not u

i remember tracing my fingers on your back
trying to fix those broken cracks
your dad left you and i'm no help
the only way to heal you is if i go away.
your the one i made love to during the day
and the impact you left me, was something i couldn't replace
i miss your laugh the most and the smile that i made
your my other half and the one that got away
love is real and i throw it away
being 16 has taught me a lot.
crying at 9 pm on a monday
i gave you love, every chance i got.
but not every story ends happy
i lost you and i'm not laughing
i've made writing my go to
cause your not very loyal
i sit here and wait
maybe you'll change and maybe i'll be what we need
but maybe one day i'll realize what this time both did to us.
as we grow into the life we get
still, i regret
i'll regret all the days of my life,
if i don't have you by my side

oct 12,2016