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Chills fill my spine
pride suppress my tears
nightmares of my greatest fears
pain piercing my heart like spears
Trying to reach back to the years
with you right beside me.
How do you expect me to go on day to day
When it seems like everytime the devil ask your permission you let him have his way!
When everyday my present is an all expense paid trip through hell!
You keep tellin me you love me, hell I cant tell...
You say pray but even still it feels like you not there???
While my faith mean while deminishes into the thin air...
No the white man aint holdin me back but he dayum sure makin it hard
Messing around with these scandolous as women, I leave up my guard
Im left bruised and overall I'm scarred
Cant find a woman in this world for me
The harder I begin to search the more I begin to see
this love and relationships thing might not be for me!
It seems like when I need you the most your gone
and Im left all alone
Withdrawn!