Self blankness

I break my vows to protect the self

protect it from all evils 

and let it grow dark and hard instead

When love turns nasty

why should i let my soul continue to find more love?

Let it remain violent and angry

that it always found love hidden under the mountains of expectations.

My self has turned ugly

is it because of toxic social structure

or is it how my genes are playing 

or is it because i am at the fault?

I break my desire to love my self

and stop looking for happy days.

When people get busier

finding more and more chains to be wrapped around

why should i let empty conversations flow?

Let my soul be devoid of any interaction

and let it instead remain blank.