To My Friends That I've Wronged

Sorry to the friendship we once had.

I am so sorry for that day,
The day I turned my heart away.
Regret has cast its heavy shadow,
An ache that lingers, deep and hollow.
Each night, a restless price I pay,
For choices made in disarray.

In whispers soft, I seek to mend,
Yet still I struggle to extend
My heartfelt words, too shy to speak,
For shame has made my spirit weak.
I long to say what’s in my soul,
But doubt consumes my heart, my whole.

I seek a way to show I care,
To mean it fully, to lay bare
The truth of how I lost my way,
Not forced, not pressured ---my choice that day.
I carry the weight of what I’ve done,
Haunted by shadows that I can’t outrun.

When I walk past you, how to express
The sorrow that feels like a heavy dress?
How to meet your gaze with truth and grace,
While shame draws lines across my face?
It was never my aim to cause you pain,
Yet here I stand, burdened by the stain.

That fleeting score, the hollow win,
Was it worth the cost, the pain within?
Years have flown, yet still I find
Your faces echo in my mind.
I wish to share this truth with you,
To say the things I never knew.

So many thoughts left unsaid,
Yearning for what we’ve lost instead.
I hope to see you all once more,
With heartfelt words I can’t ignore.
To my friends that I’ve wronged, I plead,
Forgive me for my careless deed.