Trying To Reach My Happy Place

It doesn�t seem to be working too well at the moment.

All I want is to go to my happy place.  A little place in my mind where everything is calm and quiet.  A place where I can find clarity in the mess that I call my brain.

 

I try to drown out the TV.  The screaming one year old.  The all around chatter that is from the people in my household.

 

I put on my headphones and search for a song.  Any song.  Just one song that I can listen to that will drown out all of that mess. 

 

First song.  Not helping.  I turn the volume up.  Nope, didn’t help.  I can still hear it all.

 

I need to get to my happy place.  I need to reach it.

 

Next song, was a waste since it was mostly noise anyway.

 

I still hear the mess.  I still feel like I am going insane.  I turn the volume up four notches.  Please get me to my happy place.

 

 I found a song.  Still isn’t loud enough though.  I turn it up another five notches.  The music is pounding on my eardrums.  I close my eyes and press the headphones harder against my ears.  I will reach my happy place.

 

I am venturing into this world of mine where I am free.  I have no responsibilities.  I have no worries.  All I hear is my song.  The song that is aiding me on my quest to find my happy place.  It doesn’t matter if the volume is too loud.  I like it loud. 

 

Each note that hits my ears is a pleasure.  I can breathe.  I am reaching that grassy field in the sun and I am reaching clarity.  I need to reach my happy place.

 

I can feel the sun.  I just need to go a little further.  I don’t care how much the volume hurts I just want everything to go away.  I just want to be in my happy place. 

 

No more tears.  No more yells.  No more fits.  No more anything.  JUST PEACE!

 

I sit and endure the pain until I reach my happy place.

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[Eagle Cruagh]

When you find your happy place
may I share?
I have been writing about life on
an uninhabited island--- Would you
like to visit--- go to my page and read
SHIPS AND THE SEA #1 thru 49.
There is sex and violence and mystery
and intrigue---- but we do it all at our
own pace-- check it out please.
I love your story about peace.

---- John