Living with the Loss

I wrote this for a friend because she's going through a hard time dealing with the suicide of one of her other friends.

Each day Without her there Is like a living hell Living with her words Echoing through my head About how she wanted To end it all I stood and watched her fall. Forgetting, that deep inside me I felt that same pain Now what do I do? Falling away from the feelings I've unearthed in my own heart How do I cope With something so sudden With something I never thought would die This fate has befallen me Should I lose everything My heart to break under this pressure! Now how can I find my way I turn to throw it all away But something stops me Maybe there's some other chance A fighting chance To break my emotions And let it pass I remember now Those I can't live without One should not bring me down But still the loss consumes me But I turn away And look ahead of me I have to try to move on. I know they all care But I feel like I am falling Away from their trust They're turning their backs on me But I can't accept defeat The memories ripped up and tossed I have to live with the loss. They do care They need me here Because if I go... So do their hearts And if I could set my own mind free I would have already And if I could set my heart ablaze And just move on Just move on I could gaze Into your eyes And realize That everything will be alright And the suffering Of the moment Will pass in time.. Just celebrate the life Of the fallen and mourn not the death She's still in my heart And I can feel her Leading me Putting her love into one simple motion All that's good in me And all I can't conceive She stands for And she waits for Me.