Adhuc aleae non iacta est

"Adhuc aleae non iacta est  - verba sunt, non acta."

 

About thirteen years ago, when I was taking swimming lessons for the first time, the entire class was allowed to jump off the diving board. The whole class excitedly lined up, with some of the children angling for the front of the line. Contend and in no hurry, I took my spot toward the end of the line. I waited my turn in line, watching the kids jump off into the water in front of me without any hesitation. When my turn came about, I climbed the ladder and walked to the end of the diving board... I choked, I don't know why. I remember standing there, absolutely terrified of jumping. A breeze started blowing, and I folded my arms in front of me, dripping. All of the kids waiting behind me grew anxious and impatient, while those who had already jumped watched with detached amusement. The sun set with me still waiting there, unable to move.

Tonight, again, I'm that child standing at the end of the diving board - poised to make the next move but inexorably unable to bring myself to do it. My peers watch and fidget, seeing my indecision as the cowardice it really is - knowing exactly what my next move will be and how it will end. The day slides into the night- and soon I will lose my chance...

"The dice are not yet cast - these are words, not actions."

Author's Note

(If anybody who knows better thinks the Latin is wrong - please let me know... I'm pretty sure it's mostly write, but I might have misconjugated something somewhere - it's been a REALLY long time since I've used what little Latin I have. :D)

The next couple of things I'm going to post I'm going to do in chronological order... :)

Which should be interesting... this is where it starts... :)

Oh! The last line translates the title... XD