I am a fool

Just a thought I had today. I'm still a little bummed that my poem "Words of a Masked Woman" couldn't be saved. The theme is the title.

 

The pain consumes and breaks my heart

I saw you go and it tore me apart

Every day I will remember

Every memory this last December

 

My world is crashing

I am breaking down

The world keeps spinning round and round

You got your way

Took my heart and left for another day

Leave me in these tight cold chains

Ignore my screams and cries

Abandon the tears you cannot cease

Wait until I am deceased

 

Tears no longer fall and I scream my hurt

I had loved you and now the memory is as old as dirt

Your power weakens forever

My return to you is never

 

My world is frozen

I cannot feel the heart that beats inside me

See what happened when you took my integrity

I have a new way

With an empty space and without a glance back at yesterday

Abandon the feeling of my return

Wait for the world to burn

 

Screams of pain and I see the reason

My heart beats but I am struck with treason

I did not know as I now regret

That I did not see how the pain had set

 

My world is turning the dark of night

I am torn as I realize my own mistake

You had let me leave for my sake

There is no possible way

That I can live just one more day

You hurt me so that I would not see

How you took my death and gave me liberty

I only have wings because of you

I do not want them

They remind me too

 

A single tear and I reach a resolve one last time

There is only one thought in my mind

And that is you

 

It was my fault

I am sorry I did not see

I am sorry I could not hear

I am sorry you loved me

It was my fault

I am sorry I felt doubt

I am sorry I left with hate

I am sorry to not realize

I am sorry I caused your fate

It was my fault

I am sorry to you

I know better now

I do forgive you

I hear you somehow

 

Call me and lead the way

Let us live as we did that day

Gather the strings of my heart and ignite my strife

Help me hold the dagger and take my life

One last smile

One last laugh

One last phrase

 

Tell me what I wish to hear

I will take away what you once had to fear

Everything I say you know is true

Take me wherever you are

I love you

 

I love you…

Author's Note

If you were wondering, yes, she did just commit suicide.

Reviews

[Eagle Cruagh]

This poem is so long and protracted and so sad,
There is no possible way
That I can live just one more day
I am afraid the above two lines answer the burning
question.
So sad, however it is exquisitely written.
I believe it is nearly impossible to write this kind of
finality without leaviing depression in it`s wake.
---- Eagle Cruagh

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