I'm an Artist

I get all dressed up for my razor blade date
You see,
I'm an artist
And my canvas is my flesh
The light shines through the tiny window in my mind
But I'm too blind to see
I paint a portrait on my body
And watch in awe as the passion flows away from me
Id slit my throat if I really wanted
I'm an artist
And my canvas is my soul
My mind is a worthless traitor,
There's nothing alive here anymore.
In the sea of depression
I never learned to swim
I'm an artist
And I'm rotting from within

Reviews

[Jake Donald Stephens]

Darn, somebody beat me to reviewing this.
I bet lots of people could relate......and a lot of people would probably THINK they could. You know that I can. In my case though, it was just all about self pity. Still, that's better than doing it because one thinks it's trendy and "cool", for Christ's sake. I used to know this one girl who had this other friend, and she told me the two of them would actually GET TOGETHER so they could cut themselves TOGETHER. Seriously.
But I know that isn't your case either. I don't do it anymore, but when I did, I was always alone--both literally, and in my mind. But I think that if somebody knows they AREN'T alone, and they've got at least one person to always turn to who will understand and care, there will hopefully be no need for any self harm. (That's why I thought that one girl and her friend were so silly....)
As usual, your poetry is vivid and strong. Please don't hurt yourself in any manner if you can help it. With all due respect, you're too beautiful in too many ways to do something that ugly.

[Gabby Nieves]

Reading these comments has brought tears to my eyes. I've never had many people to go to, and my family sees me as something I don't even know. I'm not sure they even noticed my sadness through out my life and that's a whole other story. I've never felt much beauty here but I can't even tell you how much that means to me. I feel happy and sad and regretful all at once right now. Thank you for being you oh gosh I really love your reviews💚

[Jake Donald Stephens]

You're such a sweet young woman, and so bright, and I want so badly to see great things happen to you. It means the world to ME just to know that I can help, even a little.

[Sami Khalil]

A splendid read and write...:).....................

[Gabby Nieves]

Thank you c:

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:)......

[Cahjli Symes]

holy s**t this is really good and painfully deep. You are an artist indeed since you painted a picture for each line i could feel your pain within

[Gabby Nieves]

Thank you Cahjli 💓

[I Am Svetlana]

The ending to this piece is simply beautiful and stunning! It's never easy to go through such addictive self harm like this. I've been through it for five years on and off, but stopped almost a year ago after realizing how it affected those around me. I figured I could always direct my pain in another way. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel and I'm always here if you need someone to listen.

[Gabby Nieves]

Thank you for this, I've been dealing with this stupid stupid self harming stuff. And its mostly when I feel numb. I'm trying to find other outlets. I feel pretty dumb writing this but it's the truth. Thank you for your review💞

[I Am Svetlana]

You're not dumb for commenting! But yeah, even simple outlets would be fine; like drawing, reading, walks in the park. You name it. Just anything that makes you happy, feel alive without harming yourself. But I'm glad I could help relate :)

[George Peck]

Why rot why not teach yourself to breath in depression and breath out happiness then soon your sea of depression will turn into something you can handle. This is a great poem and it may me feel sadden but I to used to feel that way and I try to change what I can, and do the best I with what I can't change. When that doesn't work I try to laugh it off and forget until next day because it always seems better in the morning almost anything. as always a great poem it let me know I was a live.

[Gabby Nieves]

Well I'm glad it could do that for you, and some days are bad some days are good. I'm still trying ahhhh