Fruit Salad

My mind gets to wandering
And I think about you
My brain ponders us
The glory days and how we ended
The pain I caused because
You were leaving and I was afraid
Unable to cope with the distance
I had no trust in myself
I didn't believe you that we would be fine
So carefully I said goodbye because
I didn't want to hurt you like
the others had done
Though still you said you
wanted to kill yourself
It pulled endless guilt into my mind
Weighing down my stomach
Filling my body with sickness
I gaze upon my thighs
Skin ghostly pale like a bowl of milk
Strawberry and cream scars symmetrical and parallel
Guilt translates to a dull ache for more
A senseless yearning for cherry slashes and raspberry gashes
Envisioning juice dribbling down my limbs
Collecting on the cool tile floor in a fragrant vermillion puddle
The Cool Whip whites of my nails dig into fleshy peach palms
raising swollen dragonfruit pink crescents
Grape and kiwi bruises blossom like sunflowers
I slather myself in imaginary injures
Wishing I could do the real thing
Wishing that it wouldn't only hurt you more

Reviews

[Ashira Macy]

Um, wow! This was amazing. Dark, creepy, and sad that the narrator feels so compelled to inflict so much self pain. I loved that you ended it with them not actually ripping their skin apart into physical shreds to match their poor mind. Amazing emotional work.

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you! (:

[quixotic_rose]

Never would have thought by the title that you would be comparing scars and injuries to that of fruit. Ingenious really :) loved it!

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thanks! (:

[MOON]

Fruit salad excellent idea and you describe and embroider on the image so well. Good write.

[RachelReaper]

I would have never thought of injuries as fruits, but I have to say, I like the comparison the way you put it. The line, "Grape and kiwi bruises blossom like sunflowers" really stuck out to me.

[Corset]

this makes me hungry, lol...but seriously I understand the sentiments completely, a brilliant poem.

[Rhea752]

this was striking, emotional, and absolutely brilliant. Keep writing!!!! :)

[Admiral Kirk]

This is very beautiful and touching. Great job!

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thanks. (:

[xxxrawr_friendxxx]

You're very descriptive. :3 I can't even explain how much I love this poem. It shall be the first thing in my libary :D

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you!!! I really appreciate it! (:

[xxxrawr_friendxxx]

*gasp* I love this poem. It reminds me of a friend I miss dearly.

[Pax]

sincerity in poetic form...love the images used.

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thanks.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are a amazing writer. The poem description was strong and the words felt real and had reason and purpose.
"A senseless yearning for cherry slashes and raspberry gashes
Envisioning juice dribbling down my limbs "
The ending was realistic. We don't want to hurt the people we care for. Thank you for the outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Celestial Witch Child]

Thank you! (: