Delusional Disease

alcoholism

I remember a day when in your eyes you were alive 

I remember a day when in your eyes became the enemy 

I remember being on the cusp of leaving this world behind

I remember when i thought Id die, from losing you 

Today my eyes are open brand new, the light is born in them

Today I know it wasnt you i was losing it was myself, a vicious cycle i couldnt break

Today in your eyes I finally see its the  sickness, one i know all too well

Today I realize your purpose in my life, in ours, in theirs 

Today I see your pain , and hold no more blame, just sadness

Tomorrow is a day brand new and i beg God to save you like hes done me

Tomorrow I hope your eyes open to your light too, but its His will be done

Tomorrow I pray its not too late to save the man I know you can be

Tomorrow i hope you see in their eyes what is falling away from you

I look forward to a day they can embrace you without tears against you

I look forward to a day they say they know you like i knew you 

I look forward to a day this disease is ripped away from you 

I look forward to a day that you embrace what can be for you

Im sorry for the way i fell apart, the way i left you in the dark 

I swear i didnt know, or maybe i did but couldnt help myself

I hold no grudge i hold no resentment, i see you, i feel you, i beg you

I realize now it wasnt you, it wasnt me-it was the delusion we couldnt fight

It was us-we let it win, but im taking back my reigns, imploring you to do the same

 

I remember a day you were living and not glazed over 

Today i see your face and know you too cant find the strength 

Tomorrow embrace the love you have in your life, dont let it slip away

I look forward to a day the world sees what i know is there deep within

With my new found light and life, i can see the place your in 

As your friend that loves you- God i pray to open your eyes before its too late 

Not my will be done, but yours God-spare him.