Mediocre

I wake up & I smell cigarettes.
My dad didn't put it out.
So I have to jump out of bed & do it for him.
I open my book and start on chapter 16 again.
Nothing feels the same anymore.
Ever since my brother left the door.
My music in my speaker is the only thing that keeps me going.
Or else I'd be dead in a heartbeat.
This mediocre house makes me sad.
Nothing anymore can change my dad.
Don't get me started on my mom.
Work is her only priority.
Her kids are pushed to the side.
Doing drugs is the only way out of their life.
I won't think right anymore.
Painting black on my ceiling, There's no clouds in my world.
Blue is the color of the sky, then why do I cry? Why?
I clean the dirt off my worn pair of jeans, call up my sister & ask what's she been doing lately.
I stay up til I see the sun.
I think of the times I said I love you.
Maybe it was real & I threw it away.
I don't think of you anymore.
Your just a memory.
Memories is all we become.
The stories on the news will be irrelevant in about a week.
Why do you think you'll be something to me?
I like the dark side of things.
There's no love in me.
I read chapter 16.
It talks about how the world sees upside down.
Open up ur mind and maybe you'll see.
Maybe you'll feel what I feel.
The smoke lights up my sky.
Coming home at night.
I push you away til you leave.
I call you & it goes straight to the beep.
What am I suppose to do with my lost life at 16.

Reviews

[Lox]

A wonderfully made story to convey the emotions of a child lost in the world, especially in his family. Nearly put me to tears, nice job! Keep it up! Hope to see more tear-jerking pieces from you.