Essay 2 - LibertasA Story by DavyEssay 2 in a series exploring aspects of my lifeEssay
2 " Libertas Nothing
Happens in Isolation - Seeking Truth Preamble: There is a certain incongruity in starting any story of mine with religion; I am possibly one of the most
irreverent persons under the sun.
However, my life began with the compulsory ‘religious brainwashing’
imposed on children worldwide. No matter
the religion, which part of the world, rich or poor, saints or sinners, parents
insist on the right to ‘educate’ their offspring in the dogma and mythology of
their preferred religion. Children get
no say and no choice. To me, the parental obligation to program
children’s minds, withholds a basic human right " freedom of choice " and is patently wrong. I know the devout would argue differently,
because they are always right,
because they have God on their
side. Might, apparently, is right! If I may use a phrase in the vernacular, such
religious indoctrination is pure bullshit!
Religion: the very word
sends people scurrying to hide from that dreaded knock on the door; conversely
it turns normally rational people into total fanatics. Dictionary.com
interprets the word religion as: ‘a
strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny, [he
lost his faith but not his morality]’.
Or, ‘an institution to express
belief in a divine power, [he was
raised in the Baptist religion]’; [‘a
member of his own faith contradicted him’]
Similarly, Wikipedia sums up religion as: ‘a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature and purpose of the
universe, especially when considered as the creation of a supernatural agency
or agencies, usually involving ritual observances and often containing a moral
code of conduct governing the conduct of human affairs.’ Unfortunately, none of those definitions highlight the fact that
millions of people plainly have their choice of what they might truly wish to
believe, if they were allowed the choice, usurped at a very early age. In none of the above references, or any other
that I have seen, does the word ‘brainwashing’
appear. And yet, that is exactly what
happens to most of us as children. We
are, indoctrinated, in favour of our
parent’s prescribed religious dogma! I have discussed this intentional brainwashing with, ‘devout people’, who in reply, took great joy in piously pointing out that,
‘washing’, is a cleansing
process. Thus, they defend with naive
simplicity, the practice of seizing young hearts and minds for the purpose of
maintaining and expanding their chosen religion! I’m sure the reader doesn’t need examples of
the more extreme elements who apply this callous doctrine in seeking to isolate
their own children from the intellectual world at large. This same childhood ‘brainwashing
process’ started me on a quest of many years; a quest interrupted and
sidetracked by the idiosyncrasies of life, only to be taken up again at some
later date, as my curiosity found quiet moments in which to once again ponder: what the hell is this religion business all
really about? Could the dogma indeed be
‘true’? If so, everyone should surely
believe unreservedly! The following essay will track both my ‘spiritual development’ and its
apparent reasons; ultimately arriving at my own personal ‘logical’ conclusions
based upon much study, deep thought, and sharing of ideas. The journey is a long, meandering one, in
which I retrace a few of the blind avenues and, for me at least, fascinating
events I encountered along the way. I
have never had any mad desire to raze another person’s belief system, nor to
become particularly involved in an unwinnable philosophical stoush. Those who have faith, often retain their
unshakable ideas for deeply psychological reasons. The old adage, ‘blind faith’, is profoundly
rooted in each ‘individual's reality’!
My only purpose in writing this essay, apart from simply documenting my
journey, is to provide the discerning reader with some alternative
considerations they may have missed when thinking about the deeper spiritual
questions that arise in our lives. There
are those, much like myself, who have spent a great deal of time and considerable
mental effort in a genuine, open-minded search, for the meaning of an
encompassing reality in an empirical sense; most of those personal quests sadly
remain undocumented. The history of the uniquely human search for more than an ‘individual reality’ is as extensive as
the existence of the human intellect! My
suspicion is, even when the scientific
answers are eventually forthcoming, there will still be those who will
continue the fruitless spiritual
search, in the hope of supporting their own blind faith and unqualified
superstitious demands! Meanwhile, I will have added my ‘two-bob’s worth’, one man’s
conclusions, to the ever-growing pile of human thoughts that litter the table
of dreams regarding the 'true nature of
spiritual reality'. Now
the eye of man can see light waves with lengths between four-hundred and seven- hundred nanometers long. But man will be bat-blind to other EM
(electromagnetic) waves. And since visible light constitutes a
tiny band of the electromagnetic spectrum, man will be mostly blind. But man
will think that what he sees is all that can be seen. Man's perception will be small. (Jupiter Scientific, 1997,
p. 225) Background - Ancient History: Born on December 29th, 1944, towards the end of World War II,
I was delivered into a Great Britain that viewed religion differently than the
less influential Britain of today.
Whilst there were Protestant and Catholic churches, plus their diverse
branches, there was little or nothing of the more exotic, cultish, Eastern,
American or other religions. Great
Britain was traditional in just about every sense of the word! Six
days shalt thou labour, but on the seventh day you shall rest; even during the
ploughing season and harvest you must rest: Exodus 34:21s That Old Testament doctrine was adhered to in varying degrees by the
majority of the British population.
Shops opened five and a half days a week, closing at mid-day on Saturday
and not reopening until Monday morning, the start of a new working week. Public houses kept ‘Sunday hours’ and radio programs delivered church services at
correspondingly appropriate times of the day.
Sunday was truly the day of
rest; the day the virtuous attended church.
Those not so morally or spiritually inclined, slept in and enjoyed a
leisurely traditional heathen fry-up breakfast of bacon, eggs and fried
bread. Our Sunday dinner at home was always around 13:00 hrs; the ritual
preparation for dinner began around 10:30 hrs.
A listening audience of 16 million people would tune their old valve
radios into the BBC, to listen to the regular Sunday program, Two-Way Family Favourites. That program linked those servicemen and women still serving in war
shattered Germany to their friends and families at home in a similarly ruined
Great Britain. The social values of
those days are reflected in the following quote from an article about the
far-off popular BBC radio program: “After
the war, the BBC determined to raise the moral tone of Family Favourites... Mention of fiancées and girl friends was
declared taboo; there was to be no banter, and noisy jazz was forbidden on
Sundays.” (Radio Days) As lunchtime neared, the mouth-watering aroma of roast dinners became
ever more pervasive. The virtuous
returned from their spiritual devotions, while the less devout finished reading
the Sunday papers. In our house the
Sunday newspaper of choice was, ‘The News of the World’ (colloquially the News
of the Screws). With church over and news read, the mouth-watering roast dinner was
served. That weekly ritual was repeated
in homes throughout the length and breadth of the land. Dinner over and cleared away, a lazy
afternoon listening to the radio, a walk, or even an hour in the veggie garden
ensued. The whole weekend’s affairs were
the result of deeply ingrained religious dogma regardless of individual
beliefs! In post World War II Britain,
religion and patriotism reigned supreme! Almost without exception, children are to this day, brought up in their
parents’ religion(s); hatched, matched and dispatched by the same religious company, ad infinitum! Naturally, complications arise! Being human, we cannot avoid obstacles that
spill over or become incorporated into our religious or spiritual beliefs. Catholics fall in love with Protestants,
Baptists with Anglicans and Jews with Gentiles!
Mostly, we overcome such marginal problems on life’s bumpy journey. One partner may opt to adopt the other’s
belief system. Others may simply choose
to become non-practicing. Even those who
‘drop’ attendance at a church, nevertheless, make a decision regarding the
spiritual and moral education of their children! The partner who expresses the least
resistance will more likely defer to the wishes of the more dominant partner. Thus the indoctrination cycle is
re-established in favour of the primary controlling religious dogma; that which
usually exercised the strongest influence over the parent(s). The Congregational Church has existed in one form or another in Wales
and elsewhere, for centuries. It is a
Protestant offshoot with a Puritan or Calvinist ethos, in other words, a very
strict flock of people, with unshakable religious and moral values. Born late in the 19th century, my
Welsh granny, Maggie Paul (Widow Jones), was a committed Congregationalist, who
was responsible for the upkeep of the local village chapel. Accordingly, my father, William
Morgan Cornelius Jones (29/12/1917-24/11/1985, aka Taffy, Connie or just
Con), was raised in a seriously God-fearing manner. Part of his righteous upbringing was spent on
hands and bare young bony knees, not praying, but scrubbing and cleaning the cold,
stone paved, chapel aisle! Maggie Paul, the family matriarch, also had a reputation as the local
village clairvoyant; it being said she had a ‘sixth sense’ and could foretell when disaster was about to strike
the local colliery. To me there seemed an incongruity between the strict Congregationalism
and the more primitive heathen beliefs in the ability to foretell the
future. Mining was always a dangerous
profession; mining disasters were nothing out of the ordinary in the 1800s and
early 1900s. My blood grandfather, one Hugh Morris Jones, of who I know
nothing, was apparently killed in such a pit accident. Life in the small Rhondda Valley mining
village of Blaenrhondda, a district of Treherbert, thus revolved around
the local collieries. Christian religion
and even older, Celtic Druid superstitions were the foundations of local society. Incidentally, one of Maggie Paul’s other regular duties was the
traditional, lying out of the dead. Being brought up in such an austere
environment must have had a huge impact on my father’s very insular and personal
view of world reality! At the age of 13, circa 1931, Dad went to work at the local Ferndale
Colliery site; he worked as my step-grandfather’s ‘boy’, earning 6d (sixpence) a week. Eddie
Paul, my step-grandfather, was a bit of a mystery. I know he was a Somerset man, hailing from
the country town of Crewkerne. A
one-time merchant seaman/stoker on coal-fired ships, he somehow ended up as a
coal miner in South Wales. It was there
he married my widowed Welsh grandmother.
Ed had his own daughters, Gladys and Jeanette, plus his own life story, of which I knew very
little. The following link may provide a
clue to why Eddie ended up working in Wales. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ferndale_Colliery
*(There was an apparent exodus of miners
from England to Wales at this period as men sought work.) Each week, after crawling about in the pitch-dark, airless bowels of the
earth, Dad was relieved of his hard-earned silver 6d by his mother,
who insisted she ‘saved his money for
him’. Many times over the years Dad
recalled contemptuously how he never saw a penny of that hard-earned money ever
again, once his mother had relieved him of it!
The collieries of those days were, as noted above, extraordinarily
dangerous places. Hellish tunnels hewn
by pick and shovel and supported only by stout softwood pit props; a maze of
totally black and dusty crawl-ways in which canaries were used to test the air
quality in case of dangerous pockets of methane; colloquially known as ‘fire damp’. Half-blind pit ponies hauled up to 30 tons of newly mined, best quality
Welsh coal, daily from the deepest coalface to the endlessly turning
pitheads. Those ponies spent most of
their life underground, only coming to the surface at annual holiday
times. They naturally suffered all the
resulting ailments of sunlight deprivation!
At least at shift’s end, the luxury of a tin bath in front of a coal
fire, awaited the grubby, black-faced, bone-tired human miners. I stress such points to accentuate how times and cultures have changed;
also how individual realities are formed against such rapidly shifting, yet
interacting environments! Try placing
yourself mentally, at least, in a similar situation. As regards his ‘childhood’, Dad often spoke of his, ‘fun times’,
wandering the Welsh hills and generally getting up to youthful mischief. A favourite tale, often retold, was that of
the haunted farmhouse the family once occupied.
Dad would recall how, lying on the paved flags in front of a roaring
coal fire, reading comics, the thick oak doors would unaccountably creak
open. One dark and stormy night (it has to be a dark and stormy night); Eddie
Paul had a need to go outside to the barn.
Returning a short time later, he was pale and visibly shaken. Thereafter, he refused to go to the barn
after dark. Again elements of deeper
superstition enter the story, and the fear of death and the dead is accentuated. Eddie refused to speak of what had occurred;
but the story recalled how a previous tenant farmer had committed suicide by
lynching himself in that same barn. The
story was always left hanging at that
point for the listeners to draw their own conclusions: pun, fully intended. These next few paragraphs are mainly conjecture. The only person who could verify the facts is
long dead. Herein lies a lesson; either
talk to your family or attempt to write a few things down before you or they
depart this troubled realm. Family rumour suggested that Dad had some early inclinations to become a
lay-preacher within the Congregational Church.
One can quite imagine with such a pious upbringing, the rumours might
well have had some foundation. Then at
the age of about 20 years, his world changed almost overnight; he faced his greatest
unsought-after challenge, the declaration of World War II. I think there must have been some notion of
impending trouble, because I know my father had joined the Territorial Army
(TA) prior to the outbreak of war. Being
in the TA might have been an attempt to avoid conscription for the real deal. However, I can't confirm that now.
The advent of war probably presented serious moral challenges and
possibly life-changing predicaments. There was also another side to
the story because without doubt,
World War II also opened the doors to the wider world for those whose quiet
routine, parochial lives would otherwise have remained untouched and unspoiled
by the world at large. In the Welsh
miner’s case, that world was quite plainly powered by his labour. In reality it
was a world of which the Welsh miner knew very little; nor the world of him and
his kind. How my father justified
becoming a soldier and going off to war
to fight for his country, only he could answer.
I suspect that the naive young men of that period were primed by media
and political propaganda to become cannon fodder. They were pumped full of patriotic and
nationalistic crap. On the other hand,
there’s little doubt that Hitler himself was a ‘weapon of mass destruction’, a mass assassin, who had to be dealt
with one way or another. I have no hesitation
in saying the Second World War changed my father irrevocably. He became a man he never would have been if
his life had been left untouched by six years of such horrific and bloody
trauma. So saying, the same applies to all people throughout history who undergo similar traumatic events at some stage in their short lives? During the war years, Dad met Mum and love blossomed. He miraculously survived the war and was finally demobbed, returning home deaf in one ear, a physically damaged and mentally tormented soul; but luckily not as damaged as some. On December 29th, 1944, I was born in Sussex; whilst Dad was having his birthday and fighting remnants of
the German army in Holland. From Sussex,
Mum and I moved to the small Devonshire seaside town of Sidmouth. The details of the move from my birthplace in
Sussex to Devon are unknown to me; but I do know my Welsh Granny, had moved to
Sidmouth to be installed as the caretaker of the local Sidmouth Congregational Church.
A small terraced cottage, situated in the town centre, No. 5 Mill
Street, was owned by the Congregational Church.
Therefore, I presume family arrangements had been made on the Welsh
side, with strings being pulled, to make sure Mum and Dad had somewhere to call
home sweet home. Sidmouth, a deeply class-conscious, conservative and often duplicitous
Devonshire town, henceforth moulded my life and subsequent 'spiritual'
development. Life is strange; that’s an
understatement! Dad and I were never
really close, unlike Dad’s relationship with my sister, four and a half years my
junior. I always thought that was
because we hadn’t bonded as father and son, on account of him being away
soldiering when I was born. Mum and I on
the other hand were as close as a mother and son could be. In spite of that closeness, I probably knew
less of her moral and religious upbringing than I did of Dad’s. In many ways, Mum was very typical of the females
of her time. She didn’t actually have an
opinion of her own; any opinions she
expressed were sad hollow echoes of my father’s domineering philosophies, be
they religious, political, moral, social or simply general opinions about the
folks next door! Mum (25/01/1922-22/10/2002), was a child of the slums around Portslade,
near Brighton in Sussex. During her
childhood, she was struck down with TB hip (see tuberculosis). Simply having such a disease was a sad reflection
of the times and dreadful conditions in which people were then forced to
exist. According to Mum, she spent most
of her childhood in hospital. At some
point her parents were told she was permanently crippled and would never walk: Ever!
From the little I have read on the subject of TB related illnesses,
which mainly affect third world countries these days, are of several types,
each with its own set of symptoms.
Because Mum had her hips locked together, with what she described as ‘a silver plate’, I can only assume her
disease was degenerative in nature. I can summarise Mum’s early life in a word; hell. Unlike Dad, who had
one elder brother called George, and step-sisters Gladys
and Jeanette; Mum was the
youngest of a family of eight, including one sister, Dorothy, who died in her
prime. Her mother Emma, my Granny
Muggeridge, was the long-suffering wife of a drunken oaf, who indulged in
regular rounds of inebriated domestic violence.
It wouldn’t be drawing a long bow if one described the family’s early
life as Dickensian! For a living, the alcoholic, Grand-dad Muggeridge, drove horse-drawn
buses along Brighton seafront. He was
reputed to have received much of his weekly income in whiskey, leaving little
or nothing for food and rent for his large destitute family. Again, one can only imagine the many hungry and fear-filled nights spent
in the Muggeridge household. If religion
featured at all it was because, apart from God, there was no one else, except
the Salvation Army, to lend a hand! The
Army’s mission statement being: ‘to perform evangelical, social and
charitable work and bring the Christian message to the poor, destitute and
hungry by meeting both their physical and spiritual needs’. A mission statement designed exactly with the
Muggeridge family in mind. As it turned
out, just about all my aunts on Mum’s side of the family eventually became
affiliated in one way or another to the Salvation Army. On finally leaving hospital, Mum, then a child of about nine years old,
set about proving the doctors wrong.
With the aid of an old wicker wheelchair, she learned to drag herself
around the slums of West Street, Portslade, walking from the knees down
only. She grew to adulthood, and as I
remarked above, met my father, married and started a normal family life. That ‘family life’, beginning as a war-time evacuee, was spent far from her own
family support network. Very often
people such as my mother, incorrectly I believe, are described as ‘stoic’.
To be stoic, is to exhibit an
(outward) indifference to pleasure or pain.
Mother did neither of those things; she did however, bear her physical disabilities
with amazing grace and fortitude. Mum’s
favourite saying was: no matter how bad
you think you are son, there’s always someone worse off! Mum was a quiet realist, who took a lot of
verbal ridicule from other people, both young and old, because of the odd way
she ‘walked’ or shuffled. Her childhood disease had left her not only walking from the knees, but
also with an exaggerate scoliosis of the spine; making her appear strangely
misshapen. Forced to wear a torturous steel-ribbed
support corset; she grew up learning how to disguise
her constant physical pain and true inner feelings. When that emotional dam occasionally burst,
as her son, I became ‘her shoulder to cry
on’. The loneliness of living far
from her own family, who still resided in Sussex, and the ‘pain of just living’, often resulted in many secretly spilt tears;
her loneliness was palpable. Whilst my
father was a wonderful man, he too was a man of the times. His sympathies didn’t really extend to the
homesick tears of ’his missus’. The same rule applied to other familial
roles. His role was man of the house, the breadwinner; a role in which he excelled. Mother’s role was to manage the children, the
finances and the house, in spite of her physical disabilities. On pay day the brown pay envelope appeared on the kitchen table and Mum
was ‘given’ the house keeping money as assumed to be sufficient, by my
father. Mum was always too afraid to ask
for more, in spite of the fact she often didn’t have enough money to cover the
weekly bills. Her task was to ‘make it do’. Perhaps there are still men with that sort of
attitude, but I recall, even at a young age, I resolved I’d never, ‘be like that with my wife when I grew up’. Brainwashing
- to build a myth It was from that strange human amalgam: the domineering, war-damaged
Welshman and the subservient, but brave, uncomplaining crippled lady from the
Portslade slums, that my ‘religious and spiritual roots’ were first formed. Those roots were then continually nourished
and reinforced throughout my formative years.
We moved house from 5 Mill Street to a council estate, 102 Manstone
Avenue, when my sister was born, around 1948.
When I was deemed old enough I was packed off to the local Sunday school
to undertake my first formal, age appropriate, religious instruction. I would then have been aged about six or
seven years old. The local Sunday school
was held in, ‘Emmanuel’s Church’, a Baptist organisation. They describe themselves today as, ‘Affiliated to the Fellowship of Independent
Evangelical Churches’. Staffed by a
very dedicated and lovely volunteer group of people; the corrugated roofed
building in which the Church and Sunday school was housed was in fact a converted
cowshed. We children named it, ‘The Tin Tabernacle’, quite fitting
under the circumstances. The religious
instruction wasn’t exactly ‘fire and
brimstone’, but the objectives were nevertheless to inculcate the Baptist dogma into its juvenile initiates.
“Jesus
Loves the Little Children, All the Children of the World, Red and Yellow, Black
and White, All are precious in His sight, Jesus loves the little children of
the world.” No doubt the evangelical religious philosophy loosely fitted in with my
parent's very diverse religious upbringings.
Dad, by that time, seemed quite disillusioned with religion and the
two-faced religious bigots we knew on his side of the family. Mum, as usual, had adopted Dad’s jaded views on religion, but
nevertheless still retained her love of the (Sallies) Salvation Army. I suspect my father's initial loss of faith
was directly related to his horrific wartime experiences. Whilst the verbal emphasis at home was
always: We are C of E (Church of
England), my parents didn’t exactly express any serious desire to attend
‘formal church’, C of E church services themselves, nor to have their children
do so. My parent’s general attitude, as
far as I recall, was always that there were: ‘more hypocrites and bigots inside the church than outside of it’. Those words I recall quite clearly! Over the years I gathered more and more that my parent’s cynical
attitude was tied closely to my Welsh Granny, the (Sidmouth) Congregational
Church, and Eddie Paul; whose religious views were increasingly seen as highly
questionable by my father. The mixed
messages raised doubts in my young mind as to how seriously one should really
take religion. Of course, adults never seem to consider that mere children would have
opinions or thoughts about such esoteric subjects, even though they insisted
those same children attend formal religious instruction. And yet, the religious messages being fed to
us at Sunday school were unquestionably
genuine! The parables and Biblical
stories were told and retold with indisputable gusto. Adam and Eve were real people and miracles were
real events. The Holy Bible was: The
Word of God! The fables, the moralising, the hymns, the seasonal messages of Easter,
Christmas, and Harvest Festival, were all crystal clear. God was
real! He was: The Creator! It was, He, who watched our every move and knew our every
indiscretion. It was Him to whom we would one day all be
accountable. It was He to whom we must mumble skywards, hands clasped in reverential
prayer. It was He we should, above all else: FEAR! Satan, Lucifer, The Devil, was
likewise portrayed as an equally real, even if spiritual, entity. Everlasting hellfire and damnation in the
sulphuric stench of Hell awaited those non-compliant souls who decided to
reject the truthful path to salvation. There’s a certain incongruity when talking about TRUTH in relation to
RELIGION! Confusion abounded in our young minds as we dear ignorant children,
discovered that ‘one person’ was in fact
three different characters: Father, Son
and Holy Ghost! The choices were
made abundantly clear. Sin and you were
eternally damned! FEAR: PARANOIA:
INSECURITY: GUILT and BRAINWASHING: the repetitious and destructive tools of all religions, and coincidentally, all
despots and dictators. On Sundays at home, the radio then later the TV always relayed ‘church’
and religion into our living room. Mum
enjoyed the hymn singing and often joined in with familiar hymns being
broadcast, particularly if the Sallies
happened to feature. Dad always seemed
content to listen, provided it wasn’t what he called, high church! And so, for
years, the mixed messages continually prevailed. As I have indicated, my Welsh granny was by the later 1940s and early
1950s installed as the caretaker for the Sidmouth Congregational Church; my
step grandfather, in semi-retirement, assisted with the heavier chores around
the church. We never joined the
Congregationalists at worship in their church.
That, to me at least, reinforced that all was not in common agreement between
my father and his parents. My
grandparent’s close association with the Congregational Church seemed the basis
of Dad’s pre-occupation with the bigotry that existed within all religious
organisations. Dark criticism was often levelled at my step-grandfather, who, when he
thought no one was around, was known to smoke a pipe in and around the confines
of the church, (a cardinal sin
apparently). As if smoking wasn’t a
big enough sin, I later discovered the ‘old
man’ wasn’t averse to a little philandering, if and when the opportunity arose. In later life, he was confirmed as having a long time lover, one Miss White. I
thought: ‘what a strange name for a
scarlet woman.’ There is often more to life than childhood innocence can cope with; the
adult world has difficulty hiding its ugliness as developing human intellect
fumbles blindly toward maturity. As
years passed, so the apparent realities
of life became increasingly difficult to understand. If sin was so bad: if sin earned such terrible punishments: if guilt
itself was so destructive: why then
did so many adults indulge in such eternally self-destructive and lethal
behaviour? Clearly, all was not well
with the world, and all was not being revealed in a truthful manner. Why, when truth and light were so virtuous, yet the wages of sin were death,
was this so? Who was I, a simple child,
to be concerned with such questions? Why
was I, a mere child, being lied to by adults who should know better? St Nicholas Parochial C of E Junior School also played its part in my
‘spiritual development’. Today, St
Nicholas School, whilst situated in a different part of town, is still in
existence. The school now advises that
it has a Year 4 Religious Education teacher.
I can’t remember having religious instruction whilst in Junior School; I
do however remember observing certain religious proceedings. For those more notable events, Christmas,
Easter and so on, we would line up crocodile fashion and stride merrily off to
walk the quarter mile or so to the ancient Sidmouth Parish Church. The Parish Church had served the local community since the Norman times,
circa 1100, and had the air of a place that could no doubt tell many stories. That was my introduction to the ‘real church’! I marvelled at the high-vaulted ceilings, the
glorious echoes of hymns or Christmas carols as their strains floated skyward
to Heaven and God’s illustrious ears.
God must have ears, he made man in his own image and man has ears! Sing loudly, praise the Lord for He is
mighty! The vicar’s voice boomed
righteously from the pulpit, delivering yet another impressive message of religious truth; or more rightly, religious
dogma! All those accepted holy concepts, honed, polished, repeated incessantly;
sent to pound my youthful senses into compliancy and shaping my mental
impression of the reality of the
natural world surrounding me. Religion
did provide a mental sanctuary in some respects. At night, before going to sleep, one could
pray to God, quietly muttering away to ask for things. One could make frivolous requests, and feel mildly guilty for doing
so. In the process, I self-reinforced the idea that there
actually was a spiritual being that looked
over me at night and really cared whether or not I slept safely through the
night. You might not be able to ask Mum
or Dad for certain things, but you could always ask God for whatever you
liked! It didn’t pass my notice that I
never actually received the requested goodies!
The guilt aspect was also surreptitiously applied by parents, nothing
too obvious, just a gentle reminder now and then that it was wrong to tell
fibs, even small white ones. It was
wrong to steal and wrong to want what someone else had (covet). God was watching your every move and
recording your deeds and misdeeds in a large book, to be used on, The Day of Judgment! Wicked people would fry in Hell for all eternity and the meek, good compliant folks,
would live forever amongst the clouds with the angels and other ‘good
souls’. I wondered how those souls sat on the clouds without falling through! Was there enough room for thousands of
years-worth of departed souls? Hell must
be a very sweaty place indeed; bulging full of all those wicked buggers who
hadn't passed muster. The Meek would, by right, inherit the earth! All those ideas, sayings, and covert messages
were woven into the very fabric of our everyday life! But, there was a certain proviso: you had to belong to the ‘right mob’. There was only one true religion! Questions relating to the legitimacy of such statements were defended
with stock adult answers. Might was
always right: because I said so, I am an
adult therefore what I say must be right and must be believed, and complied
with! But which was the true
religion? What chance does a child have
against such overwhelming odds? And yet
eventually nothing impedes the truly enquiring mind. With maturity the questions just become more
pressing. To me ‘truth’ mattered, whatever the ‘truth’
might be. Thus I slowly matured, mumbling doubtfully yet dutifully, at the sky on
the road to adulthood. In times of deep
despair I mumbled more passionately; still without reward or even mild relief. My one small, muted human voice went unheard
amongst the multitude of requests clogging the lines to God’s Department of
Miracles. I wondered why, day after day,
unbelievable human slaughter occurred around the world? Storms, floods, earthquakes, famine and
disease killed millions of innocents.
They must be heathens, of course, that was the only answer. They didn’t belong to the right mob! War followed war; big wars, little wars, and terrorism. Murder and chaos were the natural order of the
world. But God in His wisdom looked over
all and wrote blotchy notes with a feathered quill in His Big Book for, The Day of Judgment! Mankind had God-given choice over his own
decisions! The atom bomb was tested and
retested, threatening our lives; the very existence of humanity and every
living thing. The Cold War felt very hot to us. In God we must
trust! (You certainly wouldn’t trust
humans) Sylvia Beer’s youngest sister, chasing behind the Coop soft-drink
delivery lorry, slipped. The lorry’s big
black evil tyres ran over her tiny, fragile blonde head. She was dead with a squashed skull! We children teased Sylvia, who like her
sister was blonde, spindly thin, and always had a runny nose. Even as a child, I felt guilty for doing so;
I knew teasing was cruel. Why did God, in His mercy, decide the f*****g drink
lorry should run over an innocent little girl’s head and end her miserably
short life? I didn’t even know her first
name! That must be a grown-up’s problem.
I certainly didn’t understand it! Retrospectively, that terrible accident was perhaps my first experience
of how the death of one small person can have a much greater personal impact
than the deaths of millions of people in far off places! Was religion supposed to help children make
sense of life? If it was, it failed miserably. Religion raised more questions than it
answered. Religion caused me profound
personal confusion. Without that burden
I might have made more sense of the dark realities that surrounded me. Adults seemed impervious to many such
dramatic events; they simply accepted the things they could not change. They muttered at the sky and wiped away the
tears, then carried on as if nothing had happened. Religion added an unnecessary false layer of
complexity to my daily life. It stunted
any form of true self-discovery; yet religion was always there, day after day,
year after year. The unremitting religious ceremonies of baptism, marriage, death, Christmas, Easter, and Lent; year after year; the same bullshit messages, dished out by dutiful creatures in stiff white dog
collars. The brainwashing reiteration of
tired messages eagerly soaked up by lost ignorant souls, who knew no other
answers. Those lost sheep; congregations
who continually awaited their regular dose of unquestioned and incontestable
spiritual motivation. A growing awareness of life and death comes to all children; in this, I
was no exception. I had a female cat;
she was expecting kittens. As a family,
we all looked forward to that event. The
cat disappeared. She died giving birth to
her kittens over at Churchill’s farm across the hedgerow. I cried.
The 1950s like every other period had its notable deaths and millions
more besides. The Korean War, a world away, began in 1950. King George died in 1952 and the whole
country mourned. Solemn radio broadcasts
reverberated across the world. George
Bernard Shaw breathed his last in 1950; and the murderous Joseph Stalin in
1953. The Mau-Mau terrorists in Kenya
slaughtered and mutilated all before them.
All those historical names and events meant little or nothing to me at
that time. Albert Einstein passed away
in 1955. His significant scientific
achievements mildly aroused my curiosity; or perhaps it was just his mad
professor appearance. Mum didn’t
understand who he was, or his significance to humanity. She knew he was German and had
something to do with the atom bomb! Well, she was nearly right! James Dean died in 1955, his name forever
glorified by Hollywood. I was 10 years
old; his death interested me for a short while.
Mum just tut-tutted and shook her head.
What was the younger generation coming to? Greater than all of those events, the constant bombardment of radio and
TV news relating to nuclear bomb testing and anti-nuclear bomb protests
overshadowed all our lives! CND (the Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament) was
born, and the general population became acutely aware of the potential for
complete annihilation in a wholesale nuclear war. The Civil Defence movement was created by the
government; animated films depicting the effects of nuclear detonations drove
home the terrible possibilities. Our daily free school milk, the ritual one third of a pint, was
suspended as the airborne strontium 90 released from world-wide nuclear air
testing sites polluted the atmosphere.
Cows ingested the nuclear waste and the deadly airborne contamination
entered the food chain. How many died as
a result of cancers caused by that government sanctioned polluted historical
period, is anyone’s guess. The Space Race began about 1955; it sort of spoilt the heavenly illusion in a way. God’s territory invaded. Sputnik, 1957: Telstars 1 & 2, 1962-63;
look out all you guys up there sitting on clouds! All sorts of vehicles were being fired into
space but not one of them bumped into God!
Religious communities started to get a bit edgy about the whole idea of
humans going into space. What if
intelligent life was found out there?
That would complicate things dreadfully!
What if they had a different
version of creation? What if they didn’t have a god? More to the point, what if Earth’s religions
were proved wrong? So many ethical questions, the biggest surely
being that the Christian church, for 2000 years, had pushed a specific message. According to most religions, the Earth is a
special place in the universe, created solely for special beings, which were given dominion
over all. That (human) being, according to the church, was
created in the image of God, Himself. If life of any kind existed elsewhere in the universe, what then would
be special about the Earth or its special inhabitants? Exposure to such stark realities was well
outside the Church’s experience.
Severely challenged, the church and religious movements generally, were
dragged kicking and screaming into the modern age. Technology, science, and religion embarked on
a new journey. See: http://www.asa3.org/ASA/PSCF/1967/JASA6-67Johnson.html The enclosed link provides some thoughtful insights and also highlights
the continuing angst felt by those who believed in a spiritual world or a holy
realm. `I'm
going to 'ave a prize next Sunday at our Sunday School,' said Elsie as they
were leaving. ‘What are you going to
get it for?' asked Nora. `'Cause I learned my text properly. I had to learn the whole of the first chapter
of Matthew by heart and I never made one single mistake! So teacher said she'd
give me a nice book next Sunday.' `Ain't
you never been?' said Charley in a tone of surprise. `No,' replied Frankie. `Dad says I have
quite enough of school all the week.' `You ought to come to ours, man!' urged
Charley. `It's not like being in school at all!
And we 'as a treat in the summer, and prizes and sometimes a magic
lantern 'tainment. It ain't 'arf all right, I can tell you.' Frankie looked inquiringly at his
mother. `Might I go, Mum?' `Yes, if you like, dear.' `But I don't know the way.' `Oh, it's not far from 'ere,' cried Charley.
`We 'as to pass by your 'ouse when we're goin', so I'll call for you on Sunday
if you like.' Ragged Trousered Philanthropist Robert Tressell " published 23 April 1914 --- eBook as free download; a recommended read. I parted ways with Emmanuel’s Sunday school at about the age of 13
years. I'd spent the best part of my
young life up until then attending the, Tin
Tabernacle, on Sundays; so leaving was quite a significant occasion. The story of the parting of the ways is worth
recollecting here as it highlights my personality, even at that young age. The Parkers, a family of five boys and Mr and Mrs, had lived next door
to us in Manstone Avenue for several years.
Ken Parker was a month older than me and his younger brother, Jeff, a
year or two younger again. It was Ken
and Jeff I mainly associated with, them being my peers. Ken and Jeff were irritating buggers who
would feed off one another once a little stealthy bullying got underway. I had put up with that type of sneaky
harassment at Sunday school for a few weeks and was starting to get just a little annoyed with the constant aggravation. That last day at Sunday school was no
exception. The bullying had taken the
form of rib poking and sneaky punches, delivered from the left and right when
our heads were bowed in worshipful prayer.
The whole congregation, being in a bowed attitude, ensured no
witnesses. I had put up with as much as
I was going to take and had planned my course of action. As our heads went down and the mumbling
increased, the poking and punching started.
My strategy was simple. I sat
bolt upright, grabbed a handful of hair to the left and to the right and
swiftly brought the two offending heads together. BANG - OUCH! Two surprised Parkers yelled in unison. Wonderful: sheer elation on my part. Whilst
there were no witnesses, there were plenty who’d heard the crash of skulls,
bone on bone, and the surprised yells of pain and utter indignation. We always had a short break halfway through Sunday school services. Usually we younger people were allowed to nip
outside to play and get some air. That
day, the Parkers and I were not allowed out.
Furthermore, we were informed, we would be kept in after Sunday school
as punishment. My sense of righteous indignation
knew no bounds. All, however, was not
lost. My brain went into overdrive. On one side of the church there were double
doors, hidden behind heavy red velvet curtains.
The doors were tightly bolted and rarely used. During the break, while no one was looking, I
sneaked behind the curtains and released the double bolted doors. Leaving the doors closed but still unbolted,
I returned to mingle with the others. Conspiratorially,
I whispered to the Parker brothers: ‘When the service is finished, we’ll make a break for the front door. When I shout 'go', run for the exit and we'll get out.’ My plan worked like a charm. The
service finished. I yelled, and the
Parker brothers ran for the main exit door.
The Sunday school teachers, expecting such a move, rushed to head them
off. While all that was happening, I
disappeared behind the curtains and let myself out the side doors. Once out, I legged it for home, where I
thought I'd cop it for causing mischief.
As it turned out, I told my story truthfully and was surprised to find my
parents not only believed me, but were content for me not to return to Sunday
school. You could have knocked me down with
a feather. One of the Sunday school teachers lived just five doors away. His name was Mr. Macey. He wasn't a bad old guy. He and his wife had adopted a little girl,
Veronica, who was an occasional playmate out on the street. I think he must have known of the bullying
and silently approved of my action. A
few weeks after my disgraceful departure, an anonymous parcel, I've always suspected
came from that neighbour, arrived at our house.
Inside the parcel was a very expensive looking 'zippered' Bible. Inside the Bible were a note and two references: To
David Jones: from a friend with an earnest prayer that this Word of God may be
to him a real lamp on his path. March
1958 Acts
13:22 … And when He had removed him, He raised up for them David as king, to
whom also He gave testimony and said, ‘I
have found David the son
of Jesse, a man after My own heart, who will do all My will. John
3:16 …For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever
believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. I still have that same Bible to this day, some 60 odd years later. Apart from a broken zip, it is still in remarkably
good order. Secondary Modern School (High school) was generally a religion free
zone. We did have meaningless ‘Morning
Prayer’, usually accompanied by much back of the knee nudging, poking and
coughing. After the usual hymn and the
obligatory parable of some sort, Toby
Greenslade, our headmaster, would conclude morning prayers with that
unforgettable phrase: Lettuce Spray
(sic). That phrase was always the cue
for muted giggles, heads down, a quick morning mumble and off to study for the
day. With the arrival of 1959, I finally escaped the drudgery of weekday academic
study and took the first steps on the path to adulthood and
self-sufficiency. In December of that
year, a couple of weeks before my 15th birthday, I left Woolbrook
Secondary Modern and started work as an apprentice plumber… Growing Doubts: It has taken a while to get to this point, but without laying the
groundwork and background, the whole picture cannot be appreciated in context. What, if anything, had my most ethical upbringing gained me? In fairness, I did have a strong moral sense
of right and wrong. But, would I have had
a similar attitude without religious brainwashing? I also had a sense of fairness and could be empathetic to anyone's point
of view, even if it was detrimental to me.
By that, I mean I was very green and easily hoodwinked. If someone had a sob story, I'd give them the
benefit of the doubt. Did that have
anything to do with my 'religious' upbringing? I doubt it.
I knew it was wrong to steal, and have never been able to steal with a
clear conscience. Does that mean I've
never stolen; no, of course not. Some of the environments I've worked in, ‘theft’ was an accepted part of the
scene. I'm not talking massive theft,
but rather the use of gear that happened to be ‘left over’ at work, which would
end up changing ownership. Because
everyone did it, I saw nothing wrong with the occasional ‘permanent loan’. Overall, I think my parent's example(s) had more to do with my attitude
at that point in my life; that and the general attitudes of my own
peer-group. My overall personality, often over the years described as stoic, had more to do with my emerging
character. I have discussed the misuse
of the word 'stoic' earlier and have
always found it strange that the same word had been misapplied to both my Mother
and me. It was also obvious, even at that early point, my trait of: not suffering fools gladly, was already
noticeable. I had and have always had an
inclination to call a spade a spade and a lazy b*****d, a lazy b*****d. However, I
can't see how religion had anything to do with that attitude either. Did I believe in God or even 'A God'?
I didn't know, and remained
confused for a long time on that issue.
I certainly didn't believe some hairy-faced bloke was staring down at me
from on high and recording my every move.
Did I believe I should belong to a church? No!
Did I have any regrets about severing my ties with the Tin
Tabernacle? No; in fact I gave the whole
episode of Sunday school little or no thought ever again. I did occasionally think about the good times, Sunday school outings and
prize-giving. I also had a small foreign
coin collection, given to me by Mr. Halse, one of my Sunday school teachers in
the older group. I still have most of
that collection to this day. Did I hold
any great respect for religion or the religious? Definitely not! But that was surely more to do with my
parent's attitudes towards religious narrow-mindedness, than anything I'd
learned at Sunday school. Did I believe
in ghosts or the spirit world? At that
time I was unsure, but I did hold an inner apprehension of the unknown, for no other reason than I had
been raised with the view that there was
life after death! Embarking on life's journey, my mind was more immediately concerned with
starting that journey than any real spiritual ‘other world’ concerns. And so my teenage years were passed in a
similar way to many others, fighting with my own insecurities and raging teenage
hormones and establishing myself in the rude, crude adult world. The words: agnostic and atheist
cropped up a few times in my youth. I
often wondered what they meant. Agnostic:
A person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or
nature of God or of anything beyond material phenomena; a person who claims
neither faith nor disbelief in God. Atheist: A
person who denies or disbelieves the existence of a supreme being or beings. Having found out the meanings of those words, or at least, sort of found out; I did wonder which category I fell into. For a long time I was happy enough to
consider myself agnostic. Although I didn't really have a clear grasp
of what that might mean. I think I knew
I was sitting on the philosophical fence; but my Sunday school teaching was
very deeply entrenched. During the early years of my first marriage there was an episode that
made me stop and perhaps for the first time as an adult, question religion and
my own position in regard to the spiritual conundrum. There was a knock on the front door one day and on opening the door I
was greeted by a Jehovah's Witness. The
usual conversation ensued with God's self-appointed representative making it
clear to me that mankind, myself included, was doomed, unless of course I
joined, The Chosen Ones! Still being naive in the extreme, I took much of his spiel to
heart. As any well trained JW will do, being
presented with one ripe for suggestion, he promptly inveigled his way into our
house over the following weeks. My fatal
mistake had been to attempt to out-talk a man who had all the answers. His name
was, perhaps aptly, Paul. He and his
wife came to our house quite regularly for a short period of time. During those times, he insisted we pray
before he launched into his well-rehearsed routine. The prayers made both my first wife and I
feel quite uncomfortable, but we complied nevertheless. Each time he left I felt as if I was being
taken down a path I really didn't want to travel. I became so concerned and agitated about
those bad feelings I decided to take matters further and seek other
professional advice. What better place to seek a second opinion about religious matters than
at a church? Although not a member of
any congregation, I knew the priest at our local St Francis (of Assisi) Church
was an approachable sort of bloke. It
was with him I sought an appointment. By that time, my mind had become so swamped with what I can only call
religious nonsense, I was beginning to consider that if there was truth in what
we were being told, then all men and women should believe in God unreservedly. Indeed, their very lives depended on it. While my confusion was much deepened,
somewhere inside me doubts still lingered as to the real truth of the
matter. Having explained my predicament
to the local priest, I am very pleased to say that he at least was honest. For that I still admire the bloke. He considered my story and after some small talk, explained that there
were many avenues of belief and they didn't necessarily always agree with each
other. I don't think he even criticized
the Jehovah's Witnesses as a group, or their methods of recruitment. He simply pointed out that we, as
individuals, should follow our own hearts in such matters. I do remember we discussed the differences between the JW version of
the Holy Bible and the King James Version.
In this as I recall, he was a little more direct, pointing out how by
manipulating text in the Bible, intrinsic meanings could be altered to suit a
very selfish marketing end. With the
omission of a word or the addition of a comma, the Word of God could be made to say whatever Man desired. As the priest's advice had not contained an urgent command to believe
one way or the other, I understood how I had become influenced, or infected, by someone who was simply
determined to convert me at all
costs. Naturally, none of those costs
being of any real benefit to me or my wife personally. The next time Paul and his ever faithful wife
arrived at our front door I gave him short shrift and requested he not return
again. He did try to argue, but I had
learnt my lesson. Never argue with someone
who has all the answers pre-packaged! That rather distasteful little episode remained with me over the years
and galvanized my determination to remain uninfluenced by one or the other
religious group. In spite of that, human
curiosity still demands answers. Where did we come from? Why are we here? What is the purpose of life? Is there life after death? Such questions can and should be divorced
from all organised religious association and interpretations. All At Sea Time passed, as did my first marriage, which ended in disaster after
five years. My black period
descended. My two children, the only
good thing to come out of that sour union, went to live with my sister and
brother-in-law. I returned home to live
with Mum and Dad. No help came from a
god of any description. As anyone who has been through such a family break up will tell you; it
is one of the most unpleasant heartbreaking, pain-filled events that can happen
to anyone. Anyway, that is the subject
of another essay, so I won't dwell on it here.
Suffice to say, after struggling to survive in my home town of Sidmouth,
I finally realised my road to sanity lay not in town but in getting out of
town. My decision led me away to sea as
a merchant seaman, a ships' plumber, for the next six years. Seamen are not renowned for their religiosity, in spite of often facing
the worse that raw nature can throw at mankind!
There's only yourself and your mates to rely on at sea. Sometimes there's a shortage of 'mates' and
those sorts of voyages are the stuff of nightmares (yet another story). I did attend one memorable religious ceremony during my time at sea; a funeral, in the United States of
America. Now that was a spiritual eye-opener.
I had sailed with Black Bob a couple of times previously. He was a young bloke, maybe late 20s, part Mexican
apparently. He was tall, 6' plus,
handsome, slim and a snappy dresser when he went ashore. But he was definitely strange! He was the sort of bloke who could have
pulled women without trying; but I never saw him in female company. His position on the ship was that of 2nd Cook and Baker, but
I shouldn't hold that against him. At
the start of that particular trip, which was to the USA and the Caribbean, Bob
had joined the ship in Plymouth amid tales of having spent some time in a
mental hospital on his last shore leave.
No details other than that were forthcoming and seamen, being the way
they are, never bothered to probe too deeply anyway. Each man had his own demons, without taking
on anyone else's. From the very start, Bob began to annoy the rest of the Petty Officer's
mess, about 30 in number. We didn't have
many rules in the 'bar' where we spent our leisure time, but there was a dress
code. After 19:00hrs everyone was supposed to be showered and changed. Bob didn't like that rule, he’d arrive in the
bar when he finished in the galley, at about 18:00hrs and proceed to
drink. Having worked in the bakery
section of the galley all day, he stank, not just of greasy cooking, but also
the added dash of yeast and similar products.
Throw in a good portion of BO and the results were not nice. In spite of being repeatedly warned, Bob
continued the practice throughout the first couple of weeks of the voyage. Eventually, the inevitable happened; he was
told quite bluntly by the Mess President to shower and change each evening or
he was banned from the bar. The reaction to that instruction was just as predictable, Black Bob said
- ‘f**k you’- and took himself off to
the Crews' bar, on the same 03 deck but aft, at the stern of the ship. Bob was popular enough with the crew and no
one in that area cared whether he changed or stank; many of the crew didn't
fuss with such niceties after they had finished a day's work anyway. And so the trip progressed. Bob
had made no friends in his own mess, but that didn't seem to bother him. He spent his evenings socialising with the
crew. Eventually, on reaching America and after the usual program of naval
exercises, we ended up in port for a couple of weeks R & R. Whilst I mentioned above that I was a
merchant seaman, I should be more specific and point out that although a
merchant seaman, the ships I sailed on were ammunition and supply ships for the
Royal Navy. Our employer was the UK
Ministry of Defence (Naval) and we sailed under the Royal Fleet Auxiliary (RFA)
flag. Our main task was to keep the
fleet supplied with everything from 1000lb bombs to beer. We were obviously included in all naval
exercises, which were ongoing; endlessly! When the fleet, having rendezvoused with a multitude of other ships at
sea, hit port, naturally the crew members flitted between ships visiting
friends and catching up over a few drinks.
One small group of our galley and catering staff decided they’d do more
than have a few beers and a chat with a neighbouring RFA. The visit to an RFA oiler developed into a
full-blown piss-up. No harm in that of course and in itself not particularly unusual. Except for one small life-changing incident
involving Bob! It turned out he had a
proclivity for young boys, of whom there were many in the catering staff, galley
boys and young stewards etc. To cut a
long story short; when the drink's in the wit is out. Black Bob really let his hair down on his nautical visit and took sexual
advantage of a young steward, who had passed out in the privacy of his own
cabin from too much alcohol. Bob was
caught in flagrante delicto, performing oral sex upon the comatose youth. I'm not sure that being caught, 'red-handed',
is a suitable term, but caught he was and the outcome was very
predictable. A fleet of ships is much like a small village when it comes to gossip;
scuttlebutt spreads like wildfire! Bob's
already dubious reputation was in shreds!
Having returned to our ship, the following day Bob tried to carry on as
if nothing had occurred. However, the
whispering and innuendo soon gathered momentum.
Black Bob, as he had now been well and truly christened, sunk into black depression of self inflicted guilt. He sulked in his baker’s corner of the
galley. He still drank in the crews' bar
with those few who would abide his company.
There's never a shortage of people with aberrant sexual behaviour
amongst any ships' crew anyway. A few nights later Bob made his final visit to the Crews' bar. On that occasion he'd arrived at the bar,
where as usual he proceeded to drink to excess.
That night, he had taken his caged budgerigar with him. During the course of the evening he gave the
bird away to another seaman. Early the
following morning all hell broke loose. Ernie, an Able Seaman (AB), had a healthy early morning habit; he would
always sneak into the fridges and steal an apple to start his day. That would be one day he wouldn't forget in a
hurry. The apples were stored in the
cool room outside a deep freeze area. Ernie noticed a freezer door was ajar, so he poked his head around the corner
to see why. There, empty pill bottle by
his side, sat a very deeply frozen, Black Bob!
He was as dead as a mackerel and ten times as hard! The US naval base paramedics were summoned
post-haste. The last vision I had of Bob
leaving the ship was of him on a gurney, one paramedic pushing and the other
hammering hell out of his deeply frozen ribs in an attempt to restart his long
dead heart. Those resuscitation attempts
were pretty pointless by that time because, as I said, Bob was frozen solid
right through. Not surprisingly, the local American law enforcement officers came
onboard and questioned all and sundry in an attempt to get to the bottom of
that heinous incident. Again, it was a
fairly pointless exercise. Seamen are
notoriously anti-authority when it comes to '
the law' or 'the customs officers'. Black Bob had topped himself. That was his choice and f**k-all to do with
anyone else. Now came the strange part;
in a fit of moral pique the MOD proclaimed that, because Bob had not died in
the line of duty, but had offended the departments' sensibilities by committing
suicide, his body would not be flown
home. Instead, as punishment one can
only assume, he would be laid to rest in America; well, cremated anyway. That being the case, volunteers from the
Petty Officer's mess would be required to attend Black Bob's funeral service at
a local consecrated chapel. Because of the events surrounding Bob's demise, the gossip and innuendo
spreaders, many of whom were in our midst in the PO's mess, felt stubbornly
disinclined to attend Bob’s funeral. I
know guilty conscience played a large part in many decisions; it was each to his
own. I had no axe to grind and although
I had no great liking for Bob because of his poor attitude, I did offer to
attend the small funeral party, thereby representing the Engine Room Department. On the morning of the funeral we were transported from the ship to the
funeral parlour in a mini bus. Standing
outside the funeral parlour, no one could be blamed for mistaking it for an
ordinary American home. We filed
solemnly in through the front door of the house. Big Dai, a Welshman, built like the
proverbial brick shithouse, walked in front of me through the unpresumptuous
reception hall area. We were then directed
through to a curtained-off room. Sweeping the curtain aside, Big Dai stepped through and then stopped dead. I walked into his fat arse and grumbled: 'what the f**k'. Peering around Dai's ample backside, I was
stunned to see Black Bob sitting up in his coffin, the half-lid casket wide
open. There he sat, as large as
life! Apparently, that was the way they
did things in America! Being a small
party we were quickly ushered in and our whole group seated in the front row;
an arm's length from a very miserable looking, totally thawed, dead 2nd
Cook and Baker. The service wasn't long
but it sure was arduous. We muttered
prayers and stuttered through the words of an unknown hymn, obeying the
religious ritual requirements. We
listened to the empty words of a 'holy stranger', who'd never met Bob nor smelled
his BO. Then it was over; accompanied by
suitable funereal music, Bob's coffin and thawed corpse slid between curtains
on its way to his own baker’s oven. Still bewildered and in relative silence, we shuffled back to our
transport and were returned to our ship.
Once there we began the wake, which if nothing else relieved the
tensions of the day; not that we needed
an excuse to drink. That evening we sailed away from the USA minus one smelly 2nd
Cook and Baker. As we headed out to sea
we treated ourselves to a movie, ‘Blackbeard's
Ghost’, which was irreverently renamed, 'Black
Bob's Ghost'. The mockery of that
whole episode and the lip service to religious dogma has stayed with me over
the years. Whilst we all use survival humour under certain conditions, I could
never get over the fact that so little actual help was available to a man who
was obviously in need. On top of that,
the meaninglessness of the so-called funeral service was nothing short of
farcical. Our masters at the MOD didn't
do themselves any favours either; the official attitude only reinforced how
little any of us were worth when it came to the crunch. Travelling the globe for six years gives one a wider view on the world
generally. Travel broadens the mind, as
they say. For us, reasonably affluent
British sailors, many parts of the Third World presented many shocking examples
of 'how the other half lives'. We only consider poverty relative to our own
situations in our own country. Believe
you me, the Western World knows little or nothing of real poverty; or the
depraved lengths humans go to just to alleviate the pain of basic
deficiencies. One very poignant aspect of Third World life that quickly became evident
was the degree to which religious observance played a part in the lives of the
poor. Catholicism, for example, is very
strong in many poverty-stricken parts of the world. The Catholic Church is one of the richest
organizations in the world and the founder of the Western banking system. Nevertheless, it flourishes and grows on the
abject poverty of its devotees. It has a
policy that ensures the cycle of poverty continues by forbidding such human
rights as birth control. Enforcing its
dogma of fear and superstition with an iron fist, the Catholic Church maintains
the numbers to ensure a continued supply for its 'flock'. My only thoughts about those situations now
relate back to my own mother and her early life. When there is little or nothing to look
forward to in this life one can only look forward to 'the next life'. For me, life was about to move on yet again. On a trip to the Far East, that took us all
the way to Australia, I met a young lady who was to become my second wife. I'd always said that if I was to remarry, I
would leave the sea. Life at sea was a
single man's existence and no place for one who wanted to settle down. And so it was; Barbara, my wife, accepted my proposal of marriage and I
retired from the sea. Barb was raised in
a Catholic family, but always considered herself to be 'non-practicing',
whatever that means! She was also educated by nuns in a Catholic school and even to this day
relates tales of the brutality dished out by those harridans of religious
fervour. It was September 23rd
1978 when we settled for a civil marriage service and began our new life in
Chard, a country town in the county of Somerset in England. Megalomania A few weeks later, on November 18th 1978, an event took place
in a distant land that once again focussed my attention on religion in
general. Over the years there had been
various religious cults or sects prophesying the end of the world. Their members had theatrically gathered on
mountain tops or other designated points around the globe, to await the second coming. Those people always considered themselves as:
the chosen few. The rest of us, those of us who didn't belong to their exclusive club,
were of course doomed to eternal hell-fire and destruction. The predicted end never came on the appointed day, consequently, after a few days
the chosen few then vanished from their newsworthy public
position, never to be heard of again. November 1978 proved to be rather different. At the root of the event lay a bizarre mixture
of politics and religion; originally communism and Methodism, but later a type
of Pentecostalism and communism. For
those with long memories, the name Jim
Jones might ring a bell. For younger
readers, the event is probably interesting enough to research fully. For the purpose of this essay, it will
suffice to concentrate on the events in Guyana, South America, on that November
day in 1978. Whilst the organisation set up by Jones in 1955, under the name of, The People's Temple, had 'churches'
based in various places in the USA. The
organisation eventually morphed into what might best be described as a quasi
socialist-religious commune, under the name of, The People's Temple Agricultural Project. The site in Guyana, is now more commonly
known as, 'Jonestown'. The ‘Rev
Jim Jones’ considered himself a self-appointed minister of religion and his
ragtag group of hippy followers to be his congregation. On November the 17th 1978, American Congressman Leo Ryan,
arrived at the Temple site in Guyana to investigate accusations of abuse within
the commune. Whilst there, it became
apparent that several of the group members wanted to be allowed to leave. Those same members attempted to leave with
Congressman Ryan and an accompanying media group the following afternoon. They were stopped by Temple’s armed security guards, who opened fire on them,
killing the Congressman, three journalists and one of the Temple
renegades. On the evening of the
shootings, Jim Jones ordered his flock to
commit mass suicide! They were
instructed to drink a soft drink infused with cyanide. The official reasons given for that drastic
action seem to relate to Jones’s angst over the impending end of his ‘faux ministry'
and his almost certain arrest. A total
of 919 men, women and children died that day.
A few did manage to escape into the surrounding jungle, but many simply
followed his instructions to commit suicide.
Those who didn't comply with the suicide commands were murdered in cold
blood. The event made worldwide
headlines and provoked much disgust at the time. It also prompted further discussion into what
motivates specific groups to commit such atrocities? How does such an incident relate in any way to religion? Of course, it would be easy to say: it doesn't relate to religion! However, if one considers the history of
religion, the atrocity most certainly does relate to religion and not just too
bizarre off-shoot groups within the mainstream religious system either. Mainstream religions themselves, have the
blood of many thousands of innocents on their hands. That spilt blood and accumulated misery,
quite often relates back to an individual within the organisation exercising
his or her power over a group, in order to enforce group complicity. In the Jim Jones' case, his actions seem to
have amounted to nothing less than an excessive ego trip. The congregation had even been primed for the
premeditated event; they actually held rehearsals for the mass suicides. Those rehearsals were more than likely the
catalyst for the small number of members wanting to leave the project. Such macabre realism obviously had a sobering
effect on the few not caught up in the mass hysteria demonstrated by the
majority of the group. On a personal level it was yet another reason to question the whole
culture of religiosity and religious organizations. To this day, I find it difficult to
distinguish between mainstream religion and smaller groups with the label of 'cult' or 'sect'. Whilst the dogma of
various mainstream organizations seems to contain less excessive requirements,
if one explores beneath the surface, one will find many rules that go against
natural or normal human behaviour. Examples that come to mind in the Christian church are: Lent, a period
of fasting and abstinence, the birth control requirements or lack of, in the
Catholic creed, and the strange restrictions on clergymen entering matrimony. In Islam, there’s a similar practice to of
fasting, in Ramadan, and the treatment of females as second-class citizens. Superstition and superstitious practices
abound in all cults, sects and religions.
Whilst one might say: 'well,
that's obvious, the movements are spiritual movements'. I would then ask: ‘what has the Catholic habit of carting a load of old saint's bones
around the world got to do with religion; or for that matter, collecting vials
of blood from a newly departed Pope’?
Religious artifacts, icons and a huge variety of inanimate objects hold
seriously significant meaning for peoples of all religions. I have always found such practices beyond
wacky, macabre in the extreme and quite meaningless. Confusion in the Antipodes Meanwhile, marriage number two progressed in a hectic but idyllic
manner. Eventually, we had three
daughters, all three born in Taunton Hospital in Somerset. As the girls grew, in spite of our own ambivalent
religious views, we discussed what sort of 'religious teaching' the girls
should experience. Neither of us had
ever seriously considered ourselves affiliated with any church or any religion. In spite of this we thought it only fair that
the girls should join a Sunday school to gain some understanding of that
particular aspect of life. Consequently,
all three girls attended a local church Sunday school for a short period of
time, prior to our immigrating to Australia. None of our girls has ever been formally christened; both my wife and I
were always in general agreement that such a decision should be their adult
personal choice. If, as adults, they decided to join a religion,
then that would be their business. They
would not suffer any criticism from us should they so decide. As a note, not one of our daughters has ever
shown the slightest inclination to join a religious group of any kind. I have to ask myself; is that simply another
instance of parental influence making itself evident in the children? In their case, at least, there doesn’t appear
to be any innate desire to seek out the support of any particular religious
group. My own interest in religion had taken a backseat for many years and
apart from fleeting thoughts or the occasional media sensation as outlined by
the Jonestown incident, I was still yet to form a definitive opinion. It's not that life didn't present dramatic
moments which sometimes justified a prayer if one were so inclined; we
certainly had our share of those moments over the years. Nevertheless, the underlying speculation as
to what life was all about was never too far from my mind. After living 10 years in the UK we decided to
immigrate to Australia; I was then 43 years old and getting a bit ancient for
such massive domestic upheaval. My
wife's parents offered us 10 weeks temporary accommodation upon our arrival in
Australia, which gave us a short breathing space in which to decide where our
Australian future lay. For purely
financial reasons, and adding the 'why not' factor, we decided to try our luck
in the city of Orange, in the Central West of NSW. It was in that tranquil, almost
English setting, our lives changed irrevocably. As if emigrating hadn't been enough of a
change, what occurred shortly after our arrival in Orange city would make the
move shrink into insignificance. Needs must where the devil drives! It's
a funny old saying, but as with many old proverbs, the adage completely summed
up our situation. The original saying,
obviously, had religious connotations and dated back to Middle English
texts. The original text in Middle
English looked much like this: "He must nedys go that the deuell
dryues." There had been times
in my life when I'd felt totally out of my depth, but what lay ahead would
change me in ways impossible to imagine. The drama began simply enough; I'd been having trouble finding permanent
work in the Orange area. That was a
major drawback of moving from the big city to the country, or outback, in Australia;
vacant positions are: as rare as hen's
teeth! My first job had seen me
travelling all the way back to Sydney and lodging throughout the week; whilst
working as a plumber for a company in Orange City. When Friday evening arrived, we would jump in
the company van and drive the four hours back home to Orange and our respective
families. Naturally enough, that type of
situation didn't suit me at all; Barbara was stuck in Orange, coping with a
young family all week, whilst I camped out in Sydney just to earn a living
wage. Effectively, one ended up paying
for two very different lifestyles and all financial advantage was lost. I very soon resigned from that plumbing
position. Having given up that job, I
was prepared to take on anything just to stay working locally. When I say anything; I mean anything! Orange was most famous as a fruit growing region. As a consequence it was flooded at various
seasons with itinerant workers who picked everything from cotton in Queensland
to apples in Tasmania. The City of
Orange was not famous for oranges, but it was
famous for its stone fruit. At the time
I was looking for work, cherry picking season was just getting onto full
swing. My old naïve streak kicked in,
because without a second thought I got myself hired as a fruit picker. I soon found out why itinerant workers travel
light and live comparatively rough nomadic lives. They work from sunup to sundown, and the remuneration
is pathetic! A week’s wages wasn’t
enough to keep body and soul together, let alone feed a family living in a
regular home. Out of desperation, one
day I even took Barb and the girls with me, hoping their contributions might
boost the meagre income; all to no benefit.
It was back to the drawing-board and the Job Centre in search of a real
job. I'd never been on the dole in my
life and found the whole welfare experience of being out of work thoroughly
degrading. Eventually, if one persists, something turns up. In my case what turned up was a casual
position as a factory labourer, with a white-goods factory: Email of Orange. 'Email' being the company name and nothing to do with computer
communication. White-goods include such
items as fridges, freezers and washing machines, etc, which were built and then
transported from the Orange factory to outlets all over Australia. Australian businesses seem to have this
propensity to first employ staff as casuals, often for extended periods of
time. I suppose it suits their business
purposes and also restricts the rights of the casual employees, of course. Not only that, the arrangement guaranteed a sense of insecurity was
maintained within the workforce if a proportion of the staff were constantly
seeking permanency at the possible expense of the incumbents. Whatever the business rationale, I was not in
a secure position and was very aware of the fact. As a factory labourer, I found myself doing a variety of tasks as
required throughout the factory. One of
those tasks was the garbage run, which involved driving a small flatbed truck
around the factory picking up large bags of rubbish of varying weights and
sizes. At each stop, two of us jumped
from the truck to pick up bags, swinging them up and over onto the truck. It was during one of those pick-ups, when
swinging a large bag onto the truck, I felt my back give a very nasty
clunk! Over the next few days the physical damage became apparent as the pain
increased and my ability to walk was reduced to an agonizing shuffle. Cutting a long story short, it turned out I'd
ruptured a disc in my lower back. After
a week or so rest, I felt game enough or perhaps desperate enough, to return to
work, least I lose my casual position at the factory. The doctor's instructions were; return to work but light duties only. Email's idea of light duties was to put me on a gang loading articulated
trucks with vast cargoes of upright freezers and fridges. Each piece of equipment had to be manhandled
onboard, and required the loader to throw his full body weight against each
item to ensure it was tightly packed.
The effect on my recently damaged spine was catastrophic. Not only did I end up off work again, but out
of work permanently. Being casual, I had
no recourse at that time to some of the benefits afforded others who were
permanent employees. That situation was resolved many years later, but that's another
story. The outcome for the time being
was a slow recovery and a very lean time financially. During my time at home, I found myself
volunteering to help out at the local primary school where our daughters were
enrolled. As a keen brass bandsman, I
quickly found my talents useful, helping out with the school band. Once more essays overlap, but suffice to say, I came to the attention of
the school principal, who suggested I consider a career in teaching. At 44 years of age, having left school at 14
with no academic qualifications, I felt teaching might be well beyond my
talents and certainly well outside my sphere of expertise. Because of the nature of my physical injury and my obvious inability to
return to manual labour I had been placed under the auspices of the
Commonwealth Rehabilitation Service.
Mary, my case worker, had shared our despair, sitting at our kitchen
table discussing the bleak outlook; in truth, she shared tears as well as the
general despondency relating to my dismal career prospects. Naturally, she was at a loss with what to do
with someone who’d spent their entire working life engaged in manual work of
some description. We discussed with her
the school principal's suggestion regarding teaching as a career. She looked doubtful, as well she might, but
agreed to investigate the possibilities. Mary went to great pains to stress I would
have to undergo various tests to assess my suitability for the training. Not just anyone could access the funds
necessary for such an expensive and risky long term undertaking. All those points noted, I said to Barbara: ‘if someone will give me a bloody chance,
I'll show them what I can do!
Prophetic words indeed; the necessary tests were arranged and true to my
word I proved I had the potential to at least attend university. My first three year course at Charles Sturt University, Bathurst NSW,
was to attain the, Diploma of Teaching:
Primary. I found myself in the
company of students, mostly around 18 years old. After a rocky settling-in period I joined a
small group of mature-age students; older people like myself, who had a wide variety
of life skills. Amongst the group there
were two ladies, both of whom were definitely Christians, in the ‘true sense’
of the word. The group also included one
gentleman who was a committed Catholic, with a large family that reflected his
adherence to that particular creed. Obviously, there were others who, had
faith, but I had less to do with them and therefore learnt little of their
religious commitments. My Catholic male associate never made much of the fact he was a
committed Christian. He was one of those
people who minded their own business and got on with life. If you went to his house or socialized with
his family as we often did, it soon became apparent where his religious beliefs
lay. One of the religiously committed female mature-aged students was always on about God, or 'someone' looking over her. I
am afraid to say, I did tend to poke fun at her constant references to this
strange invisible personage who oversaw all her daily business. I remembered that particular point from Sunday
school. Anyway, she was one of those people who seemed to have a constant desire
to 'convert the ungodly'. In that task she was bound to fail miserably
with me and my attitude towards anyone who seemed so obviously determined to
convince me of the existence of spooks.
The lessons I’d learned many years previously came to the fore. The second lady mature-aged student was a really interesting person in
that she was a Creationist. I'd never heard of such people and the more I
learned about her beliefs, the more I began to wonder at the absolute, and even
dangerous, gullibility, of such ‘believers’ in general. Those Creationist beliefs
turned out to be her prime motivation for attending university. Once her course was finished, she intended to
enter the teaching profession where she would spread the word of God. There she was, a middle-aged woman with a
large family of her own, prepared to give up precious years of her life, in
order to educate other people's children in the hope of converting them to her
brand of religion! Now that situation was
something which both intrigued and bothered me greatly. One could only wonder at how many such
devious people have surreptitiously infiltrated our supposedly secular school
system. Creationism takes many forms; Flat Earthers; Geocentrists; Young Earth
Creationists; Old Earth Creationists, to name but a few. Included in those categories are off-shoots
such as, the Intelligent Design followers.
All the groups appear to have similar basic philosophies, in that they
take the Biblical word very literally, albeit to varying degrees and with
sneaky alterations to certain wording. From my reading, I would place my associate in the Young Earth
Creationist group. They believed planet
Earth to be 6000 to 10,000 years old, and they quite plainly deemed all life to
have been created within a standard working week: 6 x 24 hour days. They also believe death and decay were
directly related to the fall of the mythical Adam and Eve; therefore, I could
only assume they considered that before Adam and his much maligned
‘rib-created’ lady-friend, everything was incorruptible and lived forever? That category of religious fanatic considered
normal geological processes must be construed in terms of the legendary, Noah's
flood. On the positive side, one had to
give that branch of Creationists credit for at least accepting a spherical
earth and a heliocentric solar system.
There were other sects within Creationism that did not accept those
basic, scientifically established, empirical assertions. One may assume that, in human terms, most
religions have relatively ancient roots, but of course that’s not always
so. In the case of the Young Earth
Creationists, a Canadian Seventh Day Adventist, named George McCready
(1870-1963) seems to have been instrumental in forming the original set of
beliefs. Apparently, his views did not
take hold until after his death when the modern creation science movement got
going during the 1960s. For those
interested enough to pursue that line of enquiry, the whole history and
development of Creationism is
reasonably interesting in itself. One
should naturally consider the historical background and environments against which
such movements developed and not be too consumed by the overall mythology which
surrounds the modern (or older) movements. University not only provided me with an introduction to people with a
variety of entrenched mythological views, it also developed my ability to think
more constructively, to reason, to research and ultimately develop my own
secure opinions, based soundly on a range of research. Perhaps, significantly, it also reawakened
quite a keen interest in the subject of religion(s) by providing yet another
avenue of exploration. Aboriginal Studies, along with Multiculturalism, were mandatory subjects
at university; those subjects were core philosophies within education in the
1990s. Come to that I’d guess Australian
universities are much the same even today.
As an aside, that type of specific academic insistence is, in itself,
yet another form of officially sanctioned brainwashing; or most certainly
social engineering. Teach the teacher what to teach and use education to
change future society. The foremost objective during lectures and tutorials on Aboriginal
Studies appeared to be to instil a deep sense of guilt into anyone who considered themselves remotely connected to
the so-called, ‘European Invasion’, or indeed anyone of European heritage! European INVASION;
strong language; used at the behest of political and academic left wing fanatics, with their own insidious
agendas. Nevertheless, their ploy worked and I witnessed more than once, young students
filing solemnly out from lectures with tears rolling freely down their
guilt-ridden faces! Brainwashing is
obviously equally alive and well in the academic world; university students must be pre-programmed and primed to
carry the politically desired message forth into the wider world to the
ignorant public. Such perverse
suggestions paint a bizarre picture of what academia is really all about. We have individual teacher's with their own
agendas and governments of various persuasions, all vying to corrupt young (or
old) minds with their own selfish forms of social engineering. Power, financial reward, or just embedded
dogma, are a few of the more common reasons behind the formal shaping of
community thought. Nonetheless, Aboriginal Studies per-se was an engaging subject; although
I considered the educational strategies outlined for Aboriginal students to be
no different than those that should be in place for all children, regardless of
race. Naturally, many facts, as well as pseudo-facts, came to light during our
study time. According to the Aboriginal
Heritage Office, prior to the arrival of the white man in 1788, there were some
750,000 Aboriginal inhabitants across Australia. The population was divided into about 400
distinct tribes; many of whom appear to have been nomadic within limited
territories, although not all.
Approximately 250-300 different languages with 600 dialects were known
to have been spoken prior to 1788, throughout the greater Australian continent. Again, estimates varied, but those diverse
tribes seem to have inhabited Australia for somewhere between 50,000 and
100,000 years. That made the Aboriginal peoples possibly the longest unbroken race of
human beings to inhabit a previously isolated environment; or more importantly,
a group culturally uninfluenced by
outsiders. My statement is obviously
speculation, but there can be little doubt regarding the uniqueness or if
preferred, the purity, of the Aboriginal races.
Whilst there was and is a diversity of indigenous languages, the
Aboriginal Dreamtime creation philosophy seemed to apply fairly uniformly
across the country. There are various more
localized myths relating directly to the central creation theme. The
Dreamtime is really much more than a 'simple religion' and once more, worth
researching thoroughly should the reader be so inclined; just in the name of Comparative Religious Studies of course.
However, what fascinated me personally, as much as anything was, in the
first place, the fact that those ancient people actually had such a complex set
of spiritual creation values; secondly, the fact that many of those ancient
myths and superstitions had major similarities with more modern mythological
beliefs. When such coincidences occur it
is more than enough to arouse more than mild curiosity. Accordingly I made a
mental note of such concurrences and retained them for further pondering. My first university assignment in Aboriginal Studies required me to: Compare and Contrast the Effects of the
European Arrival on Two Indigenous Groups; as my 'target groups' I chose Aboriginal Australians and Native
American Indians. Whilst I wasn't
required to understand the religious practices of those two quite different
races; the fact that white/European clergy featured significantly in the global
obliteration of indigenous languages and religious organisations was difficult
to miss. It was common knowledge that to
the mainstream religions, be they Catholic, Protestant, or 'Callithumpian', anything
other than those religions were considered heathen, therefore, a threat! According to ‘the church’, as part of the 'humanizing
process' unhealthy pagan beliefs must be totally eradicated, enabling the ‘sub-human heathen’ to begin his journey
on the road to becoming a 'real human'. Likewise, the guttural noises that passed for language must be wiped
out; as must the uncivilized habit of running naked about the countryside. Such immoral
behaviour should be recognised as sinful; in spite of the fact such 'normal behaviour' was well established
long before the arrival of the fanatical cult known as Christianity, or for
that matter, before Christianity even came into existence! Coincidentally, did any member of Christianity ever complain about Adam
and Eve's outrageously lewd behaviour in the allegorical Garden of Eden? Historical accounts of all invaders, worldwide, are littered with
comparable acts of bastardry as those briefly outlined above. Culturally, anything invading groups considered hostile to their home-grown traditions
was most often cruelly purged; or conversely absorbed. Naturally, the successful invader always
thought themselves vastly intellectually superior to subjugated
incumbents. No thought or appreciation
of the dire consequences to the indigenous peoples was ever taken into account;
no value was ever attached to what was being lost culturally; often forever. When God or power was on your side, then everything was legal and moral; even the illegal
misappropriation of Australian lands from the rightful Aboriginal owners. Whilst not a true full scale warlike invasion;
the European influx into Australia aka Terra
Nullius, still exhibited those same selfish and destructive
behaviours. For me that was yet another black mark against the religions I had been
raised with. What right had any religion
to forcibly impose itself upon another culture under the guise of being: the one true religion? Christianity destroyed much of the ‘Aboriginal Dream Time’ structure and
attempted to replace it without any consideration for the ancient Dream Time
record, or its deeply cultural indigenous significance. Mixing with a diverse group of people also had quite a profound effect
on my personal outlook. I could see how
deeply others in my mature-age student group believed in their own versions of
God(s) and religion. I was left in no
doubt about their personal faith(s)
and how deeply their beliefs motivated them to achieve the things they were
doing at university and in their daily lives.
It was through that period I often found myself wondering why I couldn't have that same sense of blind faith. I could see how people didn't actually
question their own deep-seated beliefs, preferring instead to blindly accept as
true all they had been raised to believe in.
The Creationist’s viewpoint particularly disturbed me. How could any rational person, especially one
of obvious considerable intellect, adhere to a philosophy that taught and
accepted such a literal view of Biblical myths? The Earth had only been created 6000 or
10,000 years ago; and in seven days? Noah's flood, complete with Ark and animals, two-by-two, was
historically authentic? Heaven and Hell
were real places? The chosen ones, Creationists, would be the only people
'saved' on the Day of Judgment? Another equally ridiculous offshoot of Creationism came to my notice
about that time, in the philosophy known as: Intelligent Design or ID.
That philosophy suggests the structure of the universe and presumably
all there is within, is so complex and organised that it must have been designed with a purpose by an intelligent
force. Analogies were being drawn
between the complex 'mathematics' that so-called, 'ruled' the universe and such
manmade items as the humble human engineered pocket-watch. The human eye, as a complex organ, also
featured highly in debates that 'raged' between devout believers (fanatics) and
non-believers. Indeed, in America, a
court case was fought by the Creationists on the basis of a hypothesis called 'Irreducible Complexity'. The court case came about because
Creationists argued that Creationism was a valid subject to be taught in schools
and should be just as legitimate as evolutionary science. During that process, unbelievably, Darwinism
was fiercely demonized. Creationists
attempted to have the Darwinian teaching of evolution banned from the school
curriculum. Once more, the whole issue
is worth further research if the reader has an interest. At the risk of spoiling a good yarn, the
outcome of the American court case was: the Creationists lost out to the
scientists and biologists. For myself, I
wouldn't bother to give anyone who spewed forth such errant creationist drivel,
the time of day. Nevertheless, I still couldn't understand why others were so convinced by any pseudo-religious arguments or more
rightly, cultish dogma, when I myself failed to be so moved. I will even go as far to say, more than once
I actually felt something akin to jealousy of those who seemed to have something spiritually genuine; something that
proved so elusive for me in person. If one really stops to think about what 'faith' quite literally is; the
belief in something not based on proof, (empirical evidence), one begins to
see why there are so many non-believers (depending on geographic
locations). Science, on the other hand,
requires empirical evidence, and even
then any so-called scientific fact is
always open to challenge. So, I guess anyone who wants to believe in fairies at the bottom of
their garden, is quite entitled to believe so, complete with any personal embellishments
they might decide to add. On the other
hand; those who prefer to view life rationally or more pragmatically are also
equally entitled to do so. Those who 'believe' in religious myths are more often than not raised
within certain cultures and simply never bother to question those instilled
values, for whatever reason, as discussed earlier. Then there are those who 'convert' to one
religion or another; again for a wide variety of personal reasons. At this point, I'd even venture to suggest that even those, like me, who
are content to let science provide the answers for them, aren't so very
different! Without question, there is a
side to human nature that demands answers related to the reasons for our
existence. Why are we here? What is the
purpose of life? If there is 'a
spiritual God'; is that God, The Creator; if 'He' exists, why does 'He' allow
such an unmitigated lists of horrendous events, both in nature and human
affairs? Or can science and physics
provide those answers adequately enough to ever suppress boundless human
curiosity? Note: By 'human affairs'
(above), I refer directly to morons such
as those who are systematically glorified with the ‘martyrs’ epithet; low scum
such as 'suicide bombers' and more recently Islamic State. Such people are not 'suicide bombers' or remotely religious, they are simply moronic,
brain-dead, mass murderers. Brainwashed
fanatics such as those demonstrate the depths to which, otherwise civilized
people, can be manipulated for evil purposes under the flimsiest pretext;
religion and politics being very common vehicles for such manipulation. Throughout human history it has been thus. Magic, politics and paganism of many shades
have impacted on human cultures worldwide.
The word paganism is a
generality, which simply relates to any creed other than Christianity. The human race has always sought answers;
when those answers stretch human imagination and credulity too far, beyond
whatever might be the current historical understanding, then religion(s), mythology
and superstition, quickly move in to fill the void. For many years, humans thought, and indeed
were encouraged by the Catholic Church to think, the Earth was the centre of
the universe. Mankind, in the majority, meekly accepted religion's explanation of the geocentric solar system, the
Ptolemaic system, over the Heliocentric system, that which actually
exists. Just establishing scientific
truths had been a very dangerous exercise for many hundreds of years. Anyone with a view that differed from the
religious establishment was liable to suffer severe punishment; if not a
horrible death. History is littered with
the bleached bones of those who steadfastly pursued scientific truths over
mythology. Such is the power of blind
faith and ignorance! Religion boasts of its martyrs, while science
simply mourns the loss of yet another brilliant mind. University also introduced me to a genre of literature to which I was
unfamiliar: non-fiction. I had been 'an avid reader' from
childhood. The delight of a good book
and its capacity to create enjoyment was for me one of life's little
bonuses. However, up until university,
the nearest I'd come to non-fiction was probably something like 'Chariots of the Gods' by Erich Von Daniken (1968). When first published, the book gained
immediate notoriety and was widely discussed and often hotly disputed in
national newspapers. Parts of the book
were serialized and many ordinary people were taken in by its outrageous and
spurious claims. I will even admit to
being engaged by Von Daniken's outrageous statements myself. Such was the power of the Snake Oil Salesman
or the Shaman. Everyone loves a good alien yarn; the plots themselves are not as very
different or outrageous as the plots that form the basis for ancient
mythology. Charles Sturt University
demanded we indulge ourselves in reading of a more intellectual nature and the
required texts were made available at the University Coop Bookshop. Thank goodness, a wide variety of other reading was also available at the
bookshop; my own preference being largely for children's literature. Browsing the shelves one afternoon, I came
across a title: Jesus the Man by Dr Barbara Thiering (circa 1992). The title caught my attention and after reading the synopsis, I purchased
the book simply for my own interest. As
it turned out, that was perhaps the first of many such controversial books
connected to religion I’d read over the coming years. Dr Thiering, an academic of some distinction,
was not well received by many of her peers on the publication of the
aforementioned book. Her interpretation
of the life of the Jew, Jesus of Nazareth, was definitely not in harmony with
established views. As history has shown repeatedly, any attempt to redefine traditionally
accepted religious belief is almost guaranteed to meet with severe displeasure
and certain censure. Nevertheless, I enjoyed reading her thesis and found her ideas
refreshing. Even to this day, I can see
very little reason to suppose her views were not as equally legitimate as those
put forward by the all-powerful establishment.
After all, who can
overwhelmingly prove any of their proposals regarding the life of a man, who is
or was, quite obviously, a 2000 year old construct, at the centre of a fanatical religious
and/or political movement: ‘The Essenes’? Yes, by that I do mean the Jesus story; while possibly loosely
rooted in truth is nothing more than a story, made up long after the fact. Much of the ‘Jesus Story’, the New Testament, was created or completed, possibly
100 years after his demise; if indeed He ever really existed. America, February the 28th, 1993 a siege began at the Mount
Carmel Centre, Waco, Texas. That siege
ended violently and very publically 50 days later, on April the 19th. Worldwide media coverage ensured the fiery
carnage was delivered into the secure comfort of our lounge rooms. For me, it was yet another of those
unfathomable 'cult' stories I’d become familiar with over the years. With each different event, the characters
were 'modernized' as their individual stories became familiar to the ordinary people in the streets. The central player in that particular cult
drama was a man by the name of David Koresh (1959-1993), born Vernon Wayne Howell. The plot, if one can use that term, supposedly revolved once more around
religion; and yet again so much more
than just religion was
implicated. The great difference between
the ancient and this modern drama, was that the main protagonist was not (as
yet) at some later time glorified and turned into a divine cult hero; a hero
who would still influence vast numbers of humanity into the future. Koresh, possibly with some justification, was
officially demonized by the FBI and US government. There were those, particularly in America,
who cried: conspiracy; but
nevertheless, there existed many verified reports of child abuse and sexual
exploitation within Koresh's odious organisation. Whatever the truth might have been, there was
little doubt Koresh bit off more than he could chew when he challenged the
American legal and governmental authorities. Am I drawing a comparison between a character called, Jesus of Nazareth
and the likes of David Koresh? Yes I
am. To me, the cliché: 'One man's terrorist is another man's
freedom fighter' is a perfectly valid statement; albeit open to much
idealistic discussion. Koresh claimed to be the reincarnation
of Jesus Christ. Koresh and Jesus appear to have had a few basic
similarities; as well as challenging the establishment, both men it seems, had
very young mothers. Bonnie Sue Clark,
mother of David Koresh, was a 14 year old single mother when she gave
birth. Similarly, the 'Virgin Mary' was reportedly between the
ages of 12 to possibly 16 years old when she gave birth to Jesus, according to
answers provided by the Catholic Forum Internet page. Those estimates are based on known historical details from that period,
although there seems to be no confirmed record of Mary's actual age for when she gave birth.
Such shocking revelations today quickly bring cries of protest and
accusations of pedophilia. It’s strange
how Christian organisations never make
such facts publically known. The abuse
of young females still occurs in these modern times. Arranged marriages, condoned under the guise
of cultural or religious rights, see
young girls married off to mature-age or even old men. Nothing much has changed in the past 2000
years, obviously. The human race has a funny habit of glorifying certain historical characters whilst demonizing others, depending on who is interpreting the past events and the motives behind those interpretations. As with any good story, the underlying plot(s) always involve manipulation, usually through group dynamics. Power plays centreing around politics and /or mythology/religion and stronger characters using weaker ones to achieve personal ambition(s). Fear, superstition, coercion and emotional blackmail are also inevitably tied up in those scenarios. No less influential is the inherited nature of superstitious belief as each generation ensures its own progeny is indoctrinated with similarly updated institutional views. Such indoctrination not only propagates the specific teaching, but also generates and strengthens the group or movement as a whole. It is worth reiterating; there still remains substantial doubt as to the existence of Jesus as a real person. Whether he existed or not is irrelevant to
this essay, nevertheless, the creation of the allegory surrounding His character seems to have occurred
some 100 years after His death; as
noted above. In addition, Christianity, as a movement, didn’t become officially
sanctioned until nearly, 400 years
after His alleged crucifixion. Such a set of statements, naturally, draw
howls of protest from those who call themselves 'committed Christians'.
Nonetheless, those are the facts as they are available today, for those
who would wish to query them. Also, as
pointed out previously about such ‘unsavoury
facts’, Christian organisations avoid publicizing such startling or touchy information. Who knows, perhaps in some 90 years time, an unknown group with a vested
(financial) interest will rewrite history with David Koresh as the Divine
Saviour raised once more, just like the original model. To then add insult to injury, that same group
might arrange for another breakaway Seventh Day Adventist sect to become the established and recognised
representative of mainstream spiritual religion 400 years hence. It has happened before, Groundhog Day all over again, again, again! My time at university passed quickly and my knowledge and understanding
of the world and people around me grew.
Naturally, my reading requirements widened over the years to include not
just educational aspects, but psychological papers, geographical, historical
documents and many other interesting items; information to be stored for a time
of quiet mental reflection. As always
happens, one eventually forgets more than one seems to remember! Nevertheless, technology gathered pace and
the amount of information readily available increased exponentially with
passing years. It had become crystal
clear to me by that time that there were at least two important factors to be
considered in relation to religion. Quite simply, in the first place one had to decide if organised religion
of all creeds held any serious value
and secondly as a side issue, if organised religion wasn't the answer, was
there still a case to be made for one God or a 'spiritual' Creator? Indeed, was or is there a spiritual world or
a mystical realm into which the human race has very little insight? Throughout this essay I have largely avoided major topics such as
religious fanaticism and its extremes.
Records concerning such subjects abound on the Internet; The Sanctuary
of Lourdes, The Doomsday Cults, the extremes of Islam, Catholicism or the
Protestant Churches, and an embarrassment of organisations who would associate
themselves with making massive amounts of money out of human misery,
gullibility and fear. Humans are, without doubt, given to astounding degrees of credulity; to
delve into the reasons for those weaknesses would require volumes for that
subject alone. People are the product of
their environments and some are luckier than others; some are simply wiser or
more cautious. But overall, many of us
are content to be led in many aspects of life, rather than question and lead. We seem readily susceptible to superstition
over common sense! If proof of human
gullibility is an issue, there are many examples one could quote. For example, can you imagine hundreds of
people gathering daily to view and pay homage to the shadow of a
fence-post? In 2003, just such an
incident occurred at Dolphin Point,
just north of Coogee Beach in NSW,
Australia. After the 'illusion' was
reported in the local press, many 'pilgrims' (mainly Catholic) gathered to
worship daily at what they considered to be a vision of the venerated Blessed
Virgin Mary. Vandals were eventually drawn to the spot and subsequently destroyed the
'remarkable' fence posts. Whilst the
Catholic Church never officially sanctioned the vision, there were those who
were so convinced of its miraculous substance, they petitioned the New South
Wales government to build a chapel on the spot.
Needless to say, no official credence was ever attached to the event and
it soon became un-newsworthy. Seeing the Light - the
definitive moment: There are no prizes for guessing at this point, my opinion of organised
religion is low to non-existent. For the
most part I consider all such organisations to be more concerned with their own
continuance and financial solubility than with the welfare of their individual
members. There are of course exceptions
and there are those within such organisations who do carry out some remarkable
charitable work. However, I think such individuals would be equally magnanimous whether
or not they were attached to religious groups.
Also, there are those who have a basic psychological need to simply
serve others. There are no simple
answers to such subjects; it is all part of life's rich pattern. As to the other aspects under consideration: is there some sort of creator or spiritual world worth taking into
consideration; those ideas took me a longer to arrive at a conclusion which
satisfied my own needs. Predictably perhaps the answers started to
drop into place through a passage I read in a book. At the time of reading, I was so impressed by
the words in front of me; I was moved to record the following notes below,
followed by the passage in question. I
make no apology for quoting that passage, word for word, here in this
essay. Religion has never satisfied my ‘curiosity
void’ as to the timeless questions, what comes after this life and what indeed
is this life all about? Religion has
never offered me any great 'spiritual comfort' either, simply, perhaps, because
I don’t really go for the idea of there being some sort of personified spook
lurking within my body, waiting around for me to cark it before my soul leaps
into the ether to sit on a fluffy white cloud; there to watch the world go by
until the world eventually ceases to exist.
The following passage makes more sense to me than all the ethereal
afterlife stories offered up by various religious organizations. After reading it I wondered why anyone would
want a more complex or mystical explanation; or some sort of touchy-feely
parable to ease their (often painful) passing from this mortal coil: Davy Jones Bill Bryson: ‘A Short
History of Nearly Everything’ 2005 pp.176, Ch. 9: The Mighty Atom.
Bryson rattles on about the properties of atoms a couple of times in his
book, but the magic thing is I found great
comfort in the basic logic conveyed by such a simple scientific explanations
that runs like this… …The
great Caltech physicist, Richard Feynman,
once observed that if you had to reduce scientific history to one important
statement it would be: ‘All things are made of atoms’. They are everywhere and they constitute everything. Look around you. It is all atoms. Not just the solid things
like walls and tables and sofas, but the air in between. And they are in numbers that you really
cannot conceive. The
basic working arrangement of atoms is the molecule. A molecule is simply two or more atoms
working together in a more or less stable arrangement… At
sea level, at a temperature of 0 degrees Celsius, one cubic centimetre of air
(that is, a space about the size of a sugar cube) will contain 45 billion-billion
molecules. And
they are in every single cubic centimetre you see around you. Think how many cubic centimetres there are in
the world outside your window; how many sugar cubes it would take to fill that
view. Then think how many it would take
to build a universe. Atoms, in short,
are very abundant. They
are also fantastically durable. Because
they are so long-lived, atoms really get around. Every atom you possess (in your body) has almost certainly passed through several stars and
been part of millions of organisms on its way to becoming you. We are each so atomically numerous and so
vigorously recycled at death that a significant number of our atoms, up to a
billion for each of us, it has been suggested, probably once belonged to
Shakespeare. A billion more each came
from Buddha and Genghis Khan and Beethoven and any other historical figure you
care to name… So,
we are all reincarnations, though short-lived ones. When we die, our atoms will disassemble and
move off to find new uses elsewhere, as part of a leaf or other human being or
drop of dew. Atoms themselves, however,
go on practically forever. Nobody
actually knows how long an atom can survive, but according to Martin Rees it is
probably 1035 years, a number so big that even I am happy to express
it in mathematical notation… Errata Note - "the nuclei of every atom you
possess has most likely passed through several stars" "Jupiter
Scientific has done an analysis of this problem and the figure in Bryson's book
is probably low…ALSO… It is likely that each of us has about 200 billion atoms
that were once in Shakespeare's body, etc." Bryson's book - A Short History
of Nearly Everything, was one of the best selling popular science books
around in 2005. I would recommend
reading it, to anyone with an interest in the world around them. Copies if still in print were available in
both paper and hard-back. The revelation in the above text permanently solidified my
viewpoint. It was as if a door had
opened onto a new world. The answers were so simple, so obvious and
yet so elusive for all those years. The
beauty of the explanation never failed to amaze me. Perhaps that was how 'the faithful' felt when they, saw the light! However, as
always happens, once one question seemed to have been answered a dozen others
swiftly become apparent. I thought much
on what I’d read in Bryson's book over the next year or so and sought to answer
other questions that had cropped up. Once one accepted the obvious basics facts as laid out above, it then
followed quite naturally that there arose a need to go back and get a grip on
the other basics like: how did life occur on Earth, and how did it
evolve. If one discounted the obviously
phony mythological arguments presented by religions, then it followed one must,
if answers are to be found, proceed down the road as laid out by science and
physics. Anyone going through this
process will find that there are a thousand feasible avenues to follow as parts
of the puzzle fall into place. Be
assured, there are many very well-educated people in this world only too
pleased to share their sound scientific knowledge with you. Their books occupy the shelves in our
bookshops and libraries; their work is well written and well researched, with a
wider reading audience in mind. My new starting point from there was to get to grips with
evolution. My favourite author for those
biological conundrums was Professor Clinton Richard Dawkins, the British
ethologist*, evolutionary biologist and prolific author. (*study of animal behaviour) Richard Dawkins is one of those controversial people I mentioned
earlier, whose views really disturb and threaten his adversaries. (See: http://richarddawkins.net/) Published in 2004 - The Ancestor's
Tale - rightly described as: One of
the richest accounts of evolution ever written - answered many of my
questions. I have read most of Dawkins'
published works, and can honestly say that I have benefitted immensely from his
superior wisdom over the years. Whilst I didn't realise the fact when I started reading Dawkins, it
turned out that he is also a powerful advocate for atheism. I only wish with hindsight, I'd had some of
his responses committed to memory all those years ago when overwhelmed by the
Jehovah's Witness propaganda. The God Delusion - 2006 - was one of the
most amusingly refreshing, politically and religiously incorrect books I have
ever had the pleasure to read.
Naturally, once one becomes aware of the availability of such
publications, the door opens to other tomes of a similar nature. That in turn opens the door still further to
a miscellany of sound views; one begins to realise, there are those out there
who have walked the same paths seeking real answers. Not only have they walked those same paths
but they have found sensible, logical answers, and aren't afraid to speak out,
sharing their hard won knowledge with the world at large. Whilst I could spend an eternity reviewing books, I will resist the
temptation to do so here. Suffice to say
dear reader; if you want answers don't be afraid to seek out other views even
if they don’t harmonize with your current views. In 2006 aged 62, due to ill-health, I took early retirement. In an effort to keep myself occupied, for a
short while I studied Philosophy with the Open University. My first area of study was the period known as: The Enlightenment, which began circa 1650 and heralded the coming
of our modern age of thinking and reasoning.
Uppermost during that period was the power-struggle between the Catholic
Church and free-thinking men and women who disagreed with the dogma that had
constrained intellectual development for centuries. Governments, royalty and religion, all at war
with a variety of intellectual European individuals who were prepared to risk
all to bring sanity and freedom to a morally bankrupt world. It was a period of history in which anyone with a modicum of rational
curiosity should become more aware. Not
only was that period the beginning of modern philosophy, it also witnessed the
blossoming of the Industrial Revolution and the expansion of modern
science! The ‘church’ and religions were forced to relinquish a stranglehold over
the laws of physics and ownership of the universe through a self-proclaimed
alliance with 'God'. The human race at last began to uncover the
real mysteries of our natural world. The
mythical shrouds that had smothered intellectual development for hundreds of
years were finally being stripped away. Following, The Enlightenment,
my course plunged me backwards in time to the Ancient Greeks. Amazingly, it was there I found yet more
evidence of not only human ingenuity - but also of human gullibility and
malleability. The human race is indeed a
strange multifaceted creature! On the
one hand so capable of powerful decisive intellectual achievements and yet, on
the other, so quick to fill the dark gaps of ignorance with garbage, fashioned
by those who would manipulate others for personal gain! Amongst the Ancient Greeks, I found many important groups, including:
the Atomists, Mathematicians, especially
geometry, Astronomers, Scientists, Poets, Healers, Agriculturalists, the beginnings of Western Culture, Religion, and of course, Mysticism! The very roots of many of today's religious
fables are embedded there and even long before that time. Adam
and Eve appeared under different mystical names, the Great Flood, under a different legendary circumstance and naturally
Creation itself, under an
embarrassment of myths. For mankind, there is nothing new under the sun. If one is to understand the complexities of
human beliefs and characteristics, exploring history and pre-history becomes
virtually unavoidable. Arguments Must Withstand
Critical Examination: It is worth pausing at this juncture to discuss some of the gems put
forward in support of the existence of God. As my explorations into religions deepened,
so too did the demands for more thorough research. I can't go too deeply into the pros and cons
of each argument as there are, quite literally, volumes written on each
one. Those arguments have a history
dating back hundreds of years. There appear to be five central arguments used by theists. Those arguments are described as being negatively existential. The word
'existential' relates to observable reality; therefore by adding the word 'negative', it simply becomes a way of
saying: the arguments are neither observable nor provable! The first of those arguments is the ontological
argument, first developed by Anselm of Canterbury (1033); which in essence
claimed 'There is no greater being than
the greatest being'. The assumption
is plain, that there is in fact a 'greater
being'. No concrete detail is given
as to the identity of that being: God! No indication of what is required to become a 'greater being' is given nor indeed if one can be demoted or
promoted to the rank of 'greater being'. The bald assumption is simply that, there is a GREATEST BEING; therefore, obviously,
there can be none greater. This is
wordplay and pure semantics that have satisfied religious organisations and
those who supported them for centuries. Shroud the arguments in ambiguity to baffle
the peasants. The next in line is the cosmological
argument, which uses the somewhat frivolous argument: there is no thing that came from nothing! Then, to fill the void of ignorance, the argument unashamedly suggests
one must arrive at the conclusion, because
nothing can come from nothing, GOD must have first created the universe! Again, no proof is forthcoming and no detail
about where this spontaneous god might
have appeared from! The argument is
circular and leads to the obvious question: where
then did God come from? But you
aren't supposed to ask that question; rather, one must simply accept that this
is how it is. The standard answer to
this question, given by religious organisations is: God is outside of time. Third, the teleological argument:
an argument for the existence of God (or a creator) based on the apparent design and purpose of the universe
(intelligent design). This argument gets
bogged down in some very human emotional mire.
In the first place; why does there have to be a purpose for anything?
In a radio interview on cosmology, just this past week, I heard the interviewer
ask the interviewee: what was the purpose
of a black hole? I had to think hard
to compare that question to a list of the stupidest questions I'd ever
heard! One might as well ask: what is the purpose of the universe? As far as the human race is concerned the
answer: NOTHING would be more than
adequate. Perhaps the universe and/or a
black hole, does have a function appertaining to physics. Then again, perhaps we as supposedly
intelligent beings should be magnanimous enough simply to accept that, in the bigger
picture, nothing really has a predetermined
purpose. One day our sun will pass its 'use by date', and as stars do, it will
run out of fuel, expand and swallow the inner planets, before collapsing back
and eventually forming into a white dwarf star.
The human race won't even be a memory by that time; so what was the
purpose of the human race? Purpose, is a word that insinuates use.
Use: means there must be a
relevant object. A tool is used to do a
job: a kettle is used to boil water: a
car is used to travel. A word is a human sound that expresses an
idea, uttered to convey meaning. In the universal sense a 'word' means
nothing. Maybe that's too hard for some
people to bear. Maybe some individuals
have to have an intrinsic purpose to get out of bed. I think that's another area of debate
altogether. However, the matter is
always open to discussion! Alice came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" she asked. "Where do you want to go?" responded
the Cheshire cat. "I don't know," Alice answered. "Then," said the cat, "it
doesn't matter." ~Lewis Carroll,
Alice in Wonderland The teleological argument fails just as easily as all the other
arguments and for much the same reasons.
Such arguments are formed by people with hidden intentions and
mischievous agendas. Their arguments are created to convince the ignorant of the apparent
irrefutable authority of mythological theories (superstitions). Such arguments are constructed with the
minimum effort and a total lack of substantive proof. The fourth argument, the metaphysical
or moral argument implies: there are no moral values in a godless
world. This is another complex area when one starts to study it, because much
is involved in the moral values and principles of the human condition. The argument assumes that without God (a
god), morality would not be possible.
This type of argument annoys me immensely. It presumes that to have moral principles or
to be capable of making an ethical decision, one must be attached to some form of religion, a religion which pays
homage to an imaginary spiritual leader.
This spiritual leader has, according to the religious organisation(s),
provided a set of rules to which we must all adhere. Those who do not abide by those rules are of
course marked as immoral and incapable of making principled decisions. This same disparaging line of thought is
applied by the religious when they
talk directly about atheists or non-believers. Similarly, the same harsh judgment is applied
to secular communist or socialist political states, often
labelled: godless states. Such pompous rot just highlights the arrogance
of certain groups in society, who place themselves in a morally elevated
position, simply because of their own misguided and unsubstantiated beliefs. Obviously, this moral argument is nothing short of errant nonsense. There are countless examples, ancient and
modern, of genocide and human butchery being carried out in countries that are
anything but secular. There are also
examples of many secular cultures and organisations that have the highest of
moral codes. Evil has no boundaries. Finally, the transcendental
argument boldly assumes: there is no
atheist in the world! This argument
endeavours to prove the existence of God by arguing that logic, morals and
science eventually takes for granted a theistic worldview. How such a statement actually proves anything is not indicated. Again, there is the supposition that there
is a God and therefore, He would
(in His beneficence) naturally confer these virtues upon everyone on this
insignificant speck of cosmic dust we call home.
I can't in all honesty comment further on what, in my opinion, is simply
waffling; I leave it to the reader to make a personal decision. So, there you have it, albeit a synopsis, the major arguments put
forward by religious bodies and theologists for the existence of (a) God! Naturally, this then carries on to debates
about upon whom the obligation lies to prove the case for God's existence! In my view, that's a no-brainer, the
salesman's job is to sell the product.
Religion 'sells' God; if it wants the public to buy the goods the onus
must lie with the church to prove its case.
In my opinion, none of the above arguments can withstand any level of
critical examination. Science has thus far found no evidence to support the rather undefined
concepts of a need for a creator of some formless
description. Also, the reader should
carefully note, there is no such thing as
settled science! As much as some politicians would have us believe, for their own
political gain that ‘settled science’ is so; in fact, all scientific results
are provisional! All scientific results
are always open to challenge. All genuine scientific results depend on such a strict regime simply to
validate their findings and establish the building blocks of reliable
scientific knowledge; and still those results can be challenged any time new or
conflicting information comes to light.
In Conclusion: As I settled into retirement I sought a hobby with which to occupy my
time. Astronomy seemed like a good
choice, although I knew little or nothing of the subject. Paradoxically the topic has provided me with
many more of the missing pieces to add to my personal quest. The Universe is an enormous place. Its very existence remains a mystery to us at
this time. Its complexities hold all the
answers, but in spite of all our piffling technological advances, we understand
very little of what we are or what surrounds us. ‘Reality’
itself is a mystery. The more one knows,
the less one understands. Pandora's Box
is much like a Russian Doll; inside each box lays another, containing a new and
more complex mystery. On evidence, I'd
say whilst there are mysteries to solve human curiosity, given time, will
reveal all. Maybe we won't like what we
find. I am convinced we won't find any
sort of creature or intelligence, whose sole purpose is to
create universes. A creature, which according to religions, can exist forever, outside
of time itself, as some sort of
benign, or possibly malevolent, overseer;
a creature that, in its spare time sends instructions to this particular
planet advising inhabitants how to lead their short lives. Whilst much remains untold in my story, enough has been written to
outline a sketch. Hopefully, some of my
remarks will prompt the reader to explore their own pathway and break any
rusted-on bonds created by childhood brainwashing. At the end of the day we are here at the
behest of nature. Our purpose is simple:
to procreate and regenerate; to live and then to die; so that ‘life itself’, the chemical mystery
continues, not the irrelevant
individual. As a species, we are blessed or cursed with crude intellectual
capacities that enable us to survive in a comparatively hostile environment;
intellect to the human race is as the tooth to the tiger. One of the side effects of that crude
intellectual capacity is a magnificent imagination. We can create mind-boggling stories, which
lacking logical explanation we then choose to weave into our individual
realities. Our individual reality is
open to embellishments of all kinds; embellishments that soothe and satisfy our
restless curiosity. Sometimes understanding the actual 'boring'
reality of science and physics is just too difficult and too boring. It is easier and requires no thought or
questioning on our part, to value and accept established cultural myths and legends. Religion, superstition and ignorance always go hand in hand; and
religious organisations prey shamelessly on ignorance and fear. Death is a fact of life, and while the process of dying might be painful, death
itself should not be feared. There is no afterlife in which to be rewarded or
punished. Life is too short, grasp it in
both hands and live your life to the full.
Remember the Golden Rule: Do as you would be done by. There is much I could add in the way of opinion and my personal quest
will no doubt continue on diverse paths.
However, I feel I have in these few pages outlined my meandering pathway
through life and shared a few of my own experiences. I am the sum of those experiences. Nothing comes easily or cheaply in this
life. If you want knowledge then seek
it. Read, discuss, research, learn to
think and discover. But most
importantly; make life's decisions your own.
I place these pages on the table of dreams for your perusal. Davy Jones - 14th December 2011 " Revised &
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