EverA Poem by FunkTaking things out and putting them away...How could I have ever known? Was always that way The interstate, the shrubs to sleep behind, the bridges had
shelves Bird s**t smelled so sour My age left me if it ever was So proud a fool as there ever could Grew fast, aged quick looked near twenty now but still a
child Amazement such a frustrating thing Brings wonder kills faith in reality To the observer appeared quite the scene A young man twenty, still is and acts only fifteen My dreams of love were the worst of all I laugh now but thought every flirt or kiss was love Never knew a game was played and a dance was a dance Dance and walk away. Saw death there, not pleasant, saw other things Expectations failed me in every way Was almost raped by a few men, I fought and won But the woman surprised me. Do they really do that? too??? At first I worked only with a pride I made up Later on I gave up with another pride I made up peircing my
flesh with poisons, taunting fate and flirting death Who crushed me the most? Was I (I admit), my memories would stand strong over me Ashamed of my ignorance beyond my strengths I built a man from what was left He fought and fought like the ends of spite. Never became mean, surprised me too... Didn’t have to, there were enough to fight around me for 100
men Somewhere along the way I lost myself again. It was my children that decided I was a dad. It was not me. Beginning to father I made every mistake My children made none, they knew what they were They were children and so good at being them It was I who needed guidance, the taught me well I'm still a fighter just not as many fights left Quit all my drugs many years ago worried I'd be alone
without them I tried to grow up on nothing and failed every step Learned only one lesson in my life and still not good at it. I learned to be a father of sorts of some kind. No report cards or comparisons "Thank God for
that" Wish I could learn more or undo how I lived but to risk it and not have them, I'll stay where I'm at My
eldest son died on me but he left me some toast, basic food of encouragement
that will feed even the poorest of man. I miss him so much and love him so hard I can't say. He was
my first real guidance in this life. I can't write more on him. Why did I write this? © 2010 FunkAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorFunkSouth Western, NEAboutNot really much to say about me because I'm not sure I really know me yet. I love art, music and individualistic theme. Followers bore the hell out of me and that does fit here because while I admi.. more..Writing
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