mask

a poem about wearing a mask

you have no idea,its not paranoia
how can it be, when its real,
but i do know,how it comes
but cant, tell you how it feels

i can step,out of myself
my mind,and try to believe,
but its still there, always
like a thorn,sticking in me

take my hand,tell me you understand,
and i wish, that was true,
i shouldn't have, to say or even ask
so why, did i have to?

i heard you cry,and i had to lie
about why,i backed down,
the truth was this man,couldn't stand
that soul destroying, sound

i didn't want to,choose for you
and you know it, wasn't fair,
you said it wasn't right,after our fight
but it still got us, nowhere

and this feeling,is stealing
me away, from what i really want,
ive not been spared,cos im still scared
and it still feels like a taunt

i cant win,because i haven't been
like your own reflection,
there's no clearance,only interference now
on my direct connection

put my fist in my mouth, and bite down
your worth it,ill say and its all nothing,
but the feeling wont stop, and its building up
and it hurts to the point, that its crippling

this is a mess, and im doing my best
to get a grip and keep it too,
the feeling wont go,and i know it wont
im lost, lights out, i loose

shadow dreaming, and knowing the meaning
crashes my thoughts even more,
and im trying to smile, even if just for a while
but i cant because of the lure

its not the same, when the pain
starts to twist and pierce,
im pinned to the wall,and its not my fault
that im drowning in my fears

ill tell you that, its not so bad
as my heart sinks so so,deep,
ill walk ten thousand miles with a fake smile
just for your love to keep

i don't even dare to be fair,
for fear of, loosing you
and its killing me and you wont see,
who is really who

where is the line, this time
the one i didn't see at the start
and the questions just questions
are tearing me apart

how long, will i have to carry on
like this,and i also have to ask
if ill ever see the ending of
hiding behind this mask.

























 

Reviews

[Destinee]

This was soooo good. I'm kind of left wondering what there is to say because nothing would really equate to it... make sense? probably not... oh well. there are so many lines in here that just really spoke volumes and it's amazing that you can do that. such talent.

[grim]

why do we pretend to try to win others back when we are just makng ourselves more miserable.