Beacon

The middle of Downtown we first  beheld each other in delicate gaze

Your short stature did no justice to the large presence you commanded  in every place

You twirled me around and flicked the flame, the first of many fires wed start leaving me dazed

Id collect the butterflies, you set free inside of me, put them away and wrap them in delicate lace I wasnt ready for you, and you not ready for me…together we were thrown only to be displaced 

A night of two awoken flesh,aroused in each others distress, to me you gave a promise of eternity

I pushed eternity back into your palm thinking forever was the promise not seeing the reality of it all

Not months and barely days later would i awaken after hell to see an empty vessel of you

No fire i could ignite to warm your skin, no gaze to meet me , in the eternity you spoke of- now youre dead, gone

Here I stayed as you took wings and flew away….you did not consider your promise with me youd stay

A promise i wouldn't even accept, but promise nonetheless it was ours the final blaze between us

Here in your stead i wake everyday with dread, not knowing who i am or where i even truly exist 

I cant breathe a breath without seeing your vacant face knowing i knew and couldnt do

How do i move forward, how do i break free- knowing my memory is all thats left of me during you

It is a me i dont want to repeat, but i cant shed her until we speak 

Insanity is all thats left, hearing you inside my chest  

No sign is sign enough and here i am trying so hard to be tough 

I cant stand on my own two feet knowing you have nothing left to seek 

I miss your being, your endless charge, you touch and voice and everything and even nothing at all 

For this ill have to settle, the beacon fire inside my heart that keeps it beating even in all this stark reality 

That beacon is now all lit up hoping you find your way back out of the dark