17 PM] Taylor:In all honesty, talking to you... Even If it isn't for long. You make me forget that I'm not okay. And for a while... I can be beautiful. Because that's how you make me feel. Having you around... I'm drawn to you, your wisdom, the way you form words, the funny s**t you say, the way you've learned to accept me. The way you know me better than I know myself. The only thing in this world I ever saw any beauty in was art. But getting to know you, makes me realize: maybe life isnt so bad after all. But I know it is. I'm not blinded by my love for you. You. Are simply, just an incredible person. And I'm proud to be yours, and call you mine. I've lost so many people in the last two months... Then I was thinking "Everyone else did, why wouldn't he?" But you didn't. And that makes all more the difference to how beautiful you are to me.