Trapped in my mind

The sun goes down and soon I'm haunted by the hours and the minutes and the seconds ticking on the old, dirty clock my mom put in the kitchen for "decoration". I can't think of anything except my heart beating and my lungs ripping apart. Nobody is talking to me and the sun isn't around to show me my shadow so I become consumed by my shadow. And in the darkness the air gets denser and I can't sit inside my house because the walls are getting smaller and tighter. It's all so overwhelming and I ran out of pills last week so I'm sweating and panting and feeling like I'm gonna pass out. That's the point when my heart is beating so fast that I just close my eyes and pretend I'm drowning at the bottom of a beautiful lake or ocean, and it starts to slow and my mind kind of shuts down until I'm basically forgetting to breathe. It takes about five minutes for everything to reset and I check my phone again to see if anyone texted me or something, anything. That's when I realize that everyone is running for their own lives and if you aren't loved or in love, you're just a tiny dot on a seemingly endless globe.

Author's Note

Just something

Reviews

[Jake Donald Stephens]

I've felt like this. A lot. I was completely, totally alone for many years, and I went crazy from it. I turned to music and tv a lot, but the thing that has always helped me most is writing.
Not to sound lame, but it's my best friend.

You have a gift for expression. The ability to communicate effectively through writing is not something everybody has, and most (like me) have to work hard at it for a long time. You've got it already.

[Gabby Nieves]

Nothing lame about that, writing is the only thing keeping whatever shred of sanity I have left. And thank you so much, that means a lot coming from a talented writer like yourself!

[Jake Donald Stephens]

Ditto. Haha. :)

[Katie Alexander]

You're language is so powerful. I've never met someone on here with the level of talent you have for expression through your writing. Please. Write a novel or something.

[Gabby Nieves]

Haha well thank you, omg. And I hope to one day, I still think my writing is pretty s**t but that means a lot, thank you c:

[Katie Alexander]

No your writing is amazing! Trust me.