Option

It gets so annoying sometimes.
The fact that you’re telling me that you’re into me, but you’re with somebody else.
What are you trying to do? What are you doing!?
Am I just an option for you to go when you have no one else to talk to?
Am I satisfying you with my presence alone that It made you said those sweet things?
If it ain’t hypocrisy, what is it?
Isn’t it ironic? Probably it is, but what do you think?
There’s a lot of things I really want to ask you, but I guess it doesn’t matter anyway.
You were always talking things like, your plans for “us”.
What the f--- are you talking about?
I’m simply annoyed, why are you making a lot of promises? Why are yo… just why?
You were decent, I was almost captivated by you.
But why would you do such foolish actions, like lying to me when in fact, I know the truth?
You’re a weird human being, you said, you were looking for someone to settle with
But you’re still having fun playing with fire? Holy sh--
My words, sorry for that, but really, what was that all about?

To not hurt someone too much, I guess you were just drunk?
Drunk talks? Oh! Now we’re talking, that made sense now.
Okay bye.

 

Reviews

[Kari Rakitan]

This sounds like someone who doesn't want to be monogamous trying to flirt with someone who wants to be monogamous. In a world where we are trained from birth to believe that monogamy is our only option, we wind up in painful dilemmas such as these.

It reminds me of the song "This Masquerade" by George Benson (1976)
https://youtu.be/g-ibK5L2a4I

"The words got in the way" is one line of the song that I no longer agree with. I think it is the lack of words to describe what we want that gets in our way. Things go a lot smoother and people waste less time when they can explain what they want.

[Gabby The GAB]

I would love to hear your perspective about monogamy, what do you think about it Kari?

read moreI would love to hear your perspective about monogamy, what do you think about it Kari?

" I think it is the lack of words to describe what we want that gets in our way. " This line, I agree with this.

Thanks for the review! :)

[Kari Rakitan]

Monogamy works for some people but not others. My parents are monogamous, and it works great for them. However, I feel that all people should do what is right for them and consider all their options. Since I'm polyamorous and I didn't even know it was a possibility until 2009, I feel like I could have saved myself a lot of pain if I'd known sooner.

The thing is that I fell in love with an asexual man, and I still love him. I thought he had to be my one and only, my everything, and I pushed too hard for sex and drove him away. I was constantly searching for answers, for a way to make things work between us. I found an answer, but I found it too late. He'd already stopped talking to me by the point I learned about this: https://youtu.be/24ri_EJ2IXc

For more detail, you can read my story "Kaiba's Prostitute" which is fanfiction as far as the Kaiba brothers are concerned but is also based a lot on my life. Despite my disclaimer, it starts on a day when I could have met the Kaiba brothers if they were real people. The Kaiba brothers are wish fulfillment, and the rest of it is basically just life for me.

[Gabby The GAB]

Your take on this was quite enlightening, thanks Kari.

[Kari Rakitan]

Any time :)

[Masked writer]

woah, i didnt expect this, perfect for a situationship lol

[barleygirl]

I've been here & I've done that. It's a ridiculous waste of time to entertain the affections of someone who simply doesn't want to be with you. Who cares what they call it or how they conduct it. If this person is with someone else, he/she does not intend to be with you. This narrator sounds like he/she is more angry with him/herself, than with some cheap shallow user type. It may seem like this narrator is painting a word picture of how bad this other person is, but this is really a story about how stupid the narrator has been. It sure takes this person a long while of ranting to finally do the only thing worth doing -- let go of this farce! You paint a very realistic scene with a recognizable character & it's hard to watch people spend so much emotional energy on so much futility (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Gabby The GAB]

That is so true Margie, It's hard to watch people like that and what I was portraying on this poem was someone's story and I just made it seem like it's on my perspective. Thank you for the review Margie! :))