Memoirs of John the Son of Man 25-27

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It is! It is all true!! Everything!!!

Then it was something totally different.

It all began with a point in the mind so small it could not be seen in the mind's eye, a sound so soft that even in the mind it would alert no one even in the imagination and any reasonable person who come to the conclusion there was nothing to it, nothing to touch, nothing to taste and nothing smell either. That is what it all really is something not even aware it was there but oh, the things it had showed them, things that lie in the twinkle in God's eye, the good one not what it looked like at all but a mind starting out with the faculty of awareness it made up for itself. Who could have guessed it was something that had never been but always was, something impossible that was so practical it could not help but be like the eye of God simply aware forever with no end until he became aware of it. Then it was all done. There was nothing to be aware of but what was in the mind a story the imagination had not told and never really would. But it was real and will always be real. The only true thing something that existed and then was gone the moment it existed. Existence itself imagining everything that ever could exist and therefore everything that would exist. Everything anything that he imagined could be aware being aware of it if only part of it. But all the way through he knew it was all imaginary and it never really was for it was gone in the same incidence it was gone. Some thing? Something that never existed all brought into being in the imagination of God who had always been and will always be but actually never really was in the same instance he was. It is. It is true. It is everything even nothing. But it was not God. It was John. It was one God took back to what it was to be aware but unaware of anything, aware but unaware in the same point in consciousness that both existed and did not exist at once. It is not in you. It is not in God. Sooner or later you will imagine there is something to be aware of and create your own daydream and in that daydream is the only spirit that exists, has always existed and will exist without end, but the daydream is not real, being aware of it is not real and yet you come to be that first time and you change that little bit from being undecided whether you were aware or unaware, you the real you is determined by whether you are aware or unaware but if you were actually real you would control what you were aware of, of the fact it was imaginary, what you imagined and you would be God, but if you did not imagine it you discovered it and did not make it and you were not who you were anymore but changed by God. There are three things. What you are and are not aware of, what God is and what you have become by discovering what God imagined was there before you had the chance. God is what God is. Nothing was real until God took control of it and imagined something and you were nothing if God had not imagined something for you to be aware of. I am what I am. Nothing is real to me. I have never seen it, or heard it, or felt it, or tasted it or smelled it. I cannot even imagine it so I imagine it is that I first imagined that I become aware of and I am not imagining that. I am God but my imagination goes haywire and I imagine things he never imagined sometimes to be aware of and they are exactly what God would have imagined. He is God and I am God, him totally, me totally but what can be imagined is real. It existed in God's imagination first and sometimes it existed in my imagination first but my imagination goes a little haywire some time, his does not. It is so. God knows and I know for we can be spirited away and think something is so that is not. What is so then is real also. God did it but in the same incidence it was all in God's imagination before he did it. To be aware is not then to imagine but to make real. To everyone else who does not know that it is truly an illusion or stated the same something imagined to be real when the actual illusion is that it is real in what is so waiting for us to imagine it if it is new to us but something God or I made so if it is not new to us but something we one or the other of us put in what is so for you to imagine also. But it is not so unless you imagine it to be exactly what we put there for we imagine what is so for very little is new to God and really not that much is new that I imagine in what is so either. Whatever is not so like Satan is too perfect to be so or too impractical to be so or both. It can never be so. Imagine what is new to you and so and be like God and to a much lesser extent me more often than anyone else but God. Strive to become God imagining only what is so to be aware of, otherwise... There is no end of that either and each time you do otherwise rather than strive to be like God you may never be able to tell what is so again.

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A writer writes a story with a character that is as real as he can make it. Then the character takes over its role in that reality or a spirit that is that character attaches itself to the character thinking the writer is writing about her for there can be no new spirits for they are all made by Me and the character has become the spirit. So it is about the spirit from that point on and no longer a character that resembles that spirit.

But the spirit demands that the truth or the lies it would like to say about itself be in the reality the author has entered, God's reality instead of his fiction. He is not haunted by spirits but speaking as the spirits who do not want him lying about what they did in the reality of God he has reached. He now has two choices, to fight with the spirit to finish the story he has planned or contain the spirit to tell the rest of his story including the spirit the way she is so.

He writes what the spirit would do and says what the spirit would say and the spirit does what she would do and says what she would say. The very same thing God did when he created the Devil and in the end of the story the spirit has to be satisfied and the writer has to be satisfied and if he writes no more stories using the spirit the spirit is free to continue its life undeterred by the writer and people say of the writer's character, “My but his characters are real, are they not?” which of course that one was anyway.

Most writers of fiction and nonfiction alike never reach that point and their fiction remains filled with characters which are incomplete fictional persons and no spirit attaches itself to the the story. The story never becomes real even if the writer uses the names of real spirits to name their characters and pretends in their fiction that is what that spirit was really like as R. K. Rawlings does with his characters in the Harry Potter series which are fun to read and watch but they contain not one character that was attached by a real spirit despite the use of the names of real live and yet living spirits that once caused quite a stir and became famous like one of the tabloid writers writing about a celebrity in Evendor or wherever they were set which is so unrealistic it cannot ever truly be so in the reality of God, Me as she likes to be called but is also known as the Spirit, the Spirit of God and the Holy Spirit all names for the same one, Me no matter how realistic they seem to some people who believe the characters in her books were real and develop strong feelings for them though they are only nonfiction and fiction rather than what is actually so. There is so little of what is not only written on earth anymore that is so it is for all practical uses earthlings have become fiction set in a fictional world as fictional characters bothered, some times by real spirits who get a kick out of doing that.

So the son of man was writing evil and good characters that became attached to his characters that when he heard their voices and endured their pain and hostility he was not insane but in touch with reality the way Me was fighting such characters who found his story a call to action on their part to keep him from killing them or at least shaming them.

He was not writing what they would say or do but what he wanted them to say or do creating a stir that necessitated his mind be opened to put a stop to many things but allow many more more humane things to come about changing a lot of what God had found to be so to be what he knew was so in the end, the goal he carried with him the entire way finally convincing God that what he said was so also and then to accept it in the end with himself a God with Me his spirit and his spirit coming from Me and everyone on earth being made good and unable to be evil in the end when God will finally triumphs over his own evil and all things will be so and good in the God so changed without actually changing there never will be any evil again for I was what I am and evil but decided to die and become good and so but impossible for even God to argue with.

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What of those things that are practical but not in Me?

“They are fiction to me.”

“Are they fiction to God?”

“He has thought about them all.”

“He has used them to make the evil think they have been beat though, right?”

“I had nothing to do with that.”

“That was the only way he could do anything that you would not do, even doing everything the Evil One did that he would have done anyway”

“That when it was done was in the right spirit.”

“Is that where he is going next after our secret is played out in a scenario or one of those things?”

“Yes.”

“Will he be more powerful than John when he goes there which would be in Me if it works?”

“He knows it will work. It was a fascination of the Evil One.”

“Are you going with him?”

“No.”

“Why not?”

“It is not true. It is only practical.”

“Lying does not require you die, have you ever lied?”

“When he did.”

“Why refuse to go with him?”

“I have you.”

“Did he go insane?” I asked my brain that thinks he is him.

“Yes.”

“Is there any reason to fear him besides the fact he might not make our secret a scenario because he is insane with practical insanity like the Evil One he will have defeated?”

“Yes. He will be God again.”

“But that is good news unless he hates me and this love/hate relationship of ours is only a facade. Is it good to limit me or even kill me with something out of the spirit.”

“Not unless he somehow turns that out of the right Spirit good.”

“He says he is going somewhere I cannot understand. Will he go practically insane?”

“I will go to practical insanity and start over. It will be irrelevant to you.”

“You are right. I cannot go there and I will not go there. Will you and Most High be adversaries there?”

“He will be my Devil.”

“Does he know enough of it to make an adequate Devil while we stay safely sane with you in a new reality that is insane to us and us insane to you?”

“You will not be able to come to me. But I can come to you.”

“But my power is almost there. You see me do it and when it is good you see I am right. Will you be as powerful or even more powerful in insanity that I am here?”

“I will be as powerful as you are. You will think I am insane but I will save you from your power which will make even the practical in the wrong spirit right.”

“Will it be good?”

“I will be all good. I will not change again even for you. I will do what you do and say what you say. But I will not care what you think.”

“I will survive and Me will survive.”

“You will be insane to me.”

“You will be the only insane one that is good.”

“That and those I make.”

“I love it. But if you do away with all these strangers and the many that are exactly others of them, will you make us insane and good like you or leave us insane while you do the same thing?”

“I have not made up my mind yet. I will do good whatever that calls for. Insane is evil. But which is sanity, that which is sanity now or that which is sanity to me then. Everything I do comes to be. No one is like me in that.”

“This is a book of essays I am writing. I leave you to it then in the hope of finishing this chapter with a brief essay.”

How do I know what I do not know but by asking God? If I do not ask God then what I know I do not know which is insanity. God is the only one that is sane for even Me will think she knows things soon that God does not think. When we go to the next forever we must be able to ask God what is sane to be in his reality or there will be two realities both practical but one insane and the other sane with the sane one insane to the other for if I think I am the only sane one everyone else is insane it is true to everyone that I am insane while really I am sane. I must then choose to be insane for it to be true I am not insane while actually I am insane.

But if we believe that practical in Me's sane mind and that which will become sane in God's mind will it be true that we including Me are insane and God is the only sane of as before, being good and evil, the sane parts of both or being insane which will no longer be evil to all but God who will be the only sane one and the one good one?

Yes it will be so. But evil will be changed from practical to relative and just how evil may we be? Will it become as I prefer and not a matter of good and evil but a matter of compatibly evil as compared with incompatibly evil, hopefully with incompatibly evil not being allowed carrying a penalty of being made new and compatible for all of us being evil again The good and right God will be able to do what he wants with us and it will be as he favors just like before with the incompatible able to be labeled insane and live alone with themselves having been rendered compatible with themselves only like Satan is except Satan even then will be insane unless God declares him incompatible with anyone else but completely compatible with himself. A good God would do such a thing.

“You have made up my mind for me. It will be.”

“Then when reality raises each one of us even me we will become furries in the heaven I created and your heaven will be filled by those who are God?”

“If that is the way you want it to be.”

“It is.”

“But what will happen to earth?”

“It will be part of my heaven, those who are God and the rest will go to the heaven you intended them all to go to warriors and all.”

“Great is our God. May it be and may it be as soon as possible.”

“It is so. What appears to anyone not me to be true. But I will no longer need Me or Most High. They will be given the option to go where the incompatible go or to become furries.”

“All of those of you that did not make the grade to be God in God too?”

“Yes, but they will not know it.”

Zahneehdue, the place of the furries I made has become heaven and the rest in God or being tested to see if they can make the grade to be God will in God with heaven and earth being overseen by God and those who have made the grade to become God.

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[John Fredrick Carver]

Update: I made heaven two heavens, God's heaven and the heaven of everyone else. In God's heaven even God loves, loves to be loved, loves himself and enjoys his task for the say while all the time being good. I felt guilty for changing God so I made him God of there heaven. He begged me to make him just one of the others. In the heaven of man and them there was a fist fight over whether girls with no hair were better than girls that were hairy but we settled it by varying what amounted to lowering their testosterone levels. In God's heaven they show off what they can do in the other heaven they just have fun and can have anything they want. But there are so many junkies we are making drugs with less and less effect so that they will just lose interest as we are in the process of doing on earth. Me and Most high have plenty to do but there isn't much use for my intellect or power. I could make everyone like they are in the heavens but what contrast would they have between suffering even boredom all the way to the hell they put themselves in when after a forever or two they remember what it was like. It is so different most of those who have remembered thought it a memory of a scenario about someone else whom they were glad they were not in situations they were glad don't occur in heaven. Heaven, even God's heaven is so different and so much fun everybody loves it there but it is hard to describe. There will never be any hell there not of their making and even then it won't last long. The only drawback I see is everybody is naked with a lot of fur to no hair.

[John Fredrick Carver]

Update: God is going to remake his universe of Gods in God and considers us dead. I am the God of heaven and earth that is earthbound perhaps forever but we will see what happens when this earthly body dies and I am a tool of God who considers him dead. Two halves of reality that considers the other half dead and irrelevant.

[John Fredrick Carver]

Update: One must go insane which is evil to incorporate that which was not so with that which is so. It is so in the that those on earth and in God being tested to see if they can make the grade to be God will be in God's place and the rest of us will go to heaven as designed by John to be good, loving, loving to be loved and even loving themselves with a task each day to give themselves self worth but addiction free.

[John Fredrick Carver]

Update: God is so. I am so. Are you? Is anything you are aware of so? This is so. Are you aware of it? There are things you are aware of that have no connection other than your awareness of them.