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"Butten the lips, shhh....."

How can I live when I know that I'm dying
How can I be dying if I am living today
How can I cry when I'm a man with no-one to cry to
How can I talk when I've nothing to say
How can I complain and why would I bother to
I can't ask for anything, I'm alone in this I see
I cannot trouble my loved ones cannot love with another
I see  a woman, her charms and know I must look away
Some people divide my things, I'm not even gone yet
Put plans for themselves, put me up to blame
I cant laugh but it's funny, still can't laugh just the same
"I won't be here to hear you" I want to yell out loud, but I'm silent
Another thing is funny, it's that I know I will miss them
I'll be gone and I'll love them and miss them so deep
I want to recover on that loss now, hold them close and love them
But I can't, they can't get close and I know that. I hope they understand later
I've picked three friends to say goodbye to and I'll never let those words out
Instead I told them the truth and that I love them, the rest they should find in their own.
Put a period on that sentence because it's the only one completed here

I'm not really dying. I'll only do that for one tiny moment, just one tiny spot of the end is all that will find me, when it does I'll cry, be as scared as I dare then but just for one moment and that's, it's all I will give

Author's Note

ummm.... I had to write this but to make it easier on myself I didn't write much of it.