My heart bleeds...

It's odd how as a writer or an artist expressions come more often when full of joy or overwhelmed in pain... As I wrote this today 11/13/08 time 3:33 pm I saw this writing before in a dream...Dejavu?

   

You know how I feel yet you do nothing to stop the bleeding…

Many nights alone wondering why things became as they are…

 

All my life, all I’ve known, hard times.

So I become these hard rhymes…

 

I thought this time would be it. With you in life, I would share this trip.

Now I see you always had other plans. This whole time I thought, I was your man.

I was wrong, so I must go. That I'm not strong I will not show...

So within these moving sands I sink. And I’ll be gone before you blink.

My love for you is truly real. Time and again I’ve expressed how I feel.

This has never been enough… It all makes sense with your words so rough.

I knew it then, I refused to see. The gravity of love was holding me.

 

To look and begin again, strikes up my fear.

That it all seems true I lost the one I held near.

 

So I search for calm, I search for peace.

Looking at my hands and palms, while on my knees…

 

Oh God won’t you help me please?

-Sanee 12-31-12

Reviews

[Destiny]

"I knew it then, I refused to see. The gravity of love was holding me."

This line stood out to me because it's so true for so many people. I unfortunately am one of them. You know something is wrong, but it's much easier to pretend your paranoid or being over dramatic then to admit to yourself it's not working. I think this poem expresses that first crack in a bad break-up. Denial. And unfortunately that single emotion makes the rest that much more intense. I enjoyed you insight here. Even in retrospect we need to be reminded of the past to keep us strong in the future.
Thanx for writing.
♥Destiny♥

[SPINNING ON that dizzy ..]

What a sweet and desperate plea here ... how sad for us when our heart is broken - handed to us broken How hard it is to try again... yet we do.... how we leap and take a chance.... again being ever hopeful and open.... the human spirit - the search for love.... ahhhh

Kath

[Angela]

This is awesome!! I can really feel the pain and heartache in this piece. Yes, it is true that a writers greatest work most times comes from intense pain, sorrow, or overwhelming joy. Excellent work.

[Jessica M.]

love truly is quicksand...

[Nautili]

very evocative, I can feel the pain. I know what you mean about seeing things in dreams-I've heard whole songs on the radio, with the music and all, that I made up in the dream, and it was really good! But I can never relay it completely when I wake up, only small pieces, and then it falls flat. good job!
jo

[Brittany DeFranco]

omg such sad thoughts and words puts me in my past as memories flashes back into my head. Your a great writer, I hope to read more from you soon ^-^
~Brittany

[Spilled Her Guts in Cur..]

'All my life all I've known, hard times�

So I become these hard rhymes�'

ah, love that. so much. Great write! thanks for the add too :)