Suicide: POV Trailer Poem

Bye everyone 1 to 10, i wrote before I attempted suicide 11 to 20, is After i was brought back to life, treated at a mental hospital for over a week, and brought back home..

1 pill...2 pills...blood runs down the drain...but how many methods...can you name? 

3 pills...4 pills...pop off the caps,Will I reach ten before I collapse...?

5 and 6, Tragedy strikes, stop,who was to the blame? We discard the problem and look for a name.

7 and 8....Don't look at my face, they torture me blind, with no reason in place 

9 to 10, and with all you said, Thy soul haunts on..but I wanna be dead. Goodbye

11 and 12, I'm coming back, standing up, against my own attacks

13 to 14, I've raised my sword and shield, I stand this pain with God I wield

15, 16. It's been a week, backs broke, jaws off, But i still walk and speak.

17 and 18, I've changed my thinking, I ain't giving up the next time my ship starts sinking

19 to 20, It's not over, Here I come, world. I am my own soldier.

Author's Note

1 to 10, i wrote before I attempted suicide
11 to 20, is After i was brought back to life, treated at a mental hospital for over a week, and brought back home..

Reviews

[Avinash]

Doug I see a brave struggle there. There was a time everyday I contemplated suicide and wished for death. 14 years down the line when I look back all I can say you shall not take what you have not given. This life which we are living is never going to be the way we want. All we can do is to play the best we can as we all are nothing but Puppets of God. Its just a show and you are playing your character. Do the best you can. My best wishes.

[Rana]

Numbers and alphabets, u create a thriller out of 'em. The poem is as unique as it could be, and while it entertains and fascinates, it also gives those little messages. Love how it ends positively.

[BeeBev]

A very thought provoking poem that I also found quite chilling. The way it is written with the counting aspect turned it into something of a dark nursery rhyme. It is dark but at the same time beautiful.

[Ghost Writer]

Are you okay? Don't please don't ever hurt yourself. People care about you, if you don't think that's true I care about you and I don't even know you that well. You always have something to live for, talk to me if you feel like it's the end. I know what it is like to want to be done completely, oblivion won't be as great as it sounds.

[broken]

Beautifully written - I can feel your pain

[Saddam]

Currently I read a Poem about life's philosophy, which was Great and then your write, It making me worry about, Is there really sure?