horrible feeling

what a horrifying moment.

ive never had such a horrible, empty feeling before...
even if it was only for a few seconds,
it’s remnants still linger in my mind.

it was like i suddenly didn’t care.
love was like this passing emotion that will never stay still,
so it registered itself as useless in my mind.

other living people and animals,
suddenly meant nothing.
i just didn’t care in that moment.

growing up, it was like someone just stopped time, and put me in a dark, lonely room.
everything you learn as you grow older,
it just froze and i just felt blank.

everything i might of lived for in the past, present, and future.
that was all like it meant absolutely nothing.
like it was just not even there.

...it felt like i could of just killed myself in that moment,
and not care at all,
just still feel empty.

how do others live with a feeling like that...?
i could of literally just walked off a cliff right there,
with a feeling like that.

there was no underlying feeling,
not a single spark.
completely and totally empty.

what a horrible feeling...

Reviews

[J.Sin]

I read through this at least a dozen times and it did not get any more cheerful. The emotions, the visuals, the depth of confusion and despair made me want to reach through the stanzas and wrap my arms around the person on the other end and just tell them that it would be OK. A poem that can bring forth those kinds of instincts is a truly successful piece of art. You did an incredible thing being able to paint those dark colours so vividly. Great job.

[Akira]

Thank you.