Turned AwayA Poem by GamingGalHere I am, oh loving Father I come to You for guidance Fall into Your open arms Heart crying out for love Soul crying out for safety Your hold on me it tightens And only too late do I realize The judgment in Your eyes Only too late do I peel back the guise And realize The Lamb has turned lion Fangs drip of righteousness Claws grip my skin Attempting to rip through To rip this sin out of my being I fall to my knees As You hold up The Book The Book labeling all that I love As unclean, as damning, as sin The Book that condemns me To an eternity without love Simply because I dared to love Your eyes pin me down Righteous spirit washing over me Inciting guilt and loathing Burning fire surrounds me Attempting to cleanse my soul But all is in vain For I see no wrong The lion circles me I plead and beg Voice cracking and soul screaming “Please just love me! Please forgive me You made me this way! Why don't You love me?! Why don't You love me?! I loved You! I love You!” But it's too late The lion lunges And I am swallowed whole Falling into eternal darkness Eternal loneliness Judged for my love I dared to find happiness I dared to step out of line To turn my back on what I knew was right I gave up my safety and security I gave up my family All for love, for what my heart called for All for what felt right Yet here I am The Father has turned His back Casting me into darkness Averting His eyes from my sin His daughter that gave into earthly ways While still crying out to Him My soul cries for You Those songs in dedication The fragile pages of Your Word Those days of mission work for You That feeling of being washed with You Completely immersed in LOVE To feel Your smile To almost hear You say “This is My child in whom I am pleased.” Like a man dying of thirst I seek You out Holy Spirit for my soul Bread and wine for the spirit Sliding into those familiar church pews Eyes closing as I drink in those songs Those words Those verses Hands opening as I welcome You But You merely ghost by And I hear echoes of times gone by Where You loved me Where You welcomed me Instead, I'm a stranger in Your House Sentenced to eternal longing For Your LOVE
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Added on April 19, 2016 Last Updated on April 19, 2016 AuthorGamingGalAtlanta, GAAboutWeeeeeelllll.... I'm your average girl living in the big city. I haven't wrote much lately, but if I do, I'll let you guys know :) more..Writing
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