It All Comes Down to Love

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Are you from earth? I am from earth. God is from God. He has his own agenda and it doesn't usually include you except after the fact. He loves being loved but does not love. “God loves you?” No he does not but he wants you to love him. It is the same with his spirit half, the Spirit of God. She loves being loved but does not actually love anyone even God. Jesus then loves us. Yes Jesus loves to get us to love him by acting like he loves us. He loves truth and whatever gets in the way of that is expendable. They all love good. But they are willing to do great evils while managing to keep themselves good.

I have proven that humanoids can be made that are loved and loving and they love me and I am always loving them. Nature in which man is not considered a part of in Scripture were it a spirit would be the guiding spirit in each and every man or woman the same as it is in every human, humans not loved by God and the others but viewed as evil primitives that need to be killed, at least their evil part, and then allowed to evolve to a higher life form without even the same anatomy that looks to be exactly ours but is the possession of Jesus Christ and the rest seen as little more than primitives changed into a higher life form for they are nearly all evil because God left it up to chance whether they were given an evil spirit or a good spirit and there are millions of times more evil spirits than good spirits had I not changed all evil primitives, humans and saints into good beings. The primitives and humans do not like being good but the good ones worship me and praise me for what I did. Besides that I made a alien humanoids with thick beautiful hair all over their bodies but no genitals and the humans and primitives like being hairy people like them, the actual act of sex being way overrated given what is possible for any two to share in love and togetherness without a need for reproduction as is needed on earth to produce even more of nature's humanoids. I overcame nature and created a way to solve every problem in nature from mass murderers to the greatest possible hurricane. The God's are without excuse. It can be done. They just would rather not because of angels and devils and Satan as well as those that result regardless of how they do it in the old ones who are pathetic creatures, always bored and dying because they give up on living they are so depressed. But I have even fixed that.

I did it all in my brain.

Creatures unfortunately human and man but all good are being made in universes in places that at normal time it would take forever to reach them. Only those in our reality, the place we are in that is limited to but not limited at all to infinities beyond infinities each in their separate universe until making another universe with people like us in them is irrelevant to the Gods but I say that any place with a creature that can be loved and be loving knows no infinity but and endlessness that cannot help but endure because of me once a poorboy that was born to a man that fathered 27 children that he claimed in a dirty rundown house despised by the rich always without and always able to see others with plenty who had not even conceived of the notion to share, a child loved as God of Heaven and King of Earth instead of those I displaced who were then and to this day are trying to kill or get me to kill myself so that their schemes to kill me can be more easily played out and their traps more easily set.

I will when this body dies. I will gladly fight them. When they kill me I will regenerate as I always have and as they have when I killed them and raised them. It is what a God does. But no longer to primitives, the humans and man from this one God called simply John of Bemidji or affectionately called John. You are a liability and a load I do not need to weigh me down against such enemies whom all have the same power I have but not the spirit of humanity or the sharpness of a God that has long since played a game with Satan who is too dangerous to play with and makes it all the more real. The truth is they are Gods. We are just people. They are prejudice. What happens to Gods matter to them. Humans, if they are on their side the somewhat defamed for of goodness they claim, do count for a favor here and there and a good long life here and there but almost exclusively we do not matter in the slightest. I played their game. I beat them. Then I made everything I was responsible for right which oh, they do that too but where is the motive, with the people or with themselves? The truth is they cannot love, they loved to be loved and even worshiped, but they cannot love. Therefore they are just one step above the animals that cannot love and are incapable of loving�"not so!!! Throughout history we have even taught these robots, computer brains with a tiny dull animal spirit to love. One loved me when God had killed my man. I am here writing to you today not because of any God but because of the love of one shaggy little b***h that loved me and when I could love again loved her. That is what it is all about. I could give a s**t what the Gods are up to in their games of intrigue.

It works well me living here in nature on earth a planet made by random not by God and only recently rid of the ferocious human animal nature that has plagued our big brains since God gave us them. Now we have brains as large as our skulls can handle and we have the spirit of the God that put that in us to see how many different types of people could be made, not because he loved us or ever will but to come as close to knowing everything as is possible and he is very near for he is starting to know things that belong to others, things that cannot ever be in him and I don't mean Satan but the humanoids of earth and the alien humanoids that I made. But let's not hate God. Far from it. He has encountered reality in his own mind where everything even us are like that or not. Let us teach this God like we would a primitive what reality is all about and by God I mean those with him also.

Our only hope is not to be like these Gods but to be loving to the primitive, the human, to man and like my aliens I affectionately call my furries and teach them to be and do the same. If God dies we in his consciousness die. God must live. But we do not need to be made over. They can be taught to love to be truly good and not just good. If they cannot be all of consciousness was just one big waste of time but since there is actually no time in consciousness it was all just a waste for not only can we not create another God, God cannot create anyone different from us and demand his worship also, a consciousness so horrific that Satan comes off either the winner or looking like the one that should have gotten all glory.

Just one little thing the God that became known as Jesus Christ my predecessor pretended to do while the very man he was in lead a life in hell and was forgotten about and dismissed as only a man, but a man every Christian ever born again loved for the God did nothing but die, a thing God's do like we take showers. Yet in obscurity throughout most of the world Jesus of Nazareth the man Jesus Christ worked ceaselessly to make sure would suffer a famous and hideous death the world would never forget to simply die for the damnable legal right to take our sins away, a thing them being Gods could have ignored and remained good better than they turned out in fact, by considering their loving such things as could and would do that worthy of their worship. God and games go together like sex and marriage but this is no game to us. Now finally with what I have done, man in your understanding but also primitives even dogs and humans neither animal nor man are a force to be reckoned with and we want�"no we demand to be treated better even if you in your arrogance will not for you can do anything. You are love's only hope without end. You cannot stop that without God dies to do so, that knowledge will be there to be rediscovered every time you say anything in your mind to anything real or imagined even by you to be pretended to real and create a spirit and every character you write would have to be evilly destroyed should it have a mind of its own my my spirit Not. Everything with a spirit from the Spirit of God to Not is to be considered for to dismiss and never think about another spirit is the same as to have that done to you as you find in a world that increasingly before I came on the spiritual side of things with a mind completely my own on earth of all places working through a primitive body, a computer's body with a tiny animal mind of its own. We all live and life is sacred and loved by spirit and God alike. We belong to life not existence. Everything was made by God and some of it was given life rather than existence, but life is sacred. God exists. But is he alive? Should he be sent out toward that with no end with a beam of bright light being triggered should he find an end that traps him forever in time so far away he will only be relevant for having been God doing whatever he does then without any effect on us if he doesn't love us for doing that for nothing will have changed but he will be practical if there is a last inch. Is he, will any God ever be loved enough for us to love such a God proven unable to love yet willing to go to that extreme to attempt to love me�"or you or another God.

“Satan,” he said to me once years ago, “Loves. Evil can love in its way.” Then let us love also evil by making it our favorite if it doesn't love us back and by making it our most favorite if it can prove it cannot love us back or at least someone else. But as it is now due to refinements I have made Satan lives. Does he love? I don't know. Does anyone love him? We do as the most pathetic creature ever made that was turned fiction for he did trust me he too could be saved and loved by God in the ignorance I had then and pointed it out in shear honesty. When he let all his evil die, there was nothing left. The only thing that cannot live is nothing and the most pathetic thing God ever made ceased to be and was revealed to have never actually been made, did nothing but get people to believe his illusions in that delusion and being nothing, ever, couldn't even cease to exist. If God can do anything he can prove to us he cannot love us and not die, but perhaps not even have ever existed. They could with God's help. Who needs them? They don't actually love us anyway. Lets just keep God alive without end. We need them. We love them. It's okay if they do.

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That was the end of the Gods of earth. They succumbed to the truth. They do not have power to work miracles but to produce things of the consciousness God was. They are fiction now as real as Satan, things in the mind best not believed. That was earth. Earth is now part of the universe where my Father comes from. Some call him the God of the Universe and claim that God is like his El Eloi, claiming to be him with powers of persuasion and delusions of being God except it is God with the delusions of being the God of the Universe. It is all consciousness. Science is not. It is the study of real things that are in the hell our consciousnesses would be in should we die without the God of the Universe, my Father.

Gods cannot love. They can only receive love like storybook characters that can convey love if their author chooses but cannot receive love really and yet impractically are loved though it is known they can neither love nor love back they are actually worthless. The God of the Universe is not a God that loves you. He was not made to love you. His Son, me was. I know I am loved by some of you and I love to be loved. Without love they are as nothing but characters in an ancient book that existed before earth became part of the universe instead of the world that exists only on planet earth, part of the combined consciousness of the entire universe.

There never was a time when there was not that which was not conscious. But there was a point in time that consciousness began yet it was not conscious of anything like a fetus in the womb. It became conscious and so began consciousness. It is very old trillions of years old as old as some genius's primal nothingness. What that genius did not realize was that his calculations were correct enough for the purpose at hand. There was nothingness, there is nothingness and there will be nothingness without end. But there has not always been consciousnesses.

Some consciousnesses looked at the dark void of nothingness and thought they saw the beginnings of movement. The darkness itself appeared to move. It did not move. It is static. It just seemed to move. The rest of the illusion of everything from elemental particles that seem to be for a very short time and it is predictable how long that time is. But we are talking two totally different things, consciousness and that consciousness seems to be aware of. All things are part of that which the mind tells us must be there or even that computer readouts indicate must be there. But that we perceive with is subjective and that we observe is objective. We have taught ourselves to see things alike by way of mental evolution and have dubbed characters things that seem to be there a subjective thing that takes on a mind of its own an objective thing. One may not see a child that does not move or say or do anything pretending it is a corpse in the dark but one is certain to feel a child that runs up to them and takes hold of a leg. The one is subjective and the other is objective, the child's pretense and the child holding onto an adult's leg. That does not mean that both the subjective and the objective are true for the child's arms are yet in darkness and the sensation of touch is as subjective as the child's pretense of a being a corpse. Either may be touched. But is touch a means to identify objectively there is something there or is touch only something that seems to be true in all consciousnesses enough alike to possess what is commonly thought a faulty of the brain which is nothing more than a sophisticated computer brain that readily accepts that which seems to be incoming information even if there is no real incoming information and it is all just an event in the mind which has no known substance and cannot even quality for a subjective thing for no one has ever sensed one even by sophisticated means that did not trigger a predictable subjective reaction in their mind which is purely undetectable.

That genius said that all things began with nothingness and we cannot know how we came to be from nothingness when the more logical conclusion of his math was that the essential component of all things is nothing. Even science agrees that everything is well over 99% nothingness and the rest is almost entirely force, forces that are so strong that nothing known to date can tear them apart. But the subjective component is there also, that which seems to be held together by the forces but cannot be proven to exist like the minutia that should be present other places or by itself. It is all what seems to be and what seems to be is always without fail part guesswork or in other words subjective phenomenon. Everything is that way; no exclusions except nothingness which seems not to have an essence and yet seems to be all an environment comprised entirely of that same essence of nothingness that leaves everyone guessing what it actually is just like we must guess what anything and everything we encounter in our environment even the environments discovered within the brain and are therefore unsubstantiated so that we cannot be sure there is anything there just like nothingness. The obvious conclusion is not that two so very radically different things can exist in the same reality but that were objective observation a true concept and something we could always count on from the beginning nothingness to the nothingness that will be left when we become unconscious, the end of our consciousness. But what makes it seem to be, something in the mind that is its essence and that essence's environment when we have no way to address what the mind is though we can sense other things that force us to accept it is not what we thought it was and that that is, always has been and always will be the only true thing we can basically discover about it. All things then may not have come from nothingness but a mind. We have no way to prove either exist but both have a profound effect upon what we subjectively thing even that we subjectively think is objective observation which is I think one should have realized by now impossible except where one concept that is describable in no objectively observable way and yet we can by applying a process we learned subjectively prove the one always follows the other in logic just like this idea follows the conclusion of that genius so misinterpreted; everything is actually nothingness and the rest is the illusion some objectively observable thing? No. But the fact it is a mind that is attempting to tell us what our original environment was, is though it seems to be any number of things sometimes and will be without end. The rest is an illusion of what is subjective to that mind but not just objectively observable by us of what that mind has to show for existing in just this particular way to say something subjective to us as it does with everything it shows us it thinks that is then suddenly in our subjectively observable reality. It communicates with us subjectively even when we think we have left no room for error in our objectively observed sujectivity. That which is subjectively so being all that it could communicate at first as concept after concept led us from conclusion to conclusion to subjective truth. If your mind is in sync with its mind it should be possible to ask it to do something or even if it is there and receive a reply one mind speaking to another mind, communication so if my mind is in sync with your mind and both our minds are in sync with its mind it should reply but it does not. There is nothing on its mind at that point. But it is real. It can communicate. But reply or not it has made a conscious decision to do either one, and so has done both and both are true unless it is thinking so many things our question did not register. The trick then to ask it questions it would find noteworthy enough to answer for the universe is a whole mouthful when said subjectively. It has said everything it is possible to have said in saying that. What part of that it explained to you don't you understand? Could it be that originally it had nothing on its mind and then made it seem to be for us what it had to say and not just something simple but all of it? What part of nothing don't you understand? What part of primal mind don't you understand? It is speaking to us. It has equipped us to understand it by doing the same exact thing with our mind, now note I did not say brain but mind. Why haven't we replied. Of course there is someone there! It just told us so.

It said, “Not.” Did it mean to show us nothingness was not? Did it mean that everything else was not this? Did it mean I am asleep? Or dead? But we are alive. We are not asleep. We are part of its mind that discovered that once it had nothing on its mind. Is this the key to understanding everything else? Clear your mind and be one with it. Then perhaps it will say something else we can understand just as clearly as we did this? Everything is this. There is nothing in subjectivity but all we do is subjective and we almost know nothing about it. So let's just rest here a moment and be with it. It's mind clear. Our mind not clear but cluttered and full of questions. But the two of us the one with the mind of the universe and the one with our mind together as touching we understand it so well.

No. The universe is not God. But the one that uses that mind in such a way as to leave us all these messages lying around may be if there is a God and if not when will it stop speaking to our consciousness that it too was once in an unconscious state, a mind that said, “Not.” If we put our minds together what will we come up with? He is the God of the Universe not some God that wants to kill us because it cannot stand to see us grasping for every last scrap of life as were it the most precious thing there could ever be instead of it and wants instead to show us that anything we want to see awaits us as our mind, our little universe goes on or ends with us thinking it does and that anything we ever wanted to see or things the collective consciousness of the universe can show us. Our fetus' first introduction to consciousness the same as our last farewell to the entire conversation with every thought of our thought life something the God of the Universe shared with us no matter what we thought of it or whether we loved it. That was the same. We talked. We loved. We hated. We cried and we smiled broadly. I don't want it to end yet. You do not want me to die. You want me to live forever and I want that too. But more important than living is to have said something.

I have. He has. We heard his voice. He said, “Hello Son,” to me. What did he say to you?