The Weight of Sorrow

The seal on my lips is broken
My mouth is filled with the taste of blood
It feels as though there was a dam behind my eyes
A flood erupts and tears stream down my face
These cracks and creaks within my body
As my bones begin to break
I can no longer hold the weight of my own sorrow
No longer human but the shell of what was
It feels as though I have been left for dead
Every ache and every pain I can feel within myself
Mountains of grief have formed within my heart
I go days without speaking a word
I wish I could enfold in myself
Take these shards of my ego and plunge them into the abdomen
Make myself feel something, anything at all other than what is
They say it is better to feel pain and misery
Then to not feel at all but what if that's all you feel
Day in and day out you are left to suffer on your own
The consequences of love are your own to bare
"You did this to yourself,
You chose to love someone you knew you couldn't have"
Is all they say to me when I cry out in pain
When I ask those I knew best for help
"How can we help what has destroyed itself,
What has pushed all else away in its true time of need"
I did not ask for this though that's what they think
I did not give myself away only to be left with an empty shell
Time will not give back what has been taken from me
Nor will it heal the wounds I dare not show for fear of what they'll say
I am but left to die on my own
To make one last decision
Do I stay?
11/03/22