viii. Rational Theory on Ethical Auto-VampirismA Poem by Gamine KnightFrom the 'Gutless Serpentine' Collection.On the shore of the east precinct two boys fight over another boy. A girl watches from a nearby skyscraper with her binoculars. In due time both of the boys have knocked each other to the ground, they are tired and hungry. The girl looks at the third boy, who is licking his lips. She notices that the third boy is quite turned on by the fight for him. “Disgusting.” She thinks. Later that day the girl & the third boy are on top of a hill. A shooting star lays it’s eyes on them, the third boy wishes for the world to end. He doesn’t know it already has. The girl makes two wishes. She knows that she can’t have both. It makes her terribly sad. I had a dream half a horse delivered your letter, I had a dream my friend was a spy, sand in an hourglass, a fly on the wall. I had a dream you called me by the wrong name. With your lips you called, “Apricot, Eschew, Moon Magic, Ricochet, Lung-Plague, Lucy, Locket, Venice” and I answered to all of them. A list more than anything is an offering, a vow, a wet iron skillet, wet firewood, old desire. A wolf and it’s audacity drags it’s feet through the snow, it watches through the kitchen window where you & I are Hip to Hip. It’s unclear if we are dancing but the wolf would like to believe we are. It’s unclear if I am breathing, or if the power bill was paid. I’m writing a story and I can’t see in the dark, darling. I can’t hear you when you talk to me while biting my neck. A train passes our cabin every night and rumbles, and rumbles, and shakes us out of bed and onto a stage. Spotlight in the middle, the curtains already drawn. You take the first act where you brag to the audience about the second act, how I’m all this and all that. How lovely my eyes are and how I slept while you drew ecosystems. The details of my bones, my passport, my mechanical inside. The design of my solar system, Dorian’s yellow book, labyrinths, dog shirts. How slow I eat popsicles. You don’t mention how books are ruined by having an ending- the last 30 pages of every book should be ripped out. You don’t mention how The audience gets a say on what’s considered a bird of prey. You don’t mention how nobody gets a say on how the world ends (but us). The audience applauds for you and then the fire alarm is pulled before I enter the stage. I don’t tell you that I pulled it or why but I do tell you my favourite day of the week. I tell you about the apocalypse before the apocalypse. I tell you how cycles are only good if they end. Are we a part of something larger? Do we have to be? Do we have to move? Stars, I am so tired. I’ll lay with what’s mine for just a little longer. In the morning I’ll wake up with a masquerade mask in my hand. In the bathroom of our apartment the longest snake asks about my major. I say that it’s Modern Vampire Ethics, but that’s a lie. My major is Black Cat Anatomy. You kiss me twice before we leave for class, we both get into the back seat of the car and I ask you which one of us wants to drive. You respond that we could just sit here forever and never go anywhere ever again. I call you stupid and I lay my head on your shoulders. The day doesn’t end, not yet. Not for us. On an east precinct hill, a shooting star passes a determined girl, she whispers her desires. “Let me rest and let me live forever. Everything ends the way it begins- You. Softened. Faint. You. Noiseless. Close. You. Dreaming. Sealed.”
The star says nothing back. & The star says nothing back… -
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