Sleep paralysis

Matilda goes into sleep paralysis, and during this state, ends up in a relationship with a dark angel, a prince called Cody. During her sleep paralysis, in her world, she is lying asleep with her eyes

Sleep Paralysis
By: Gypsy Girl

Chapter 1
The tornado goes on and on, causing her to swivel from side to side, out of control, her body belongs to him, it’s a secret he has refused to let her in on, or even to reciprocate his pleasure, not until now, as he feels that she has earned enough soul, to be let in on the flame that goes on when she sleeps. Matilda opens her eyes to see a male structure with dark shoulder length hair, emerald eyes that cause her soul to shiver, broad shoulders, the muscled chest, he is laying on top of her and he is inside her and she can’t breathe yet she does, she screams fear but pleasure comes out, she tries to touch him but he hasn’t released her, just her eyes are all he is capable of granting her, he is slowly wanting more, it’s not enough to just have her body. He can finally lose himself in her eyes.

Suddenly Matilda wakes up naked in her king size bed with black silky sheets sticking to her skin, her forehead covered with beads of sweat. She parts her legs and looks down to see that she is indeed wet, and her virginal lips are swollen, she is in a confused and aroused state, her body feeling alien to her. She reaches for a glass of water from her bedside table and rapidly drinks in panic, she can’t remember a time she had a more realistic dream. She drops back on her pillow and turns to her side, crouching into a ball unsure of what to do.

She remembers his face, this stranger, with the most intense stare she has ever experienced, like he was reading her soul, she felt so powerless, yet she has never been more aroused in her 29 years of life. She struggles to touch her skin, as it does not feel like her job anymore. What did he do to her? Suddenly she remembers that she has never had a wet dream before, and a chuckle escapes her lips as she feels silly for panicking over a wet dream, yes, she is too old, but at least she got to experience one.

She drops to her back and finally begins to calm down. She blushes a little from how extremely attractive the man in her wet dream was. She wishes that someone that attractive can come into her life and desire her as much as she felt in her wet dream. She gets up with a slight wobble from her night of adventure and heads to the bathroom, leaving him in her bed, watching his love walk away from him, wishing for something that she already has.

Chapter 2
1 month later
As Matilda sits outside the coffee shop and watches people going in and out of the building, she wonders why she feels disconnected to others, why she feels less like human, why she never gets that full joy that others possess so effortlessly. Sometimes she feels cursed, destined to fail. She wonders whether she will ever feel part of the secret club called, the human race. Whether she will finally get that invitation that she has been waiting for, 29 years in counting, she feels left out and a stranger in her own home. Her job is not what you would call a dream job as she assists the manager of a flower shop, and her boss further reminds her that she does not belong, she is not good enough, she dreams of the day she gets the strength to leave her job. She lives alone and her apartment is the only time she truly feels normal as there is no one to compare herself to. Love has not been kind to her, men have used and abused her more times than she can count, she has cracks in her heart that keep causing her soul to continue slipping through. Matilda was indeed not enjoying her human experience.

However, the night has become a time that Matilda feels desired as a woman, as a being. She closes her eyes knowing clearly where she is heading, to him. Her dreams have become consistent for the past two weeks, he comes, every night, every glorious night in her dreams, to take her away from her painful reality and devour her with passion. The dreams are not like, like anything she has ever had, as she can see her bedroom, yet she cannot move but can feel every gentle touch, every delicate stroke, every soft kiss he graces her with on her needing body.

He was here once again, and she lays on the bed, still unable to move, watching him as he gets closer to her bed. He is shirtless only wearing black jeans and his abs glisten in the moonlight that comes through her bedroom window. He reaches on the side of the bed and drops to his knees. This is not what Matilda is used to, as at this time he would be on top of her, reminding her that she can create a flame between her legs, causing her to pray not to wake up, and end her fire. This time there is sorrow in his eyes, and she wonders why.

Chapter 3
“This is not a dream Matilda, this is real,” he states, causing Matilda’s eyes to open wider and her mouth to drop open. She tries to speak but can’t until he places a hand on her agape and allows her to have a voice, but he does not release her body. “Who are you? What is going on? Am I asleep? What do you mean?” Matilda states in panic, unable to get the questions out fast enough. “I am a dark angel, a prince for my people. Matilda, I came for you because you were so irresistible to me, but I did not expect to feel this way. I was only supposed to be with you for one night, one night of temptation but I have fallen, fallen for you”, he explains as he runs a hand through his hair, causing Matilda to scream, yet no one can hear her, as to the world she appears asleep, with her eyes open. However, to her reality, she is addressing a being, that is telling her that he has feelings, feelings for her, a being that she thought was just a sexy dream she has been having for all these weeks. She thought finally, finally something good had happened to her, what a way to escape her reality, to be desired by the sexiest man she has ever laid eyes on, but it is real, real scary. She continues to scream as he gets up and paces around the room.

“Please, please leave me alone. I did not ask for you, I don’t want you, I never wanted you, please leave me alone,” she begs him as her tears flow. Matilda’s heart races as she wonders whether this is the end for her, is this how she goes. She did not hate her life this much, she feels sorry for complaining so much about her life, but this is not what she wanted, this is not what she wished for. “No, no you don’t mean it. I know you don’t. I can see it in your eyes. You have never felt more alive Matilda. Let me in, let me into your heart,” he states as he attempts to walk towards the bed again causing Matilda to continue screaming.

“Help, help, help me!” she cries out and this does not deter him as he reaches for her thigh and gives it a gentle squeeze, releasing her body, causing Matilda to jump up and rapidly gets off the bed, running to the other side of the room, shaking her head, tears running down her face. “I am falling in love with you,” he says, in his deep thunderous voice, as he walks towards her and reaches his arm out, where he begins stroking her right cheek, and wipes her tears away, as Matilda is frozen in her spot, her back against the wall. He ends up placing a kiss on her lips that are covered in tears, but through all her struggles, she finds a way to kiss him back, and as soon as she does, she wakes up alone in her bed, in a world that feels fake, as she has never felt more real, like she was with him.


Chapter 4
Matilda ends up calling in sick and stays in bed with a migraine. She knows that the night is near, she looks at the clock and sees that it is 8:24am. She usually goes to bed at 9pm and therefore she has 12 hours to be alert before she must fight the urge to sleep, as she decides to not sleep for as long as she can. She doesn’t want to put herself in his control, she can’t do that to herself. However, thoughts of him run through her mind, the way he smelt like the ocean, the way he was warm like the grace of sunshine on chilled skin, his hypnotising eyes that left her speechless, as he continued to steal her soul. Did she miss him or was she missing her sanity?

She wondered whether this was it, was this what it felt like to lose your sanity, to lose sense of what was real. Was she struggling to this extent and did not acknowledge it? Didn’t see the signs, didn’t listen to herself calling for help until she went to the end of her rope. As she continues to lay on her bed and hugs her covers, she, she knows that being insane is the option she wishes can explain what is happening, yet she knows, she knows this is real, it’s real as her soul shines more than it has ever shone before, with him, with him the colours a brighter, her heart beats louder and every breath is recognised.

She wonders what now, where is she supposed to go? Who is she supposed to tell? How is she supposed to feel about him, about herself? Worst of all she misses him. By 12pm she drifts off to sleep in her worried yet peaceful state, and there he stands against the wall of her bedroom, looking straight into her eyes with the intent of wanting to recruit her heart, all he wants is to be hers, and little does he know that he already has her, as she gives him a warm smile, happy to be home.

Chapter 5
Night after night, Matilda grows further and further into her new reality of being in a relationship with a man that his not from this world, a man who is not a real man, a man who has been the best thing that has ever happened to her. She makes her understand that she is a woman, a goddess, as he worships her body, then in the morning she returns to earth, left feeling invisible as usual. She yearns for the night to come where she can be with him and have her fire lit, her passion praised, and her desires met.

“What do I call you?” she questions him one night, as he sits on the floor while she lays on her bed, on her back, as a head drops off the edge of the bed, causing her to look at him upside down, just completely letting the moment take her, causing him to chuckle. “You can call me Cody Matilda,” he replies, as he shrugs his shoulders and causes Matilda to also chuckle. “Cody, you rock my world. I wish you were real, and we could really be together, go out on a date, kiss, kiss in the real world, make love in the real world, hold each other in the real world. I wish you were real; I wish I could really be with you; I wish I can really be yours,” she states, wholeheartedly, as she sits up right and looks him deep in the eyes, where she ends up lost in his emerald gaze.

Chapter 6
Matilda tries her hardest to go back to work and gain some sort of normality back in her life. She arranges the red roses in the vases, getting them ready for a proposal that will happen tomorrow, and she can’t help but wonder whether she will ever get to experience a wedding of her own. Suddenly, the doorbell to the flower shop rings, and in walks Cody, causing Matilda’s head to spin, as she ends up falling to the floor, and losing consciousness.

She wakes to his beautiful, chiselled face that graces her with a warm smile and he strokes her hair as if it is diamonds, admiring every strand. “Can I take her next door for something to drink? She might be dehydrated”, Cody asks Sheila the manager, who nods her head through her shock, shock that is not even in the same family as the shock Matilda is going through, her mind is blown by the fact that Sheila is able to see Cody, can interact with him, CAN SEE HIM, she wonders whether this is just a dream, another thing to wake up from, but he scoops her up in his arms like she is water, walks outside and into the coffee shop next door as she rests her head on his chest where she almost screams at hearing his heart racing. She becomes speechless as he makes her world more a mystery with every second.

He chooses a dark corner in the room where he gently places her on one side of a booth, and he sits on the other side where he meets Matilda’s dumbfounded face. “Matilda, here I am. I am here to be yours, to be in your world, to love you the way a man loves a woman, to hold you and feel your heartbeat, to fall asleep in your arms. I am here to know it all, to feel it all, all with you Matilda,” he explains to a disgruntled Matilda. “How can you be so cruel? How can you play with my emotions? How can you disregard my soul to this extent?” she states wondering how wrong she was about him. “This is real Matilda,” he replies, hurt by how she is not seeing the yearning he has for her. “How is this possible? Are you just going to say this to me and then I wake up the next morning alone, pining for you, for what you promised me, all gone, just waiting for the next time I see you again in my dreams?” she says as her tears flow causing Cody to go to her side of the booth and pull her in for a hug. “I don’t know what I can do to make you believe me, to believe that this is real.

I am here for you the way you were there for me. I wanted to be the one to come to you this time,” he states and causes Matilda to look up at him, finally beginning to come around to the fact that he is here, that this is real, that she has him, she has him in her world. “Please don’t disappear on me,” she begs him, and he places a kiss on her forehead. “I am here,” he replies reassuring her but wishing that he can reassure himself that he will not disappear.

Chapter 7
For the first time Matilda becomes part of normality, her knocking has finally been answered and she is suddenly let into the world of love, the world of relationships, a world she was sure had forgotten to invite her permanently, a world that was beginning to cause her to question her beliefs, whether love even existed or was it invented like father Christmas? Now here she is, walking down the street with the love of her life holding her hand. She can feel his love for her slipping through his grip and imprinting further onto her heart.

She finally understands what other girls feel when they say they are crazy in love, that they can’t see life without their love. She begins to understand all the secrets in this world, a world that felt like her enemy not so long ago. She takes him around her favourite places in the city, where they get lunch at her favourite restaurant, and then she drives him to the lakes, and they go hiking to get to her favourite place in the world, overlooking the lake, as the sun sets.

As they settle down and enjoy the calm, picturesque environment, Cody takes Matilda’s hand and places a kiss on it, causing her to melt further for him. “This moment, I want to bottle it and sell it to every girl, who isn’t me right now,” she states jokingly, causing Cody to chuckle. “I do not think that what we have, can be sold to another. We are one of a kind,” he replies. “Cody, I think, I am losing my mind. I think, I am insane, and you are not making me any better. I need to return to reality and get better. But you are making it hard for me to fight to get back,” she replies still with a smile as she succumbs to her situation and is determined to get as much out of the experience as possible, no matter how short this moment will be.

“You are not crazy Matilda. If anything, I am the crazy one. I have left my world to come to yours and be a man, the man you wished me to be, all because I can’t exist without your touch. I don’t know what is happening to me,” he says with worry as his heart begins to race. “I don’t know how to control these feelings. You control me,” he continues to express himself. “You came to me Cody, you made me fall in love with you, you are in control of me. I find myself lost in your eyes,” she discloses. “We are in unknown territory,” he replies and places a gentle soft kiss on her lips as she closes her eyes to take in every connection from him, not wanting the moment to end. “How are we going to be?” she questions him as he strokes her hair, “Well, firstly we are going to enjoy this sunset,” he replies and kisses her again with passion only he can provide her.

Chapter 8
Cody acts like he’s the person responsible for building Matilda’s body, as he knows the right place to touch, and make her moan with desire for more, to lose herself in the velvety smooth embrace he gives her. Her body quivers as she goes further into his control. He claims her, as her legs widen like two wings on a glorious bird, and Cody takes her to another world, that only he has a key to, and is gracious enough to let her in. Matilda can’t imagine ever being with anyone but Cody, as he has moulded her body to only be the perfect fit for him, and him alone. This terrifies yet excites Matilda, as she is left with the thrill of his existence on her body, but horrified with the thought of losing her existence when he is not there.

“Cody, Cody, please never leave me,” she pleads with him as he devours her body and when he finishes his feast, he holds her in his arms and begins to disclose his reality to her as his heart begins to break. “Matilda, I love you, love you so much,” he states. “I love you,” Matilda replies with a warm smile. “But I am summoned. I have to go. I don’t have a choice,” he says, then places a hand on Matilda’s eyes causing her to go into sleep paralysis.

In Matilda’s world, she is in bed naked, sleeping, with her eyes open, but in his world, she gets off the bed and paces around the room, left in yet another hazy state, while Cody watches her from the bed. “I thought you stopped doing this to me. I thought we could be real and be in the real world, my world. Why are you doing this again?” she questions him as her tears flow, causing Cody to jump off the bed, and be by her side, where he pulls her in his arms close to his chest, he can feel her heart racing. “I must go back. I thought I could stay but I can’t,” he explains to her, then pulls away to look deep into her eyes, so that she can see his soul. “I tried Matilda, I tried to be with you, to be human but my effort was made temporary, I am unable to stay that way,” he states, and she pulls away from him and goes back to bed.

She drops her head on the pillow that no longer feels soft and heavenly but now feels like a hot hard rock, and she stares at the ceiling wondering why she had to be her. Why didn’t she get a love that was human, that she can marry and have children with, and have a normal life, something that others have so easily, normal? “Cody, I can’t go back to not being with you. I love you. I can’t be without you. I will not cope,” she begs him as her tears flow down her temples, while she continues to look at the ceiling.

Suddenly she feels his hand taking hers as he kneels beside the bed, and she turns to look at him. “Marry me. Be mine forever?” he asks her, and she starts to chuckle. “Why are you so cruel? Please stop teasing me,” she replies. “No this is real. All you must do is renounce the world you currently belong to and accept mine, and you will no longer belong anywhere but with me. Please say yes,” he states, shocking Matilda. “You don’t have to end this; you don’t have to leave me. We can be like this forever. All you have to say is ‘Yes’ and I can make it happen. We can be together forever. You want that, I know you do, just say it and I am yours forever,” he says pleading with her. She realises that this means dying in her world, and her body begins to shiver.

Chapter 9
Matilda stares into her lover’s eyes, as they lay on her bed facing each other. He brings out every feeling she always desired from a man, and with him she feels valued, she feels seen, she feels special, she feels loved and these are feelings that she had never had before. She feels like the luckiest woman because she has him, yet she feels like someone placed a curse on her at the same time for her heart to be in turmoil, from the moment he walked into her life.

She thinks about what he is asking her again, and wonders if life will ever live up to being without him. How does she go back to a world that is known to the majority as normality and squeeze herself into it, after receiving a touch by an angel, a dark one to be precise? What sort of heart will she have now with other men after falling for Cody? Is she going to lose her hearing and sight in her world and never really be able to truly see what earth looks like, sounds like, smells like, now that she has experienced beyond the surface? How will she be part of her family, now that she has gone through something that she can never explain with all the words at her disposal? She figures that the words to talk about what happened do not exist yet. Her world as she once knew it, is gone, and she needs to accept it.

However, this did not mean that she was going to give up her home, her body, her mother, her father, her brother forever, she can’t choose permanency, she just couldn’t do it. She couldn’t say goodbye. She couldn’t let go no matter how much she loved Cody, she just couldn’t let go. She slowly places a hand on his cheek and caresses him goodbye. He knows as soon as she touches him, that she does not want to go, she does not want to leave the life he found her in. This brings two feelings to Cody, the first feeling is sorrow overtaking him, that he did not do enough to get her to fully fall in love with him, where all she needs is him. The second feeling is anger that she can choose to desert him. Cody ends up running with his anger and decides to take the decision away from Matilda, where he ends her time on earth, and commits her to his world with him forever. She is, and will always be his. On earth, Matilda’s heart stops beating, as he steals her soul away, and carries her as she sleeps home with him, not letting himself second guess his decision, he can’t let that happen, he just can’t.

Chapter 10
Matilda wakes up in a dark room and a gush of chilly wind shivers her soul. The room she finds herself in, does not seem to have any walls, it is a space, a dark space with a bed. She wonders whether she is outside but when she looks up, she meets more darkness instead of a sky. She does not understand what is happening. Her heart sinks causing her to begin crying, the last time she cried this way was when she was seven and fell at the playground, now here she is at 29 crying the same tears of pain, distress, feeling so small, so scared, so alone. She knew, she knew that something had changed, she felt different inside, like there was a hole in her heart that she knew she was not going to be able to fill, like somehow, she had been stopped from ever filling it and being whole, yet all these feelings she was having did not explain what was happening, or where she was.

The darkness intensifies and then she feels him wrapping his arms around her, and she drops her head on his chest, knowing fully well who it is, and just how much control he has over her. “Cody where am I?” she questions him with a calm tone, but her tears continue to flow. “You are home my love. You are our princess. I have chosen you. It was you from the moment I saw your face as you slept so peacefully, and I was jealous of your dreams. I needed your attention, I needed you then and I need you even more now,” he replies, as she shakes her head, still unsure of what he is saying, but deep down knowing that the worst thing has happened. “I want to go home and see my mom,” she begs him. “You don’t need her, you don’t need anyone, you have me,” he states, causing Matilda’s heart to race. “Cody, I need her. I need my mom,” she cries to him. “You can’t go back home my love. This is your home now, forever. I made the decision for you. I made the right decision because you were going to make the wrong one and I couldn’t let you do that to yourself, to me, to us. We belong together,” he states, as he strokes her cheek and wipes away her tears. “Cody, I was not making the wrong decision. I love you but I am a human and I have a life that is mine, that I need to see through,” she explains to a guilt-ridden Cody, however this feeling is short lived as he shakes his head and remembers his plans and what matters.

“You had, Matilda, had a life, was a human. You do not exist anymore. You need to let it go and focus on the future, the future with me, as my princess, and me your prince, where we will rule this world together as one, and love each other forever. Don’t you see? You get to have what every little girl dreams of, a happily ever after, where the prince rescues you and loves you for ever,” he states, and then drops a kiss on Matilda’s cheek that is wet from tears. Suddenly, he takes her breath away, as he places something on her head, and a mirror appears at the end of the bed. When Matilda looks down at the mirror and sees herself wearing a tiara, it sparkles enough to erase a percentage of pain inside her heart, just for a second, then the pain returns in full throttle, and she struggles to breathe.

Cody wraps his arms around her, and squeezes her tighter than before, she looks at his reflection in the mirror, deep in his emerald eyes, that led to falling in love with him, now, leaving her forever traumatised, with every second she holds his gaze. She feels her energy, her power she was born with, the will she was given, her very soul getting sucked away by him, where he is slowly moulding her into the princess he desires her to be, to feel, to think. Matilda quickly learns that she is truly his and his forever, forever under his control. Is this love?