Dear You Piece of S**t

I know you’re here
I can feel your breath
My skin turns pale
I live in a body I detest
F**k this worthless bottle of pills
Sorry Mr. Doctor, you just can’t help
I can’t stay here anymore
I've been biting down hard
Keeping everything to myself
But my mind turns against me in the night
And the only voice I hear is His
He’s telling me I’m stupid
A dirty waste of space
It’s 4 in the morning and I’m shaking in place
Reading these lines as they’re written
It seems I’m not me
My words aren't my own
And I’m a reflection of what He made of me
I can’t fix this
I can’t go back
Your hands feel rough on my skin
Sliding down my thighs
You rip me close
And drag me to my demise
Hands and legs are flying
I can’t change a thing
It’s far too late
And I can’t forget
How you killed me back in 2008

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"My words aren't my own
And I’m a reflection of what He made of me "
The poem touched on bad memories and places. Something cannot be erased. Sometime releases to paper. Maybe you save another. Thank you for sharing the powerful poetry.
Coyote

[Katie Alexander]

From a technical standpoint this poem is absolutely flawless. I loved the rhythm and the voice and the rhymes...the way you put it together was amazing. The content was so full of pain and suffering that I stopped breathing for a minute; I was stunned. Like the reviewer below me, I'm here to support you however I can and I hope that poetry is enough of an outlet and a release for you. You took horrible, horrible pain and made something beautiful. I think that's one of the best things a person can do with their life.

[Gabby Nieves]

You don't know how much this truly means to me, thank you so much.

[Jake Donald Stephens]

Gabby, I don't have all the answers. I was harmed as a child too. That's why it's such a recurring theme in my books... It's how I deal with it, how I fight back. I won't bore you with the details of the horrible things that have been done to me in my life. Please, just know that you're not alone and I'm here to support you however I can, and that nothing anybody does to us can erase the beauty that we have inside, or the worth of what we have to offer the world.

[Gabby Nieves]

Thank you so much