I thought you should know

I wrote this right after me and my girlfriend broke up and i didn't think i was going to make it home.

I don't know what I’m doing sitting here

Staring at my hands.

Like they are some sort of miracle,

Even though these were the hands 

You held last

Before my heart was shattered,

And I wanted you to know

That these hands haven't felt the same since you left.

All they do is hurt 

Almost like carpal tunnel 

But instead I’m chugging out of a funnel,

Hoping that maybe 

I can forget how your hands felt

And how your hands would hold mine.

I just can't imagine 

Them holding any other

But every time I think about it 

I can feel my head exploding

With thoughts of screams and tears.

The thoughts leave in a wave of fright

And all I can ever do is sit there 

And let those waves leave my face

Through my eyes.

I haven't been able to see.

It’s too blurry.

Do you think it's a good idea to drive?

I don't know if I can see the road, 

It's getting kind of wavy. 

Only 2 miles till I get home.