For JLM

I cry not just because youre gone

Not just that you took your own life

I cry because this wasnt how it was supposed to be for you 

If I could take all your pain and wrap it up inside of me 

To give you a fighting chance at this unfair life 

I would take it all, take it all away

If i could erase your painful memories and trauma 

If I could make it alright….

What if the monsters never came to get you 

What if those meant to protect you did their job

What if others didnt see a target on your back

Would you still be,…be here?

Your dying breath, it breathed life back into me-

Breaking down my death wish on the best days

But sometimes Feeding it on my worst

The ghost of you follows me, I beg you to stay

Sometimes i beg you to go, to leave me be 

Shivers over take, over take me 

You set me free, to be me in every way I can be

I never knew myself, until the day you left me

I came to fight to stay alive as you ceased to breathe  

Plugs in the jug, nose in the books, medallion in my bag 

The most important one sleeps forever over your heart

Ill never forget, never forget, never forget you….you..you. 

No more pain, no more confusion or angst

Singing in the choir up above, voice untouched

Gaining your wings watching over me and these buddies

I take off  your ring around my neck, but remember your in my heart

This is just the start, we will never part-Friends forever

Until we meet, until we meet again�"-love you with no end.