My story

Once in 3rd or 4th grade to help with my add i took meds but It didn't do much. In 6th grade I took a new pill that made me sick to my stomach and even vomit. You would think that it would have been enough to warn me but it didn't. In 11th grade I started taking new  medicine. I used to take them every day except on the weekends. I felt off and I even started to lose my appetite at lunch. A year or two later my doctor told me I would be better if I took them every day instead of only on weekdays. I still ate no lunch and sometimes not even breakfast.  I stopped watching anime which I was addicted to, also getting a bit depressed. My medicine weren't working, so I stupidly thought stronger medication would fix things but it destroyed me. By then I finally had a beautiful girlfriend. I was depressed more often and I didn't play games.

A year or two later my doctor told me I would be better if I took them every day instead of only on weekdays. I still ate no lunch and sometimes not even breakfast.  I stopped watching anime which I was addicted too, also getting a bit depressed. My  medicine was not working, so I stupidly thought stronger medication would fix things but it destroyed me. By then I finally had a beautiful girlfriend. I was depressed more often and I didn't play games /got obsessed with them. I started having panic attacks, annoying people excessively, having an attitude towards my family. My head always would hurt, actually everything is a blur from that time mostly, except for a certain someone, my Girl friend. I started to question if anything was real, about what comes after death.  I saw no point to anything. Every day was a struggle. I cried every night, I used to pass out and freaked out. The bands supercell and anamanguchi , plus the youtuber pewdipie helped me a lot along with some of my friends like Jami and especially my adored girlfriend Jakari.

  One night I couldn't take it anymore, so I took those freaking pills and flushed them down the toilet, I didn't care if they cost money because I knew that my sanity was more important. The first couple of weeks were hard but I’m better now, not like I was before my  medicine but better. If I had a choice to take my medicine or not back then, I would take them. If it wasn't for them, I would have never met my wonderful girlfriend Jakari .Yes, I would go through all of that pain and misery again just to be with her.

Author's Note

Sorry for lack of detail, this was hard for me to write. im also sorry for the bad sentence structure and all that stuff to, i know its not good, i might add more later.

Reviews

[Bluefire]

That seems like Hell. But it is very sweet that you'd go through that again for your girlfriend, she's a lucky girl.
And any story can be edited, that's why they put an edit button up there in the sky, so don't worry about grammer and stuff, everyone has trouble writing things perfectly. ^^
It reminded me of a line from Superchick's song called Hero.
"When she throws the pills out, a hero is made."
Or in your case,
"When he throws the pills out a hero is made." lol

[Rika]

thanks very much! im no hero

[Bluefire]

Yeah you are. Other kids will read this and think, if he could do it, maybe I can!
You may have saved a life!

[Rika]

yeah maybe your right

[Laminators Dubai]

its beautiful my friend.
after reading that i guess i need a boyfrined...just goofing^^

[Rika]

thanks lol

[quєєn t ..]

I'm at lose for words... I know a lot of people who've gone through the same as you but none have ever made a break through... I'm proud of you :)

[Rika]

is it something to realy be proud of?

[quєєn tєα™]

To stop an addiction? Yes

[Rika]

it was more of a denpendcy but i see what your saying

[CecilA]

Congratulations on your recovery. As with any health related problem one should continue doing that which works best for your whole being: mind, body, soul and spirit. Another thing which helps is to have someone who genuinely cares about you at your side. GD I believe you can recover and live a healthy life. There will most likely be bumps in the road of life but you can overcome them. Boldly sharing your experience is therapy for your and those you have shared it with. Anytime you need me you know my address. Sincerely, Cecil

[♪Barklight♪]

it takes strength to talk about things like this and im glad your feeling better. you made the right choice to stop taking them

[Rika]

thanks, finnaly geting better i think

[Silent Wolf]

I'm glad that you're getting better, unlike me... Smart choice, though.

[Rika]

you can get better too :3 i know you can.

[Silent Wolf]

I know. I'm trying.

[Dark Rider]

I feel really bad for you to have to go through all of that. But I'm so glad you have been able to move on and try to forget the pills. I'm glad you are happy with your girlfriend and I hope it stays that way. :)

[Rika]

Thanks alot, im trying to stay strong.

[Dark Rider]

I'm glad you're holding on and not giving everything up. I'm sure things will start getting better for you soon. :)