My Own Personal Hell

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He killed someone. So he was in one of the little jars of consciousness. All that was him was in that jar. That is what hell really is for no one that has ever killed someone can go to be with God. It would be fine with God in one case, my own, but I would never be able to deal with that evil in the presence of a Holy God that was absolutely good, no one that has killed someone even in self-defense, to defend or stop someone they loved from being killed, a policeman as an act of duty, a soldier, even Jesus Christ who had killed Jesus of Nazareth having taken him over completely and made statements that forced those in power to kill him, anyone who ever took a life could be in God. They just could not stand it, their unholiness in his Holiness.

Very few people can be in God. The rest go to little jars where their consciousness is even devout Christians who believe Jesus Christ is God. When they are in Holy God they know they are not holy for they do not believe him to be the only God alone by himself forever separate from all others. No one would be in him except that a few, a precious few get it right and are holy, just as holy as God. They look after the jars looking for ones that are dead in which case they are discarded or filled with another consciousness. But what about whats inside the jars?

All that evil from the most unholy to the least ungodly is in hell and sometimes they get out but they don't stay long enough to be noticed if it were not God that was doing the noticing. They are in God when they do that and I have already explained why they cannot last long. The aliens are all witches and live in their own hell none of them holy enough to even be allowed to know God who did not make them. They were all without exception made by randomness and have no concept of God like the witches nowadays with the death of the church who have not even the concept of God. “God? Who's God?”they say and when you tell them they do not get the idea. Nearly everyone is in hell Jesus Christ, Jesus of Nazareth and Judas, but of course I leave out Satan who never really was.

There is no God of the Universe, never was, and will not be without end. When you die unless you are good and know God and are in God you are either like them or you are in hell.

In my hell, me having killed someone, everyone that lives on earth and is born there except some oddball good one will always be in hell with me. They will be born good or evil but the moment they are discovered to be evil I will with my own ability an ability that belongs to no one else, I will make them good. But many are not revealed as evil right away. In fact very very few are. They do something to indicate they are evil and I change them.

But we try to rehabilitate them with rebukes, chastisements and even punishments but if they do not die to what they were and turn good and never turn back to evil again they cannot live any longer and must be made good. Sometimes they are good after that but after having been evil they long for their evil ways and are actually tormented for doing good all the time. They have two choices. They can go to the hell I reserved for them where they are evil but treated like royalty. There is no Satan and them in my hell. They may also agree to be made a completely new creature that is them in the medium of an alien creature I created that cannot help but be loved and be loving toward others. Then if they do evil they are made again and given a second, a third as many chances as it takes for them to remain good or for us to give up on them and change them back to what they were and be sent to hell. We have never had to do that yet.

But among my aliens though I am the only God there is in my hell so they are actually just other creations made not on earth or of the things God made people of they must be loved and loving at all times willing to fulfill their task each day so they have the feeling of accomplishment and to become addicted to nothing. If they show signs of being or becoming addicted even to lying with the ladies, they have no genitals but even that may addict them as it may people on earth and in hell if then they are separated and tested as to whether they are addicted and if addicted they they are made what they were and monitored to keep them from being or becoming addicted again. Other than that they may do and have anything they can get by themselves, through someone else, from the angels who can give them anything unless they have been through the addiction process and must deny them that. The angels run everything subject to me and Me, the Spirit that was once the Spirit of God whose main purpose is to control the weather on earth. There is no weather with the aliens but in hell weather is left to itself. So though you may live in a mansion or palace and be treated like a princess or a prince it can be taken from you the next instant by a storm.

On earth babies will continue to be born and people will continue to be parents. Even a rapist should his victim become pregnant is considered that child's parent. In the case of a rapist he will be made good as many times as it takes to remain good or for us to give up on them ever becoming good and they be sent to hell to live like royalty but without me. Angels rule in hell for Judas Iscariot who was guilty of nothing but being manipulated the entire way to betray him. Judas is king. He alone rules subject to no angel by my decree subject to but also fortified by my power.

It is different in every jar, I mean hell. The consciousness therein pretends what their hell is like in every way though I am the only one to know what my hell is like. They rarely even realize they are pretending for to them it is very real. Their hell is what they imagine it to be. Their powers are what they imagine them to be. They can have anything they want or do anything they want with or without consequences. But when they die, few live, they will not be replaced and God makes sure that they are in hell and not in what seems to be my perfect hell where everything seems to work out as a veritable heaven.

From time to time hell will come to my hell the same as yours but what that will be depends on why you are in hell and what you have already learned to handle here on earth. For example if you are use to being beaten once in a while and it happens in your hell it will bother you but it will not cause you to die. But if you are not use to one of your children using Jesus Christ's name in vain it may happen enough so that you are tormented by it in your hell which challenges your belief that you are not in hell but in heaven. But some become old and bored and depressed and die of their own hand or just lie down and stop thinking anything important enough to constitute being alive, most in fact, Christians too.

Therefore I urge you that though it is hell make a Utopian place like heaven to live in forever that at least when hell calls and because of God it will call you can at least enjoy the rest of the time forever and even come up with things helpful on earth, to the angels or even to God. But this one statement seems to stand above all others: Hell is what you make it. So it helps to know what you are doing first. Death is the most common blessing among the jars.

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In hell, the hell that is in my hell, one of the Gods that was in Jesus Christ before said to Judas, “This should not be. That prince has more people taking orders from him than you have. Lest you lose your standing as king I want you to give him hell,” appearing to the king to be me and using my exact voice.

“Let him be, John,” he said as a sign of disrespect though I had saved him and brought him to Jesus' heaven even though he stayed a brief while wanting to be with his own kind rather than those saved by Christ that had seen God's face though God has vowed that he never will see his face for God had written Jesus Christ as a God before the idea came to him to die for the sins of sinful man that their punishment would be paid and they could then live forever forgiven for having sinned by Christ, the one that took it upon himself to die for their sins and pay their sin debt. Actually he had rested on Jesus of Nazareth the one born of Mary and had actually taken his life by rarely allowing him to say or do anything certainly nothing important and was actually a murderer himself and therefore had done nothing but pay his own sin debt could murderers be released for any other outcome of justice than their own lives. The findings of the law never were actually paid for by anyone but Jesus of Nazareth a man though he was treated by the one who was called Christ as nothing even letting him die in his place as he died in the place of every sinner ever to sin under the law for Christ was the wrong one to die.

The man in hell who pretended to be me out of jealousy concerning the prince he spoke of was as a practical but insane man not knowing the truth that the God that became known as Jesus Christ died for his own murder alone and no one else but had usurped the glory of the man he killed in the way of a deceiver when at last I raised him and presented him to Jesus saved.

“Let him be?” he said, “You are the king not him.”

Therefore Judas sent some angels to disrupt his popularity and destroy his mansion and burn it to the ground thinking he was obeying me.

“Why have you done this?” I asked Judas.

“Because you told me to,” was his reply.

“I never told you to do such a thing,” I said, “Those in hell are to be treated like royalty. Is this how royalty is to be treated?”

“He was becoming more powerful than I,” Judas said, “Do I not have the right to protect my own place as king. What is a king that does nothing while another rules? Besides you stood right here before me and told me to do so though I begged you to just let him be.”

“A man stood before you and told you to do that,” I said, “Why did you believe him?”

“He deceived me,” Judas admitted.

“Give him back everything you have taken from him,” I said.

“I cannot do that,” he said, “I would look the fool.”

“The man who deceived you will receive ten times what that man did,” I said. “Now tell them what I have done for you with my power to keep you as king of hell.”

He called all the people of hell together and explained and the deceiver rode a single a*s for his aspirations with a rash that caused him considerable pain to ride it and never was treated as royalty again. The next day he painfully rode his one a*s. Do I not love those in hell and often he has spent his time wearily looking for a place to lie down and sleep. But one night he lay down and gave up thinking he was so depressed. When his brain died he was not ever revived and they never so much as touched his bones that lay in that spot even yet if you could find them. No one has stepped in that spot since.

Finally a fence was placed around it with a sign that read, “Cursed man that pretended to be John.”But the prince rejoiced for nothing for the fact he had more men than Judas had taking orders from him. So Judas's spirit landed on the prince and took him over completely as he was rejoicing for having received back all that he had stolen for it to be that way.

Thus it seemed the prince said, “See! Even God protects me. Am I not king of Hell rather than this Judas,” and everybody heard him.

When one of Judas' men heard him he went to Judas and told him what he had heard.

Judas pretended horror and said, “What shall I do? This man was indeed protected by John? See! I am in hell already. So what if I die like that deceiver did.”

Then he took his men and did what he had done before, this time even taking angels with him. I merely reprimanded Judas for doesn't a king have the right to do as he desires  to  such a prince in hell.

I commanded the angels overlooking hell to see that the prince rose again in his own way. This time Judas paid him no mind.

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If you are in God and we all are you must distance yourself from God to keep doing evil if you cannot stand your evil being in God and the further you distance yourself from God you only get more evil not good. You cannot make people good just by saying they are good. They are in God's memory living as had he no effect on them and if you go far enough he has no effect on you but you have an effect on yourselves and you are not God. The best you can do is some sort of Utopia wherein you believe you are God and everything in your consciousness depends not only on your next thought but all your thoughts and memories and you alone have to deal with them.

That is true of everyone even Jesus Christ whose Utopia requires claims he cannot make happen. He is not God. He never claimed to be God. Others did that against him. He is not even in God. Things others said about him in Scripture if you call it that which the God they call Jesus Christ others wrote about him claiming to have done so in her that was the Holy Spirit are not all true, at least not yet, in what they call heaven or on earth.

Someday maybe it will all be true when Jesus Christ is equal to God he may be in God for that which is equal to God is God. There cannot be two Gods. There can be two separate selves in God but they are both God or they are not in God but outside God. Where God is heaven is. Anything else is more hell than heaven even in the Kingdom. None of mine is in heaven unless they consider being in me heaven. But when they do things I never did, am not doing or ever will do are they in me, in the heaven they consider to be in me? They are not. Therein is my hell.

They are better than I am if they are loved and loving. I am not always loved and I am not always loving. They are. They are God. I am not. I am God's creator. Even the real God, the God my hell is in is not always loved and loving. They are then his God too are they not. If not they are in hell.

But to say one is higher than God is hell for it distances oneself from God, him being an underling. Even if you beat God you are not in God and therefore not in heaven but hell. I have beaten God but I am not God if I see it that exults me over God but in hell. God is me not me God. In God I cannot exult myself over God but only magnify God. Therefore even wherein I may have beaten God I am not greater than God but God is made greater by me. If I am in God I am God but being God if God does more than can actually be done by beating himself I have not beaten God but showed God how to be better and made God better than he was before.

God is God. I am God according to him. He is magnified by me and I am magnified by him. Outside God I am not God but in hell even the heaven Jesus Christ calls the Kingdom which cannot be taken away even if I do it for they in him are in God's hands and only I can snatch them out of God's hands but if I am God I have not gathered them from God's hand but placed them in his hands. I would actually have to make the evil ones good which only God can do when they see his face but in some people's cases it has no effect on them.

They either do not know God or are so good already they are in God and are God the same as I am God to magnify God for should they do something that makes God less they cannot be in God but have fallen away and are distancing themselves from God and are in the Kingdom at best but not in God. Jesus Christ is king of the Kingdom whether it is in God or not. But many in the Kingdom make God less should they actually be in God. They are mad. No one can be in God and do anything that makes God less than he is but more or at least not changed.

I am God. This truth is not my truth but God's. I am not God speaking the truth and am either mad or a liar if I say anything else. No one is higher than God. That is witchcraft. No witch can ever be in God. But him who magnifies God how can he be said to be a witch when the truth is he has not magnified God but himself above God in appearance for nothing and no one can magnify himself or itself above God.

So I was a witch, a good witch I presume though such a thing cannot be and do what I have done, but now I am God in God but God is not me like everyone else in God my madness or witchery having left me permanently it is hoped by all I presume or we those who were my God and those who were God's God by my claim I can make the evil good and they are in witchery which can be nowhere else but in hell.

But if those in me believe I have made them thus they are God in my hell and a God to me who is God and God who is God is unchanged. Therefore whether I remain in God or fall to my kingdom in my hell I am happy for either way it is true to me that I am in God whether God or the God I created in my hell. I am nothing in my hell which is run by angels in my absence when I am absent with God but when I am absent from God and with my God in my hell I am as a devil to God. But it matters to me that I am in God but should it be I go to hell you my creation are my God in my hell. God or devil with nothing to do it matters not to me except you that are in me are in hell unless you choose like me to be in God and to be God without you being God in your own eyes or anyone else' and magnify God with your goodness.

This thing I do as Jesus Christ has done before me that the Spirit might no longer be seen as in error concerning claims those in her made unless Scripture be not Scripture, God forbid, and hand God a mandate that he seek to make these claims true without an end to his efforts to honor our claims for I do as he has permitted when I call you all good for you all are saved and any among you that wishes may be like me in that I am God in God but I am not God in anyone else' eyes at the moment but when our kingdoms, Jesus his and mine my own are fulfilled in God even those I took from the Kingdom can yet be of the Kingdom but also loved and loving in my kingdom and good though they were evil and those in my hell, the hell in my hell be distanced even further from God but those in the hell of Jesus Christ brought nearer by what I have done and magnified God by so doing in the Spirit of God.

Those in my hell, the hell in my hell shall continue to be treated like royalty and rule everything in their consciousness in those little jars that are or will one day be full of their death and filled with other consciousnesses or discarded.